Gone

Warning: This story is rated R. It contains m/m relationships, character death and emo poetry. If you do not like or can not handle these things, I suggest you leave. Flames will be laughed at upon arrival.


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It is cold.
That is all I have to say about anything around me, inside me. Freezing, to the point of near death and exhaustion, I weep.
I cry in agony.
Breaking, snapping into fragile little pieces and falling apart. Then a fire, in the depths of my blackened heart burning ever so harshly, scorching my skin from within.
It hurts.
Why like a blanket of snow and fog does my mind cloud and fail.
What reason do I have to die so callously for you seated in my mind, bleeding.
What have I done to displease you so much that your scorn is here to slaughter my dreams and destroy my faith?
Tears fall from my bloodshot eyes and sobs push forth through my swollen lips, scraping against my inflamed throat.
It is all for you.
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Sora P.O.V~


“Why? That is all I want you to answer. Tell me why do you love me?” A smile lies hidden in my voice.


“Why would I not?” Your arm snakes around my waist holding me tighter, giving me the answer.


“Your humor, that’s all I ask for, answer the question.” My smile growing slowly, leaning into the warmth of your body, I sigh.


“Let’s see, you are,” you trail off for a moment teasing me ever so subtly. “Cute.”


I giggle lightly, loving the simple answer, but I want more. “And?”


“Not good enough? Hmm, you are cute, funny, innocent, strong, playful, loving and most importantly, you are all mine.” I grin, now kissing your cheek fondly, and hold you to my body.
“What do you see in me?”


“Strength, love, benevolence, heart, humor, intellect, and passion all wrapped in one.”


“Benevolence and intellect, really? Wow Sora, those are big words, I’m surprised you even know them.” You chuckle holding me close.


“Jerk.” I punch you in the arm and feign anger. “Riku, why are you so mean to me?” I whine, but I smile. Why do I love you so much? “Riku, do I have to get up, can’t we just stay here?”


“School now, together later.” You smile brightly, why do you love school so much? Is there something you’re hiding from me? I am so glad you are there for me, everyday forever.
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It is dark today.
I am ready to die I think.
This is so hard to be here without you. Why did you leave?
My heart is bleeding.
I am so alone.
Once we were so happy, it was perfect like that.
I remembered your car driving away when you left me here.
The squeal of the tires on the pavement is easily overpowered by the screams.
Ripping themselves from my throat
I love you so much.
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Riku P.O.V~


It's a normal occurrence of sorts. We spend the nights together on weekdays. We cuddle, kiss, talk and fall asleep in each others arms. What we have is innocent, something we won't break for sex. You're not ready.


The next morning before we get ready to start our day, I think of my regrets as I watch you sleep. You have the face of an angel, so beautiful. Your eyes flutter open under my heated gaze, you smile at me with so much joy. I hate that you look at me like that, with so much love, reserved for me.


"Good morning princess," I grin. Your blush is so cute when you get angry at me.


"Riku," you whine to me trying your best to seem angered. "I told you not to call me that!" Finally you smile, and I can't help but laugh at you, making you madder. That pout of yours is so cute, I think I'll miss it the most.


After we dress every morning, we climb into my car. You always forget something, it never fails. Usually the drive to school is quiet, music plays low in the background, it's amazing you can stay this silent. It's a wonder that we don't talk as we won't see each other until the last bell. I'm a year ahead so I don't see you during the day. This makes it easier to hide my secret.


I smile to you, grinning as you wave enthusiastically, blowing kisses like you'll never see me again. It's embarrassing. We enter separate doors to the building as I am a senior and you a junior. I smile wide as I enter the door, stepping into different arms. I'm glad that we have different buildings.
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Sora P.O.V~


It sucks that we have different building. I miss you during the day. My friends and I sit and talk all day, but I only think of how lucky I am to have you. I love you so much Riku. I long to see you again at the end of the day which is why the school day is so unbearable. I can't stand to be without you for long.
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Riku P.O.V~


It's relaxing to feel the warmth of your body close to mine as you hold me. My little secret. I only get to see you at school, and on weekends. Those nights I go to your house to spend the nights. There we don't really do much talking, the sex is just too time consuming. But it's totally worth it.


I don't really feel bad about going around with you behind Sora. I mean he is just a kid, and you and I are adults in lust. I haven't really figured out if what we have is love, you and I. Mostly, we're just physical. I mean, Sora is there, but just off to the side. We grew up together, it was fun, our little island off the mainland... but that got old.


I'm not sure that I'm going to like what I'm going to do tonight. That's where my regrets resurface. Just waiting to come clean.


He's that kind of man that isn't at school for the academics. So at least once a week we leave before morning bell. He doesn't really hold hands like I do with Sora but that's alright with me, I can just hang on his arm and walk with him in silence. We pass the underclassmen building on our way into town, leaving my car behind. I feel eyes on me and instantly know who they belong to. Sora has some of the most annoying friends. There's one girl, Kairi, who knows what's going in. She won't ever tell him though, she won't be the one to break his heart. Sora wouldn't believe her anyways, they couldn't be friends anymore if she said anything. He trusts me too much.


Eventually, we get to my weekend home, my other man and I. We head straight to the bedroom where it's his rules. I love coming here, I can forget Sora as I moan my release. This can take hours, but we always make it back to school in time for me to kiss him farewell until tonight as I meet up with Sora. Fake smile and everything, I open the door for Sora as he climbs back into my car.


The trip after is spent talking about how your day went. I tell you of how awesome my day of school was. I think about how today is the end of what we have as I lie so easily. We drive out so far away from town. You ask me why and I tell you it's a secret. You're so cute when you're excited. I hate that about you.


This is where my regrets fall together. I hate you. I regret being with you. Letting you fall in love with me was a mistake. We shouldn't be friends anymore. You're too trusting of me. I hate you. I don't want to keep lying. I didn't tell you about him because I like to toy with you. I won't regret what's going to happen. I hate you. We don't have sex because I'm not interested in you. I won't cry when you die. I hate you so much!


I slam the brakes on the car and we stop suddenly. You look worried, and I don't care. You look so lost, but then you smile at me in that trusting way. "Riku, where are we going? I have no clue where we are, so far out of town." But he's still excited.
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Sora P.O.V~


I love surprises. I love Riku. I trust him with my life. Riku looks so scared now and I don't know why. "Riku, are you alright?" That's when the shot came and I blacked out.
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The darkness has taken over.
I feel a swelling deep in my chest.
A calling as you will, telling me to be still.
It will all be over soon.
It’s hard to understand why this happens to us.
Is it fate that our love is reminding me of a plane
The journey of awkwardness waiting to part.
The ride itself is generally pleasant.
Then the crash is harsh and everyone dies.
You said forever.
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Sora P.O.V~


Riku? Riku where are you? My head is fuzzy, and it's cold. "Riku?" I cough harshly, it hurts so much to breathe in. I have no idea where I am and Riku is gone. I look around just in time to see headlights disappear in the fog. I remember what happened as I find it harder to keep my eyes open. Warm sticky blood flows all around me, I'm not really sure where from, I'm so numb I don't have any idea. I throw my arm out in front of me for anyway to signal help. There's a rock there, and something is beneath it, paper or something folded up a bit. I pull myself forward, my body heavy, to reach the page, what is it? Finally in my grasp I fumble to unfold the note. My mind fuzzy and vision hazy, I struggle to read the simple words. I gasp my last breathe as the blackness consumes me.


The page catches a breeze and fly's off, out of cold dead fingers. Huge red letters, glare off the white paper. In Sora's own blood, the message reads, "It's over, Goodbye. Riku."

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~So that was fun.... not the usual type of stuff I would read let alone write. I'm not one for dark fiction, at all, but I've had this poem sitting on my drive for awhile now. I wanted to do something with it and I started this story months ago. So I finally got around to finish it. I don't think that this is very good, not like my other works.
I want honest reviews, tell me what you think about this story. I need some feedback to read while I neglect to write Trance for a couple more months. Hope you enjoyed.