Just Like in Soap Operas, but Worse

AN:hey sorry for the long wait. College takes alot of work. Boo. :[ And lately I’ve been feeling sick and tired. Haven’t gotten alot of sleep this week. I had this chapter half written since a week ago. I never got around finishing it until today! But I did, and I am proud that I finally finished it and I hope it’s worth the waiting. I missed your reviews!

Thank-yous: Anorexic Muffinz, Lynn Stardragon [eee, your long review made me very happy. thanks for your thoughts and advice. I really do need a beta, I just haven't found one who suits my needs. I'm so picky. -_-], AkuRokulove, k612, SwordOfTheFang, angel, nakedlink, fayeS., and Myself [haha. I'm glad your straight boyfriend got amusement out of it. I lol'd when I read your review. xD]

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Monday.

I don’t think I've ever loved school this much. My escape from my fucked up family. At least at school nobody knows I'm alive. Well, except for Kairi, who has been insanely busy with her candidacy for vice-president. And Axel, who I haven't seen all day. Not that I'm complaining.

Maybe he's with Roxas sucking someone’s sperm, the sick little fags they are. I really don't understand why everyone likes him. All the girls are practically in love with him. I'm pretty sure some of the guys wouldn't mind humping him either.

So now I'm in my English class, at the back of course. This is the one place I can just relax. At least nowadays.

Well, that was before. Cause today, for the first time in years, someone actually decides to talk to me. Selphie. She has been sitting in front of me all year and hadn't even noticed I was fucking alive.

But today, she decided to talk to me.

Oh did I forget to mention I had a major fucking crush on her for ages? Well, I did, and she knew it. So she decided to make my life a living hell for a short period of time, before she moved on to some sex toy of hers.

Not that we had this intimate conversation about her sex life. But she isn't exactly the shy girl next door.

“Hey, Riku,” the words escaped her pink, glossy lips as she looked at me, almost daringly. Strays of her brown hair were hanging over her perfectly brown eyes. Damn, she still kinda had that power on me.

“What Selphie?” I say, trying to sound firm, like I couldn't give a less fuck that she was acknowledging my existence. I try not to look so much at her, and for the first time in this class I am actually trying to pay attention to whatever the teacher was saying.

“I was just wondering what you’re doing after school.” And suddenly I wasn’t even pretending to try and pay attention to the class. I really wanna know where this is going.

“No...why?” I ask and she starts to smile.

“Great, I’ll see you after school then? You can walk me home.” And when that was said she turned around again and was now facing the teacher. We lived pretty much next to each other, like a house or two apart.

She didn’t exactly give me time to answer, so I guess I am going to walk home with Selphie today. Where was this opportunity a few months ago? Why all of the sudden the change of heart?

I may never know. I'm Riku, I don't like not knowing, but I'm male, and I'm willing to take a chance.

School never went by slower than today. It would have been great, too, if I wasn't so damn curious as to what the hell Selphie wanted. I wanted school to end, that I knew. But on the other hand, the sooner I left, the sooner I'd have to go home, and I seriously, truly, honestly didn't want that. My home reeked of the latest scents, Queer Delight and Fab Fag.

Maybe I should go to Selphie's place.

Hah, yeah right. Like I would ever get invited. I have been watching guys come in and back out only two hours later. Nobody ever stays. She is what you call, a whorebitchslutcuntcocksucking girl next door. A pretty one though. If Axel knew about my Selphie-dreams he wouldn’t call me gay.

But then again, it’s Axel. He’d probably come up with some twisted reality that Selphie actually has a dick bigger than mine.

You’re probably thinking, “What the shitty hell happened with Sora?” Well, I'll tell you... I haven't seen him that much lately. He's been avoiding me, and I have been doing the same. If we see each other in school, one of us turns a corner or goes the other way. Kairi made a point to make us seat together during lunch, asking him questions. Poor kid, being lured into Kairi's 20/20 session, but I made no move to save him and left the first chance I got. Needless to say, he now made a point to avoid Kairi and me.

“Riku!” a voice behind me calls out. I was standing in the parking lot with my back to the school entrance; I turned around and was standing now dangerously close to Selphie. She had run from the doors to where I was standing and her breath was pretty heavy by now. “Don't tell me you were thinking about ditching me?”

“Uhm, no. I was just...waiting.” I have problems forming words around pretty girls - ha, I'm so straight I could do a victory dance right now.

“So, how come you're so quiet?” she asked, looking straight ahead. I could see a smile creeping over her lips, like she was trying really hard not to let it show.

“Excuse me?”

“You never talk! At school, I don't think I've heard you speak a word since... well let's just say I didn’t even remember your voice.” All of a sudden she was interested in things like my voice? What happened to the good old days of STFU Riku?

“I... I just don't have anything to say,” I said. I didn't have anything to say to the asses at school. They aren't worth the time and effort that I could be wasting quite efficiently elsewhere.

Can you say awkward 10 minute long walk? I can. I didn’t say much, she did most of the talking. She didn’t have problems telling me everything about herself.

“This is my house...” I said and she looked up at the windows on the front side. Wondering which one is my bedroom maybe?

“Well?” she said and looked at me expectantly. I looked back at her with probably the biggest question mark in my face that she ever seen. What the hell did she mean? “...aren’t you gonna invite me in?”

And before I knew it there she was. On my bed. Right next to me. In my room. In my house. In my mouth. I push her away and she looks at me like I just said the stupidest thing. Wait, did I say something at all?

“What the hell are you doing?” I ask, a little too angry maybe. Great, after years of crushing out on the girl, and she actually comes to my room and kisses me, and I reject her? What the fuck is wrong with me?

“Oh my god, what is wrong with you? I was just kissing you. It's not that big of a deal! Not unless you're gay or something,” she said almost suggestively, as if she knew something that needed a little confirmation. Just what I need. More people thinking I am gay. I am not. Should I start wearing a sign at school that says “I LIKE VAGINA".

Maybe I should get a tattoo on my ass that says “DO NOT ENTER, I AM NOT FUCKING GAY” and walk around stark naked, that'd turn some heads.

So I got lost in my own thoughts and forgot to tell Selphie that I am not gay and now she is laughing. Why is she laughing? Is she laughing at me? “What are you laughing at?” I ask, not thinking about the fact that I still didn’t answer the gay question.

“Riku, you are so gay,” she said and got up real quick and walked to the doors.

“Wait, Selphie,” I almost yell and stopped her before she gets out of the door. I walk up to her, take her arm and I lean in to kiss her. She leans her head back and smiles.

“What are you doing?”

“Well, I was thinking about kissing you...” I tell her and I kiss her. Or at least I tried. I haven’t really been a good kisser. Hell this is the first real kiss I’ve ever had.

Unless you can count the kiss Sora gave me. Ok, why am I thinking about Sora when I am kissing the hottest girl at school? And really, what does she want with me? Why is she kissing me?

My thoughts were interrupted by the door opening and a voice from the other side. “Riku, mom wants to talk...” and the voice stopped. I part my lips from Selphie's and look over at the door and there he was. Sora. He looks awfully uncomfortable and starts to stutter before he just closes the door.

“...fuck,” I cuss under my breath. Selphie looks strangely at me and again she starts laughing. What is so fucking hilarious?

“So that’s your boy toy?” she asks and points at the door. “He’s kinda cute, very gay though. But hey! Good for you, huh?” She winks before opening the door and walking out. I scratch my head a little before leaning out of my room and screaming as loud as I can “I am not gay!"

I hear her yell back in the distance, “Sure!”

I am so fucked. I know Selphie; she couldn’t keep her mouth shut even if her life depended on it. If a serial killer was up in her face with a knife and saying ‘don’t tell me what Rhonda told Cecily or I swear I will cut your throat.' I know her first answer would be something like ‘Well Rhonda didn't want to tell Cecily, but she was being a drama queen and saying she would kill herself because her ex kissed her best friend who happened to be her half sister...' and the story went on.

No I don't listen to what they are saying; it's just really hard not to hear stuff around my school. I am invisible, and I like it. For now. I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

Again, Sora interrupts my thoughts. He stands in the doorway, kinda grinning but it looks like he is failing. “So, who was that?” he asks after a few seconds of just staring at me with a look on his face I couldn’t read.

“No one,” I say.

“Well, you sure looked comfortable in no one's mouth.” And now I am getting kinda annoyed.

“Yeah well, what do you care anyway? Shouldn't you go kiss someone's ass or something?” I say and walk over to my bed, trying to hide myself from the world. The world being Sora at this moment, and no I am not saying he means the world to me. Fuck you, too.

“Ouch, Riku. That hurts,” he says sarcastically and places his hand over his heart. I was getting more annoyed with every second passing by and now I was getting impatient. When was he gonna leave anyway?

“Why?” I suddenly ask, without even noticing myself the words slipping past my lips. He looks at me, confused.

“Why what?”

“Why did you kiss me?”

This means nothing. Nothing. I am just curious to why this son-of-a-bitch (literally) was thinking of invading my space, or whatever. And now Sora was getting uncomfortable. Really uncomfortable. He didn’t want to answer the question maybe?

“To be honest... I don’t know.” And that leaves me right back at the beginning. How is it possible to have so many different feelings all directed to one person? “But mom, she wanted to talk to you... that's why I'm here, she wanted me to send you downstairs.” And I get up and walk out of the room, leaving Sora behind.

“Riku.” I turn around. “You think we could talk, later?” And I’m not sure what to answer.

“I don’t know, why don't I just come to you later and we'll see? I know where you live.”

I guess I'll have my answers by the end of the day.

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AN: Whew. Not how I wanted it to turn out, but it just sets it up for the next chapter. Less humor, more serious, folks. But I try to slip Axel in there to lighten the mood. Please review. I hope ya'll all hate Selphie. Mmm, expect to hate her more. >;D