Because You Loved Me--Even If I Didn't Want You To

Kamirine’s Warning:
This chapter contains a bit of SLASH. If this bothers you in anyway, please skip the beginning of this chapter. Or you can go to fanfiction.net and read the safe version. Otherwise, I would like to thank my friend Scriba ::waves:: for helping me with this chapter. Thank you very much ::hugs::

This is also a bit long. I tried to cut the chapter evenly but I thought that was a good place to stop. Forgive me. ::sniffle::


Chapter Four: Amy Rose Takes Her Stand - Part 2
(AKA: The Beginning of a Great Misunderstand)

Sonic blinked up at Shadow, his mouth gapping. He was calling him by his first name again. And more importantly, he was straddling him. And he didn’t like the way he was looking at him.

He grunted his name as he struggled to get the ebony hedgehog off of him but to no avail. Shadow simply smirked down at him, taking pleasure in seeing him wither under him.

“Sonic, ” he replied. A simple sentence but it was marred-- Shadow's voice was lower than usual, husky. Sonic could swear that their faces weren't even an inch apart

“You’re violating my space,” Sonic stated with a nervous laugh, taking the whole thing like a joke. “Okay Shadow...get off.” When he didn’t budge, Sonic could feel his nervousness–and anger–rising as he tried a little harder to move him off. But Shadow still held him down rather easily his smirk growing ever wider. So much so that Sonic could see his pointed teeth perfectly. And that my friends, was a scarey sight.

“Why would I want to go and do that?” He asked, his voice still dripping with husky insolence. “When I've got you right where I want you.”

Sonic paused in his struggle, staring deep into those crimson eyes before taking a deep breath, he said dumbly, “What's that supposed to mean?”

“Oh... Sonic, Sonic, Sonic... He taunted softly, ‘tsking’ a little after saying his name. “You know exactly what that means...” He pressed his body against the other more so than before.

Sonic’s eye twitched as he swallowed hard. This wasn't happening. It just. . .wasn’t He found himself looking from side to side, hoping against hope that someone–anyone–even Eggman, came stumbling into the forest to help him. But seeing this for the false hope that it was, he began to struggle with Shadow again, his heart pounding. The damn jerk wouldn’t budge And Sonic was beginning to panic. Where did all his strength go? Why couldn’t he get him to move?

He looked up at Shadow again, his eyes flashing with soft protest as his struggling faltered..

“S-Shadow...”

“S-Sonic, ”.Shadow taunted, before catching Sonic's lips in a tender kiss.

He could barely feel the rain as it fell down hard on the both of them.

Shadow finally pulled away, taking Sonic's bottom lip and sucking softly. Sonic's mind wondered... thinking of how that gentle sucking would feel on other parts of his body...

But then he snapped back into the here-and-now and more importantly, back to his senses.

“Get off me! ” he all but growled. Shadow moved his hips, pinning Sonic harder against the soft ground. The rain blanketed them, their breath making small puffs of condensation from the cold.

Shadow narrowed his eyes and kissed Sonic again, letting his tongue probe the other's mouth. After a moment of protest, Sonic gave in, caressing Shadow's tongue with his own.

Shadow moaned in delight as Sonic gave in, the vibrations of his voice running through Sonic, making his body heat rise in temperature. He let his defensiveness slip away, and his body pressed itself against Shadow as the kiss became more passionate. Soon, Sonic felt hardness against his thigh.

Sonic's eyes opened in slight surprise and broke the kiss.

“Shadow... ” he murmured.

Shadow chuckled in Sonic's ear, his warmth breath on his skin. It was driving him mad.

“You're not exactly soft either.”

Sonic blushed. “Shadow...” He felt a little silly. It was like he couldn’t say much of anything else but the ebony hedgehog’s name.

“Sonic...” Shadow mocked, moving his body upward, and the two erect member touched and a hard shiver came over Sonic. It felt so good, so right. But at the same time so deliciously forbidden...wrong...

“Please...” He pleaded as a pathetic last ditch effort to save himself. A very pathetic attempt indeed, as Shadow still had him pinned, trailing kisses down his neck.

“Hush.”

Shadow made a trail of kisses to his chest, only stopping to gently tug on skin with his teeth. Sonic moaned.

‘Would it really be so bad?’ he wondered. ‘Would it really be so horribly wrong to feel so good?’

Shadow planted a soft kiss on Sonic's hips, teasing the hedgehog's cock with nimble fingers. Sonic gasped, his face red.

“Sh--Sha–”

Shadow took it in his mouth, the warmth enclosing the hard length. Sonic's hips jerked.

“Shadow! ” Sonic cried.

He smirked as his trailed his tongue down the shaft, gently sucking at certain points. Sonic threw his head back.

Shadow's head bobbed slowly as he sucked him off, taking his tight balls in hands and massaging. Sonic was clawing at the damp ground, his breath heavy. Sonic had never felt anything so good... he never wanted it to stop.

“More... Please, ” he cried. Shadow obliged, flicking his tongue over Sonic's member.

Sonic's hips jerked for the last time as he finally felt sweet release and Shadow swallowed, milking the now soft length for all it had.

Sonic's body shivered as he came back out of his stupor, finally feeling the rain that caressed his face, panting. Okay, so that hadn’t been the worst thing ever. But didn’t Tails say once that ‘some things that feel hot aren’t always right for bears’? Or...something...

Shadow stood over him, still rock hard.

“Don't think I'm finished with you...” He said before opening Sonic's legs and hoisting his ass upwards.

Sonic blinked at him in complete confusion before trying to pull his legs back.

“Whoa...wait a sec,” he panted, pulling away. “What are you doing?”

He felt something poke him at his entrence and Sonic completely froze up, staring at Shadow has if he had grown two heads.

“What does it look like?” Shadow replied softly, but his crimson eyes were daring Sonic to try and pull away from him. And Sonic could never resist a dare.

“Y-you can’t do that!” Sonic replied with a slight pitch to his voice, that fight coming back to him as he tried desperately to pull his legs away from Shadow and ignore the excitment coursing through his body. Shadow at this point, was holding his legs up by his calves.

“I most certainly will,” Shadow growled, struggling to keep Sonic still before he impaled himself. While this would serve him right–it could hurt. A lot.

“Just relax.”

“Relax!” Sonic screamed as Shadow were crazy. “How can I relax? You’re trying to sodomize me!”

Shadow chuckled. “My, we’re using big words now.” He was finally able to throw Sonic’s leg over his shoulders, ignoring the fact that Sonic was trying desperately to kick his heels into the back of his head but to no success.

“Just calm yourself or it will hurt more than it has too,” Shadow announced, the tip of his weeping member right on his opening. Then with a slight chuckle, he leaned down to Sonic’s ear and whispers “We all need our pleasure. Let’s not be so selfish.”

“Selfish!” Sonic cried. “You’re not the one on bottom! Shadow– I’m serious! Don’t–”

But it was too late as Shadow entered him with a loud grunt and Sonic let a rather embarrassing, high pitched scream. . .

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And woke up with a start, still screaming. He stopped suddenly, realizing he was still in one of Tail’s spare bedrooms (or Sonic’s room as he dubbed it). But he couldn’t help but look around the room cautiously, his emerald eyes darting into all the darkened corners of the room, as window’s had been drawn.

A few moments later, he heard footsteps right outside his door and Tails came bursting into the room alarmed with Knuckles right behind him, looking ready for a fight.

“Sonic, are you okay? What happened?” Tails asked with worry, syrup covering his chin.

Sonic blinked up at him then trying to keep his breathing under control as it had become a steady pant, he faked a yawn, leaning back on the bed. “ Nothing little buddy. I’m fine. Just a bad dream.”

“You sure Sonic,” Tails asked with worry evident on his face. He smiled at him. “It’s okay. Just Eggman–you know–winning.”

Knuckles scuffed. “Yeah, like that would ever happen.”

All three shared a small laugh before Tails left. Knuckles paused as he was heading out and looked back around the door, smirking. "So, you always scream like girl when you wake up?"

He recieved a pillow to the face as his answer and laughing, Knuckles went back to breakfast, leaving Sonic to his own troubled thoughts.

There was no way he was going back to sleep. Not after that.

He took a few calming breaths before he sat up again, propping his pillow up to make himself more comfortable.

This was turning out to be an odd day for him. First it was Shadow calling him ‘Sonic’ and blushing. And that just *didn’t happen. Then there was this morning once he got back to the workshop.

When he had entered, everyone had looked at him strangely. Like they all wanted to say something but couldn’t muster up the words–or perhaps it was courage-- to say anything at all. They all just stared at him slightly shocked expressions on their faces.

And then there was Amy. She looked up at him with eyes full of tears. And she looked hurt. This had concerned him greatly and he moved forward, asking her what was wrong with her, grabbing for her hand.

But to his utter surprise, she had moved away from him and this had made him stop. She continued to look at him with accusing eyes and he frowned sadly at her. He had done something to upset her again. And this time, it was serious. But. . .what on earth had he done?

“Amy...” he had began but before he could say anything else, she had gotten up and stormed out of the room. Moments later, they heard a door slam. She had left the workshop via the back entrance–into the garden.

Sonic looked around the room, staring into each one of their faces, searching for someone to tell him exactly what was going on.

But Tails quickly adverted his eyes and made himself busy with pretending–because Sonic could see his fingers weren’t touching the actual keyboard– to type something up on his large computer panel, concentrating on a yellow Chaos Emerald as Cream walked over and sat it down right in front of him.

Knuckles was scowling at him like he was fighting to say something but Rouge had put a hand on his arm and she gave him the worst false smile he had ever seen.

“She’s okay Sonic,” she had begun in a low, controlled voice. “She just...needs some time alone.”

Sonic’s frown deepened. He wasn’t going to get any help from them. Not while they were secretly giving him accusing stares–though Knuckles was quite more obvious than the others.

Ignoring the eyes that followed him, he simply walked out of the room and followed Amy.

He had found her sitting right behind a line of rose bushes, her knees drawn up to her arms with her face was buried in them. And he could hear soft sniffles. His face softened quickly. He never liked making her cry.

He cautiously made his way over to Amy and took a seat right beside her, placing a hand on her back. She didn’t make an effort to move.

“Amy, come one, please?” he pleaded in a soft voice. “Tell me what’s wrong.”

His answer, was a Piko Piko mallet to the face.

His leg twitched as he grabbed his face, mumbling curse words into his hands. Man that really did hurt.

“Do you hate me that much? ” she had screamed down at him angrily, shaking slightly as she steadied the mallet over her head, preparing to strike again.

Sonic quickly flipped to his feet, one hand still up to his face as he replied quickly “Amy I don’t hate you! I never hated you! I don’t even know what I did to make you think that! ”

She lowered the mallet slightly, but not enough that Sonic felt completely comfortable.

He continued. “But whatever I did to make you so upset, I’m sorry Just don’t cry anymore okay? I really hate to see you cry. Especially when I’m the one that makes you so upset. ”

This time, she completely let go of the mallet and her face softened. Her lips quivered as the corners of her eyes burned with salty water and tears slowly began to fall down her face again.

“No more crying now,” he said softly, taking her in his arms and hugging her close. He rested his chin on her shoulder. He really was tired and his side still ached a little. But he really had to make sure she was okay. Then he decided to take a stab in the dark at what exactly was wrong.

“Amy, I’m really sorry if I gave you a scare. But we had to go in the water to get the chaos emerald. And Shadow saved me before I drowned. And he was even nice enough to let me rest my head in his lap,” he paused to laugh before he continued, missing Amy’s look of utter shock.

“Though why he just didn’t push my head off is beyond me. But it was a nice gesture anyway I guess.”

He felt her pull out of his embrace and look right into his emerald eyes, her face inches away from his. “You mean...you weren’t awake when I got there?”

He had shook his head. “No. Shadow told me before I got here that you had come though.”

She blinked at him and then more tears streamed down her face before she flew back into his arms and wrapped her own tightly around his neck.

“Oh Sonic,” she had whispered happily.

His eye twitched slightly. Amy’s emotions flip flopped more than the shoe of the same name.

She finally let go when he had given a sharp cry of pain and grabbed at his side, falling on one knee.

At this point, Cream and Tails had run out of their hiding places, Cream going to get some bandages while Tails ran up to Sonic to help him to his feet with Amy, both having worry evident on their faces.

Sonic got back to his feet with their help and he then insisted that he was just fine.

“What happened?” Tails asked staring at the wound and he summed up the entire incident the best he could, admitting that after he fell into the water and woke up only moments ago before getting there, he wasn’t sure what happened except what Shadow had told him.

He had looked over at Amy then, whom as staring at him as if in heavy thought, the light that had seemed to fade when she was upset had returned with ferocity to her eyes.

“Let’s get you up to bed, okay?” she had finally said softly, taking him under one arm while Tails took the other. He sighed. Now he was going to be babied...



Sonic was taken out of his thoughts when he felt the pain in his side returning. He slowly laid back down then turned in the bed on his good side, taking in a sharp breath as a small stab of pain greeted him on his other from sheer movement.

He’d be more than happy when that was gone. It may be small, but it still packed a punch.

When they had brought him up to the room, he had to assure a more than worried Cream, that he didn’t need any bandaging up, before she would leave it alone. And she barely did, as she left the bandages right on the night stand, just in case, before leaving with Tails, who told him that they would let him rest up before they went on to search for the other Chaos Emeralds, much to Sonic’s protest

Amy had stayed behind, making sure he was comfortable by fluffing his pillows, tucking him in, making sure he didn’t want or need anything before turning to leave.

Then, she had paused and much to Sonic’s amazement, quickly made her way back across the room, pecked him on the lips as quick as she possibly could, then ran back out, shutting the door behind her.

What had made this experience even odder was that he really didn’t know how he wanted to react to the kiss.

The kiss had been so quick and unexcepted that he really didn’t have time to process it properly. He wasn’t exactly sure if the kiss bothered him–or if it had actually meant something to him. But either way, it had taken his breath away.

But then, so did that nightmare.

Sonic shivered at the mere thought of how it made him feel.

It was by far, the worst dream he’d had involving Shadow lately. And what bothered so much other than having the dream at all, was that his dream self didn’t seem to be bothered by the actions. Even though he had protested, he had felt excited in his dream. Anxious. He had wanted everything Shadow was willing to give him...even at the end...

“Man, what has been wrong with me lately,” he grumbled to himself. “Me–and Shadow? Have I been spending too much time with him?”

Then he thought back to when he had woken up after nearly drowning. Something he had been ignoring. When he had finally come to after–whatever it was that happened with the stupid octopus–he had *felt like someone was kissing him. And even in his subconscious, he knew the kiss hadn’t bothered him at all. In fact, it had calmed him down, made him feel safe, wanted.

But when he opened his eyes, he only saw Shadow. Staring down at him silently. No lips were on his. Shadow was just sitting there letting his head rest in his lap, staring down at him as if he was in some heavy thoughts of his own.

Deciding not to make his head hurt anymore, Sonic finally got up, ignoring the stabbing pain in his side. He just wasn’t going to get any rest right now so he might as well do his second pass time: eat.

And whatever had been cooked smelled delicious because the smell was drifting all the way up to his bedroom.

‘It had to be something with syrup,’ he said to himself. ‘Tails did have syrup dripping down his chin after all.’

He made his way out of the room and down the stairs, pausing once he got to the livingroom. The front door was ajar and he could hear voices. Angry voices.

He crept slowly to the front door, and opened it a bit further as quietly as he could.

And there was the topic of his thoughts right in front of him, in some kind of deep conversation.

He heard Amy yell “– you can deny it all you want but I can see right through you. So you can just forget it mister because it will never EVER happen. Loving you will never work ” They glared at each other once more before she took her hands off her hips and turning on her heel, began to walk back toward the front door–and stopped short once she saw him standing there. Shadow frowned and Amy looked rather worried and Sonic couldn’t help but wonder if he had heard too much.

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Once she had left the workshop, Amy didn’t waste any time finding her target, who hadn’t made it that far. Actually, she was almost positive he had chosen to wait for her.

He had his back to her and she could almost picture the smug frown on his face with his arms crossed in front of his chest. His intense crimson eyes staring at something as if it was inferior to him.

She made her mallet disappear as quickly as it had appeared. Violence wasn’t the answer right now. And truthfully, she didn’t really want to know how Shadow would react to being hit over the head, remembering having to spend the night at Lady Vanilla’s after doing so accidently–and not being able to get through to him that it was a ‘accident’. Not right now anyway.

“We both know what you did,” she said quietly. “And while I may not know exactly why you did it, you should know..”

She paused before she took in a nice breath and stating boldly, “ Sonic is my boyfriend.”

He slowly turned to face her, raising an eyebrow before he spoke.

“Funny. I don’t remember the faker mentioning that before.”

“He doesn’t need to,” Amy retorted, placing her hands on hips and scowling. “It’s obvious to everyone that Sonic and I belong together. And once he stops acting like an immature child and sees it for himself, there won’t be any question about it to anyone. Even you.”

Shadow let a smirk play on his face as he simply ‘hmphed’ at her. “If you desire to believe whatever your little mind has conceived, your free to do so. But do not pick a fight with me about your disillusioned romance. I have no interest in that faker what so–”

He paused as they heard a high pitched scream fill the air. Amy looked alarmed but Shadow didn’t seem bothered in the least. The both listened and heard hurried footsteps in the Workshop, followed by Rouge’s calm laugh and joke about the scream. This calmed Amy down, but only a little as she really wanted to see what it was about.

“–ever.” he finished slowly. This snapped her out of her thoughts and she rounded on him again.

“Liar!” Amy accused, going so far as to point her finger at him before placing her hand back to her hip. “I know what I saw and I know how you looked at me after you did it ”

“You know nothing little girl,” Shadow snapped, becoming rather annoyed with this third degree treatment.

“Don’t you think for one minute that you have something over me ” she announced. “You may have fooled everyone else but not me! I know what I saw and I know that Sonic doesn’t even know he was being kissed! ”

Shadow glared at her but couldn’t help but feel relief even though he didn’t show it. He was sure the little whelp had blabbed it the azure hedgehog by now, she certainly had to everyone else.

“I know how Sonic really feels, he’s shown me so many times and in so many ways that I have to admit, I’m a little ashamed I was even worried about such a little thing like kisses from you. But get whatever your thinking you can simply get out of your mind about my darling because I will win Sonic’s heart completely! Just you wait and see Shadow, you won’t stand a chance against me!! ” she practically sang in confidence, pointing her finger at him again with a triumphant smile plastered on her face.

Shadow only blinked at her unimpressed as his face fell into a purely annoyed and bored expression. “If you didn’t have such a one track mind, you would understand by now that I’m not interested in that faker and have no plans of ‘fighting’ you for his ‘heart’. ”

“A girl knows when she’s being threatened,” Amy informed him as she lowered her hand, sounding as if she was letting him in on a big secret. “And that kiss was more than enough proof to let me know that you are definitely trying to threaten my relationship with my darling ”

‘What relationship,’ Shadow thought to himself as he let out a low growl but Amy put up her hand to cut him off before he could speak out loud, ignoring the death glare he gave her for her having the audacity to actually interrupt him. “No amount of you saying differently is going to change my mind Shadow. So give up. And give up Sonic too Go ahead because you can deny it all you want but I can see right through you. So you can just forget it mister because it will never ever happen. Loving you will never work ”

And glaring at him, she turned on her heel–and came face to face with the topic of their discussion. And he was frowning at the pair, looking between the two of them.

Shadow frowned back but Amy got rather worried. Just how much had he heard?

“What...are you to talk about?” Sonic demanded slowly, still staring between the two, frowning. Amy’s concern melted away and she almost had to fight back a smile of excitement. Was that jealousy she heard in his tone?

“Um...”she began quietly.

“None of your business,” Shadow announced in a cold voice.

Sonic’s eyes froze on him–or rather his chest as he seemed to be avoiding looking at his face– and the frown deepened. Amy thought of speaking up but she stopped herself. This is what Rouge called ‘taking advantage of a good situation’.

“Let the enemy dig themselves into a hole they hopefully can’t get out of,” Rouge had said once. “And if that doesn’t work, hit them with your mallet.”

And Shadow was the enemy. And he was rather good at rubbing people the wrong way...

“You made Amy upset,” Sonic insisted.

“And that makes it your business because?” Shadow snapped.

‘Yep,’ Amy thought to herself as she saw something flicker in Sonic’s eyes. ‘He really was.’ But she couldn’t help but wonder if Sonic was already upset with Shadow about something. Maybe he did know about the kiss. . .

Nevertheless, she touched his arm before he could snap back and he looked over at her. She smiled sweetly at him. “It’s okay Sonic,” she replied slowly, choosing her words carefully as Rouge had taught her. “I think Shadow and I have come to an understanding, so lets just go get some breakfast. I’m sure Cream is worried by now.”

Sonic gave her a weak smile and nodded, but they both turned to glare back at Shadow.

The ebony and crimson hedgehog didn’t speak but instead simply glared back at the couple. Amy was shooting him a look that screamed M-I-N-E just as Sonic unconsciously took a hold of Amy’s hand. She gave Shadow a smile of triumph that Sonic couldn’t see because he was too busy staring at the patch of white fur on Shadow’s chest.

But Sonic finally looked up into Shadow’s face, the sunlight making the very light shade of crimson evident and he gave Amy’s hand a slight squeeze. Crimson fury stared into emerald pools of defiance and jealousy before pivoting, Shadow simply disappeared in a puff of speed, only the dust that his shoes kicked up where left in his wake.

After staring after him a moment longer, Sonic turned to Amy and smiled, the blush gone. “We should eat. I’m starving ”

Amy nodded in agreement and Sonic, finally having noticed he had taken Amy by the hand, simply let it go with a clear of his throat and crimson touching his cheeks returning. Amy’s eyes twinkled at him and he just shrugged as he turned quickly, trying to avoid the moment all together–and saw a group staring at them from the doorway, hunched low, eyes peering around the doorframe as they watched.

They both sweat dropped and seeing that they were caught, everyone came into full view, laughing sheepishly as they tried to cover themselves up.

“I was just going to see if you were okay cause you weren’t in your room...” Rouge laughed.

“Tails said that you were um, hitting Shadow with your Piko Piko mallet, ” Knuckles cut in, pointing at Amy.

“And we wanted to make sure that you were okay because we’re all friends here and we care ” Rouge finished.

Silence.

“It was Tail’s idea,” Knuckles added and when Sonic and Amy glared at him, he looked like a deer caught in the headlights.

“I did not Sonic, they made me tell them that Amy and Shadow were arguing just like when they made Cream and I spy on you in the garden!”

“Traitor!” Knuckles and Rouge hissed angrily at him, making Tails shrink back before he ran outside and behind Sonic.

Sonic gave them an annoyed frown and shook his head. Man, they could be a pain.

“I’m hungry and you’re holding me up from my—” He looked at Cream who blinked before she smiled eagerly.

“Pancakes!”

“Pancakes,” he finished matter of factly before walking past them and into the house with Tails practically as his shadow trying to avoid both Knuckles and Rouge.

Knuckles sighed and followed along with Cream.

Amy shot Rouge a quick smile and thumbs up before running inside herself, calling for Sonic to wait up for her, pushing Knuckles down as she went.

Rouge smirked slightly as she raised an eyebrow and followed, stepping over Knuckles, assuring Cream he was just fine as she had stopped to check on him and continued on her way.

Author's Note:
Well, I meant to update sooner, but I had to get my little Slash scene together the best I could. Forgive me, as I haven't written Slash in like, forever so I had to get a little help. Though in the end, I went to comedy and ended the scene because it was much more graphic, so much so that I wish to save it for another time coming up. ::winks::

As for this love triangle of doom, I still have no clue who's ending up with whom, but I like to think in this last part of the chapter, you can take things in your own meaning. There's a lot of underline meaning to be honest but it can be taken in any way, for any ship. Now how am I looking at it? ::winks as she hunches and my plot bunnies laugh wickedly.::

As always, I'd really love to thank you all for reading my story, your support, and reviews. They make me cry and stuff! ::sniffle::

I hpe you enjoyed the chapter. The next chapter will take a bit longer to update, as it's far too long (longer than my previous ones) and will need to be cut properly before I can post the first part. But for those that have been waiting for Knuckles to get a little more spotlight, you'll get your wish.

More hunting for the emeralds, Eggman might show up ::hooray?:: and more misunderstanding, relationships and you trying to figure out exactly who I'm pairing with whom.

Happy reading!