Forget-Me-Nots, Roxas

Author’s
Notes: I don’t own Kingdom Hearts.

Forget-Me-Not,
Roxas

By:
LilyChan

Prologue

“The
richness of life lies in memories we have forgotten.” – Cesare
Pavese, diary entry (The Burning Brand: Diaries 1935-50)

Axel
turned on his side to see the blond sleeping soundly from the
activities that had occurred only a few hours earlier. He sighed as
he once again shut his aqua colored eyes. He couldn’t believe that
he had to erase his memories because he was stupid enough to blurt
out their relationship during an argument with Demyx, their latest
lackey.

Feeling
anxious, he rose to his feet, the blanket lightly covering his
crotch. He felt cool with the air conditioner blowing all around the
seemingly empty apartment. Axel didn’t want Roxas to leave him –
it was too soon. He didn’t want his love to leave him because the
Organization thought that Roxas was a distraction.

Hell,
they better be thankful Axel’s still in the gang! Though, if he
were to meet Roxas before him joining the Organization, he was sure
he wouldn’t have joined at all. He turned to see the blond’s
nostrils slightly get bigger then smaller and how his lips were
slightly parted.

It
was defiantly the little things that kept him with the blond – and
why he even considered leaving the Organization. Roxas had only
recently discovered the band of conspirers against the government.
However, he didn’t understand that Axel was to be punished for
having a relationship outside the circle. Though there was an option
to save Roxas.

Erase
his memories. Forget that he had even met Axel in the first place. Of
course the Organization couldn’t find out. He’d have to make up
something in order to not only protect his own hide, but it’s also
to protect Roxas.

Axel
looked away. Yeah he had always put up a tough front, but he was a
romantic much to his dismay. He wanted to love Roxas. Perhaps this
was because it was against the rules? It didn’t matter anyway.

He
glanced at the blinking numbers on the alarm clock.

2:49
AM

Axel
bit his lip. It was almost time for his erasing. It was scheduled to
be done at 6 in the morning, and Axel couldn’t be around him while
it was being processed. He gripped the bed sheets tighter, as if he
was trying to get a hold of time and make it last longer.

Almost
three hours to go.

Why
did it have to be like this? Why didn’t he meet Roxas until before
he made his decision on becoming a member? And besides even if he
didn’t meet the blond, he would’ve wanted to get out of the
Organization. Eventually, he would if that counted for something.

He
got up, as he felt the cool air. He shivered as he bent down to pick
up his boxers. Even though he was going to forget about the red-head,
Axel was sure that he himself wouldn’t forget about Roxas. And if
there was a chance to get him back, he would take it. After all, he
doesn’t always wave at the right opportunities as they pass by.
However he decided that he might as well start packing. He promised
himself that he wouldn’t let Roxas see him when the blond woke up.

He
just couldn’t be there. It would ruin things. Axel would resort to
even more rash decisions. And he couldn’t risk their lives anymore.
It was the only way out. He felt something on his cheek. The red-hair
reached up to touch, but felt water.

He
was crying of a broken heart. The man certainly felt his heart
breaking. There really wasn’t anything he could do about it,
really, as much as he wanted to. He glanced at the ground and
remembered when he had first met him. Axel smiled warmly at the
memories.

At
least one of us will have memories, he bitterly thought. He
slightly jumped when he heard the soft tap on the door. He glanced at
the door. If there was another way, Axel swore he could try and find
another way. Reluctantly, he got up to answer it after he had fixed
his pants. Behind the door was the silver-haired prick that had made
his first years in the Organization hell after when he got the
scratches.

“Hello,
dear Axel,” Riku, the aforementioned silver-haired prick, said as
he let himself in. He wore his lab coat as well with his white latex
gloves, and white shoes that only doctors wore in the hospitals. He
had a demented grin but Axel only glared at him. However, Riku
responded before Axel could even open his mouth. “Have you been
crying? It’s so strange seeing you play the submissive part,” he
quipped.

“Fuck
you,” Axel stated as he rigorously wiped his eyes with his wrist.
The other man simply chuckled. He glanced at the pictures that the
red-head had planted in the quaint apartment as the man struggled to
put on his shirt.

“You
know, you can still go behind the Organization’s back,” he said,
a bit solemnly, “you two still can be safe."

“Riku,
just because you’re ballsy doesn’t mean I am,” he said as he
searched his jeans for a cigarette. “Besides, I’ve risked Roxas
for too long. You’re just a doctor. You can get away with it
because you can either kill them or just make them seriously ill. I
don’t have that power.”

He
found the pack and beat the bottom until one stuck out. He grabbed it
with his mouth and brought out his lighter. He switched it on and the
fire lit its ashes. Axel slowly sucked on the stick.

Riku,
however, grabbed it and put it out in between his fingers.

“You’re
right, Axel. I do have that power over them. And you’re right. I
can get away with it. But I can threaten them again for your
Blondie.” Riku pointed to the now stirring blond. Axel glared at
him but it left when he heard the boy stirring.

“I
have to get out of here, Riku. I-I…don’t think I can see that
again.” Axel said as he turned away. He grabbed his coat and bolted
out the door. Riku blinked his aqua-blue eyes.

“Damn
you, Axel,” he muttered as he heard the boy screaming in the other
room. “Always leaving me with the hard work.”

Ending
Notes: I hope you enjoyed this one. :3 Don’t worry I haven’t
forgotten about the other KH fanfic! I’m working on the second
chapter right now for it. Hehe. Please review if you enjoyed it.