Tainted Eyes

Kingdom Hearts/Final Fantasy are owned by Square Enix, not myself.
WARNING: Chapter contains angst, sexual situations (m/m, m/f), and violent images

Tainted Eyes: part XI: Nightmares

What am I doing?

Kairi's new room was larger than the last, but it was still that deep, dark red color that spoke of her tainted passions. It was so cold, and the air was so still in the room that Sora felt as though the dead were watching. The dim candlelight flickering on everything in the room made the satin curtains and quilts look like they were melting. He knew that Livion's room wasn't far from this one, because he knew that Kairi was enjoying every second of being used by him. Apparently Livion had other things to attend to in the castle, because he left Sora here for the time being. Alone... with Kairi.

What the hell am I doing? Sora thought.

Kairi's tight black dress was gone now, bundled up on the floor. Underneath she wore nothing but her own delicate-looking skin. Her red-hair had grown out just a bit, and hit hung freely over her shoulders. How long had they been held in this castle for her hair to grow like that? A month perhaps? More?

Kairi smiled at Sora with her rosebud colored lips and looked at him with those big blue eyes. But those eyes were no longer bright. They were dark. It wasn't the darkness that came with seeing harsh things in the world. People could bounce back from the world and regain their innocence. No... Kairi's eyes were drentrent. They were so tainted now.

How can I do this?!

Sora had her on the bed as he kissed herghlyghly, pinning her hands down as he rested his body on top of hers. She kissed him a few minutes ago, telling him that she knew how much he liked her back on the island. Telling him to take her now.... But she was wrong. He liked her as a friend, but it was for Riku that his feelings grew everyday. But he was friendly with Kairi because he cared deeply for all his friends. But love her... like THAT? No....

No....

Her kisses were filled with the darkness of her powerful lust, and through each kiss she spread her tainted passions to him. How could she hold this much power? It filled him slowly and spread through his body... his blood. And before he knew it he had her here... naked on the bed as he used anything and everything but tenderness.

You hurt Riku... you killed our friends... you took Livion's side.

The lust that filled him was almost painful, but he couldn't break away from it. He knew it wasn't like him, but something was keeping him there. The darkness was holding him, but he didn't care. He saw it coming, but he stayed.

WHY?!

She moaned softly and held him close, her new strength crushing him against her body. Her legs wrapped around him and she looked up at him with a craving in her eyes.

"Now Sora," she whispered. "Take me...."

Sora broke away from kissing her neck and looked down into her dark eyes. His confusion was killing him. The lust was killing him. He could hardly take the feeling, but it seemed as though the only way to ease it was to take in the darkness she fed him like a drug.

But I hate you.... You just watched when they raped Riku.... You helped when that monster killed our friends!

Sora sat up to unzip his pants, pulling his pants and boxers down just enough. The bright blood red clothes provided to him in his prison of a room made him stand out in this darkness... this dark, tainted red surrounding him. He wouldn't get undressed here... and there was no need. He didn't want to beimatimate... he just wanted his release. He looked down at Kairi, almost evilly. His head was swimming in a dark haze now, and he couldn't get out. Or was it because he didn't want to?

He suddenly fell upon her, his hands roughly grabbing her small breasts and squeezing so hard that he was sure to leave bruises. The darkness started to overflow in him... to blind him. If he were more himself he would have been startled at the growl that escaped his throat as he violently rammed himself inside of her. She gasped suddenly, and he knew without looking that she was surprised. His hands moved up to pin her arms above her head again as he thrust hard into her, pressing her so hard against the large mattress that he felt it could break if it weren't so strong.

Why?!

He growled again, as though a wild animal were trying to burst out of him. Kairi was gasping now... and moaning with pleasure. She was enjoying this. But Sora couldn't bare to see her smile. He moved her hands together above her head so that he could pin them down with one hand. His second hand moved down to her throat and started to squeeze as he thrust like a madman.

I hate you!

"More! Deeper! Harder Sora!" she cried out.

I HATE YOU!

Now both of his hands were at her throat, trying to squeeze the life out of her as he fucked her. He wanted her to feel so much pain. Suddenly images of Riku flooded to his mind. Images that Kairi was unconsciously pouring into him from the darkness in her heart. The images were seen through her eyes... and they were of Riku being taken by the four men. She just watched... and laughed.... Sora saw Riku bleeding, crying, screaming, and then begging for his own life to end. Hours of his friend’s merciless torture flashed into his mind. Sora had never seen so much blood or fear or tears or pain.

YOU BITCH! I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!

He cried out after the gruesome images flew through his mind, and finally released into her body, shooting his seed into her... which felt painfully hot to him. He looked down to find her looking up at him, a triumphant smirk on her face. His hands were still locked around her throat, but it didn't seem to be hurting her. She was gaining strength from Livion, so her body wasn't so easily damaged. Sora pulled out of her and fixed his clothes, getting off of the bed without looking at her.

"You're more amusing that I thought you'd be," the deep voice came from the doorway.

Sora wasn't surprised when he heard Livion's voice. He slumped down into a chair and stared at the floor.

Livion approached and stared down at him, smiling to himself.

"Did you enjoy it? Did it feel good?" he asked, his smooth voice sinking through the dark haze in Sora's mind.

Sora didn't know how to answer. It was as though his lust was more than just simple desire. It was as though....

My hatred for Kairi is what made it so easy for the darkness to claim me, he thought to himself, dreading the consequences of this realization.

He looked up and met Livion's dark gaze, intending to calm down and answer as if nothing had touched his heart. But when he met that dark gaze he thought of all of the suffering Livion had caused. He saw Riku's torturer and his friends’ murderer.

"I loved it," Sora snapped. "But not as much as I could have if she was screaming in pain!!"

Livion stared at him, the emotion disappearing from his face. Sora realized that Livion didn't know what to make of him anymore.

"I suppose you want to fuck me now?!" Sora muttered angrily.

A smile slowly spread across Livion's wickedly beautiful face. He wrapped his cold fingers around Sora's arm and pulled him into a standing position. Sora felt Kairi's cold eyes and smile on him as Livion leaned down to place a cold kiss on his lips. Sora's body shuddered for a moment. The darkness of Livion's kiss was so much more powerful than Kairi's... and he could control it. He was purposefully directing it through Sora's entire body. It eased the storm of darkness Kairi had caused, but it slowly replaced it with a stronger, thicker, more definite type of darkness. It was so thick in Sora's mind and fed his ache so well that he practically took it in without a fear or care. But the longer Livion kissed him, the more Sora hated Livion. And the more Sora hated Livion, the worse the darkness became.

Sora forgot about Kairi until she pressed against him from behind. Wrapping her arms around him and unzipping his pants. Sora felt all of this, but it didn't quite sink in. He was too busy trying to figure out what Livion was doing to his mind, and his body began to feel so heavily. Kairi started to stroke his member slowly as Livion's tongue started to probe his mouth. Once again, Sora felt aroused against his will. He knew he was sinking into the darkness, and he knew that his hatred was increasing it, but his mind wouldn't let him focus on fighting it. Livion broke the kiss and stared into Sora's eyes.

"Let the darkness have you..." Livion whispered softly, his lips barely touching Sora's.

Kairi stepped away and sat down to watch the scene before her as Livion pushed Sora against a wall and knelt in front of him. Sora shut his eyes as Livion pulled Sora's pants down, exposing the teens aching erection. With a million thoughts and emotions rushing through Sora's head and heart, Livion's mouth set out to give him another dark release.

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"Get out of the water!" Riku yelled.

"What?" Tidus called back. He was far from the beach, and Riku couldn't move to get him.

"Something is... I can't move! Get out of the water! Look behind you!"

Tidus turned to see the water behind him turning black. It moved oddly, and looked alive. He frantically tried to swim back to the beach. Riku wanted to help him, but he was frozen in place. And he didn't know whether or not to be relieved when Wakka ran past him to help Tidus.

"Something's got my leg!" Tidus yelled. "Stay away Wakka!"

"No way!" Wakka called back.

Tidus was suddenly pulled under the water. Riku knew that Tidus could hold his breath longer than anyone, but he didn't know what was pulling him under in the first place. Wakka swam out at top speed, then disappeared under the water. Much to Riku's relief he came back up with Tidus. They both started to swim back to shore, struggling through the thick black water and the rough waves.

"What going on?!" Selphie asked, running to Riku.

"Selphie, I can't move for some reason."

"Tell her to get go then!"

"What?" Riku asked, puzzled now. He looked down to see Kairi holding on to him. "Kairi?! What's going on?!"

Riku heard screams from the water, and he turned to Wakka and Tidus trying to drag themselves to the beach. They were so close... but the black water was pulling them back.

"It hurts!" Wakka yelled.

Riku shoved Kairi aside and ran to help them. He grabbed their hands and tried to pull them safely back onto the beach. But as he did so the water started to cover them like a thick ooze. Riku pulled harder, determined not to let them go. And he fell backwards onto the sand with their hands in his, pulling them from the water.

"Let's run to the Secret Place!" he said, scrambling up. But when he looked down, he saw that he was indeed holding their hands... but not much else. He cried out in shock as he let go of the severed arms and backed away from the bloody black ooze.

"Selphie," he heard Kairi softly whisper. "If you jump in, you can save them!"

Riku pulled Selphie away from Kairi, holding the crying girl in a tight hug. "Don't be stupid, Kairi!"

But Selphie pulled away, and once again, Riku couldn't move. Blood started to flow down his entire body.

"I'll save them!" Selphie cried out as ran ran to the black water.

"No Selphie!!" Riku yelled, forcing himself to run to the water. With every movement, with every step, he bled more. He winced and groaned in pain, and couldn't keep up with the quick footsteps of Selphie in his condition. He closed his eyes as she threw herself into the water, hearing her screams as they diminished into a gurgling sound... and then silence.

"It needs your heart too, Riku," Kairi laughed.

"No," came a familiar voice. "I will go for him."

Riku collapsed in a pool of his own blood, and barely caught a glimpse of Sora's shoes as he walked past him.

"No Sora... don't go!"

"Goodbye Riku."

"Sora! NO!!!!"

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Riku woke up with a start, his hand reaching out as though he were trying to grab someone's hand. He stared into the darkness of the room, slowly realizing that he was in bed... and that there was no one to grab on to. He hugged himself as the pictures of his nightmare haunted him. Dead… they were dead…. Nothing could bring Wakka, Tidus, or Selphie back…. He was still half-asleep, so it didn't startle him when he felt a hand push down on his shoulder gently. He obeyed and let his body rest on the bed again, trying to make out who was there with him. It seemed as though his mind was playing tricks on him when he saw two glowing blue orbs floating in the darkness. Part of him told him that it was one of Livion's men, but then he let go of that thought when he realized how warm and gentle the hand was.

The side door opened and the light from the room next door flooded inside. He saw a female silhouette in the doorway.

"How is he?" whispered the sweet voice.

Riku's mind recognized that voice, and it slowly pieced a picture together for him. He remembered now. Sora taketaken away. And he was surrounded by suffering. Then everything was black.

"Light..." Riku said softly.

The figure sitting next to the bed reached over and turned a lantern on, slowly bringing up it's light. Riku saw Cloud's features slowly start to come together... and those two glowing orbs were his eyes. Riku looked around to see that he was in a room that was decorated in gray. Cloud's clothes were gray also... so this must be the room he was held in. Riku blinked and sat up slowly.

"I'm in your bed," he said, trying to slip off.

But Cloud pushed him down again. "It's okay, I set up on the floor," he said. "I don't mind at all."

"He really doesn't," Aeris added with a smile. "In fact, I think Cloud prefers less comfort. It makes him feel more manly or something," she giggled.

"It's not uncomfortable if you're not spoiled," Cloud said, elbowing her very gently.

Riku smiled at the two. It was good to have laughter and smiles and jokes around again.

Vincent peaked into the room holding a book. He put it down on Cloud's table and sat in a chair not far from the bed. He didn't say anything, but Riku knew he was there to check on him. Vincent had something mysterious about him... and he was generally very quiet. It was probably for the best, because Riku was hiding the pain of having Sora ripped away from him.

Squall walked in and sat on the bed, staring at nothing in particular.

"You look lost," Cloud said to him.

"Everyone was in here, and I was bored," Squall said in a stoic voice.

"You mean, you were lonely?" Aeris smiled.

"...Whatever," Squall said, averting his gaze.

"Squall doesn't like to admit he needs anyone, Riku," Aeris said in a gentle tone. "So if he looks lonely to you be sure to talk to him."

Riku nodded with a small smile, and then silence hung in the air.

"He seems like a strong person," Cloud said, speaking about Sora.

Riku nodded again.

"Do you need some time alone?" asked Aeris.

Once more, a nod.

Everyone left the room but Cloud, who stayed to talk tou a u a moment longer.

"Once of my friends was taken," Cloud said softly. "They never brought my friend back… and it’s been days. I know it hurts. And most of us have had to bare a lot of pain here. So hiding your pain isn't necessary. Just don't lose sight of the light."

And then Cloud left the room. Riku sat there on the bed and closed his eyes. He had survived Livion's torture, so maybe Sora would be okay also. But then, he didn't want Sora to feel that pain. It was killing Riku to think that Sora was being tortured as he was tortured. But perhaps Livion wouldn't be so hard on him, since he seemed to favor torturing Riku more than anyone.

Unable to stand the silence and the sound of his own inner cries, he got out of bed and walked into the next room. It was set up like the group of rooms he and his friends were held in before. Vincent's black and gold room was on the far end, Squall's blue room was next to his, Aeris' pink room was in the middle, Cloud's grey room was next, and then... there was a white and silver room like the one Riku had stayed in before. But now it was left unoccupied. Riku remembered that Cloud spoke of a friend who didn't return, and his heart started to ache even more as he related this story to Sora.

He quietly stepped into Aeris' room while the others were talking. Aeris patted a spot on the bed next to her and invited him to sit. He sat next to her, appreciating the good cheer of those around him. Even the other more stoic guys were light sources in this dark place.

"Riku, we've decided that you'll use Cloud's bed and Sora will use Squall's," Aeris smiled.

"We don't mind. We're both from the military. These beds are too soft for us," Squall said, waving it off before Riku could protest.

The others could see that Riku's mind was on Sora, just as Cloud's had been on his friend. Aeris gently patted Riku's shoulder, and he smiled the best he could.

"Footsteps..." muttered Cloud softly after a tense silence. His attention turned to the door. "Someone in the hallway...."

It was a while before the others heard the sounds also, and they all grew tense as the footsteps stopped in the hallway outside.

Aeris and Riku were the only ones to jump slightly when they heard a door in another room being opened. They heard a loud thud, and then heard the door close again. Cloud jumped up and ran through the open doors, to the white and silver room.

"No..." they heard him say when he reached the room. "...Open your eyes.... DAMNIT!"

The others quickly jumped up to join Cloud, but before Riku could go with them he was stopped by Vincent.

"This is not for your eyes, for you will only suffer all the more for seeing such a thing with your friend still away," Vincent said, his red eyes searching Riku's. "Stay here in Aeris' room and think not of who we are seeing to. Instead keep your hope with Sora." And then he left to join the others.

Riku sat on Aeris' bed, but couldn't help his curiosity. He knew from their reactions that their friend looked horrible. Although he wasn't in the same room, he could see their faces whenever they passed the open door in the far room. And soon, he could see them walking around covered with blood as they frantically tried to clean off the wounds and heal this dying person.

A great deal of shuffling and stomping could soon be heard, and Riku watched as Squall and Vincent held onto Cloud, trying to force him to leave the room.

"Let Aeris work, Cloud," Squall said in his same stoic voice.

"No! Let me go!" Cloud yelled, giving them a VERY hard time. The blonde seemed ready to fight them all.

"Cloud, it will do no good for you to see this," Vincent said, holding him tight and pulling him away. "And you will distract Aeris, who is already so low on power that she threatens to drain herself into her own grave."

"We can't lose them both," Squall added.

Cloud fell to his knees on the floor in his room and yelled loudly... and Riku watched from Aeris' room next door. Squall closed the door to the white and silver room to give Aeris and the wounded one peace.

Riku stood up, wanting to say something to Cloud and the others. Something. Anything. Hadn't he watched three friends die? He slowly started to walk into the next room, but found himself interrupted as the door that led to the hallway from Aeris' room flew open. It was already shut by the time Riku caught the one thrown inside.

"Sora!" Riku said, holding his friend close. "Sora... it's really you!"

Sora didn't answer, but he wrapped his arms around his friend. Riku held on, never wanting to release the brown-haired boy. He felt so much happiness and relief now that he knew Sora was with him again. He finally released Sora and pushed him back just a little in order to meet his gaze.

But that bright, cheerful gaze was no longer there....

"Sora...?"

"Riku...."

"Are you okay?"

Sora looked into his friend's sea-green gaze, his face emotionless. "I'm okay."

"What did... they do to you?"

Sora slowly leaned in, brushing his lips again Riku's.e ote other guys didn't see, for they were too busy calming down a raging Cloud. Sora kissed Riku softly, then pulled him close and nibbled on his neck. Very slowly, he lifted his head and tilted it against Riku's.

"I split her open..." he whispered into Riku's ear. "Split her open so hard...."

Riku only blinked and sat there silently as his friend held him.

"I wanted her to scream so bad... but she liked it. She fucking liked it when I shoved it in...."

"What are you talking about, Sora?" Riku asked, worried that Livion was speaking through Sora. But something told him that it wasn't Livion. The darkness wasn't as great as that.... Livion's darkness was so thick and cruel, and it hung in the mind like a black haze.

"Kairi...." Sora continued, still tickling Riku's ear with his breath. "...But she didn't scream. I wanted to hurt her so bad.... I wanted her to bleed."

"Sora..." Riku said, pulling away, his eyes wide. "Livion made you rape her?!"

"No..." Sora said softly, his eyes growing darker and more vicious. "I wanted to... but she wanted it... but I wanted to make her hurt. I didn't want her to like it. I pounded her so hard...."

Riku felt sick to his stomach. This HAD to be Livion or one of Livion's men. It couldn't be his Sora. But when he looked into Sora's eyes, he saw traces of Sora... pieces of the past. It was like the traces of the familiar he still saw in Kairi.

"Darkness...." Riku murmured. "He's taking you from me like he took Kairi...."

"No. I'll always be yours, Riku. I just wanted to make her suffer for what she did to you. I saw... I saw through her eyes what they did to you... and I fucked her harder.... Opened her so wide...."

"No... Sora...."

"And then... Livion got on his knees and-- Mmmm...." Sora's eyes rolled back and closed, as if he were remembering something extremely pleasurable.

"I know Livion is behind this, Sora. I know you're being controlled."

"No," Sora said with a smirk. "I was the one with my hand in his hair... forcing it deeper down his throat. I had the control... and I made sure he didn't miss a drop...."

Riku sat there in horror. Sora smiled at him innocently for a moment, then pulled him into a tight hug again. But Riku's arms stayed at his sides as his heart cracked.

"Then..." Sora whispered into his ear once more. "Then he fucked me slowly.... He slid his huge cock inside me. So slow.... He went in so deep.... So far up my ass. And you know what...? I thought of you the whole time... and I came so hard...."

Riku jumped up and started to pace like a caged animal.

It's not him.... It's not him.... he told himself over and over.

Sora watched Riku pace for a while, smiling faintly.

Sora is innocent. This isn't Sora.

"Riku?" Sora said, standing slowly. iku iku only stared at him with pain in his sea-green eyes. Sora approached him slowly and put his hands on Riku's tense shoulders, looking him in the eye.

"You're tense again," Sora said gently. "Want another massage?" He winked before leaning in to kiss the spot where Riku’s neck met his shoulder.

Riku swallowed hard. No.... It is....

Sora leaned in and whispered, "You felt so good before… but let me enter you next time. Don't worry... you'll love it."

It's... Sora....

Riku ran into the bathroom, intending to throw up... but nothing came. Instead he listened to the footsteps that approached him, and felt Sora's arms wrap around him from behind. He stood in shock... doing nothing to stop Sora's roaming hands. All he could hear was Cloud yelling about saving his friend from Livion‘s torture... and Sora's ragged breath hitting his ear.

~*~*~*To be continued*~*~*~


(I know the Sora-lovers are surprised, but please spare my life! There’s a lot more story to come! And Callisto asked about Sora being a keyblade master as well as Riku. I promise to address that later. Please review me!)