Trust in me

Disclaimer: I do not own kingdom hearts!!

This is a sequel; I recommend you read ‘All that I need is you’ first. The story will make sense if you don’t but you might not know certain things about the characters or the overall plot. Plus the Riku and Sora thing doesn’t have the same depth behind it.

-Leon’s chain of thought-

=Cloud’s chain of though=

I know all these different though signs are gonna confuse you. Most of the time it’s obvious who’s thinking. It just means I don’t have to type ‘Sora thought as he…’ all the time.

The first bit is kinda angsty. Do you have any idea how hard it is to write angst while listening to ‘take me to the clouds above’? It’s just a happy song. I hope a saddish song will come on next. Well ‘somebody to love’ is slightly sadder, maybe. I need to get some decent music, damned ‘Now’ CDs…

Oh yeah and I found out that you can’t post MA rated stuff on this site but… you guys won’t tell right? I mean I get scared just thinking about how many flames I would get if in the last chapter of ‘All that I need… is you’ I just censored it and wrote: ‘I’m not allowed to post this lemon here so you’ll have to imagine it.’

Heh… I would so burn in hell
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Chapter 1: If only I had known

“Riku? Sora?” Leon whispered as he and Cloud walked through the front door. “Are you guys still awake?”

“I can’t hear anything. I think they’re asleep.”

“We should go check on them.”

Leon grabbed Cloud by the hand and slowly led him upstairs, being as quiet as possible. Cloud’s eyes widened as he reached the top, a picture lay smashed on the carpet, the nail where it had been hanging still attached to the wall.

“I wonder how that got there.” Cloud smirked, sniffing the air and finding the scent he expected to be there.

“Looks to me like something was slammed into that wall pretty hard, that picture wouldn’t have come off easily, it was nailed to the fucking wall!”

“Something or someone?” Cloud grinned, amused at his lover’s inability to realise the obvious.

“Wha- oh.” Leon blushed and chuckled sheepishly.

“You? Embarrased?” Cloud looked at the brunet sceptically; Leon was usually rather open when it came to sex.

“It’s just… ok one, he’s my brother. Two, I still see them as kids, and I guess I just never thought of them actually fucking each other.” The brunet shrugged and sighed.

-I wonder if it was their first time. Sora looked innocent the last time I saw him. My brother on the other hand? He never had Sora’s innocence, guess I can thank my arsehole of a step dad for that. He might have been sexually innocent though…-

“They’re not kids anymore, they’re sixteen. We had sex around that age.” Cloud looked at Leon; he hadn’t expected this reaction from his lover.

“I was nearly seventeen though; they only turned sixteen in September. Plus we had more experience.” Leon watched Cloud’s body freeze at his last comment.

-Why does he always do that? Everytime I mention past relationships he just blocks me out. We’ve been together for nearly a four years and he refuses to talk about his exes. Everytime Yuffie’s name comes up in a conversation he just walks away. I mean everyone’s jealous about their lover’s past relationships but Cloud can’t even deal with me mentioning my ex girlfriend. I was only twelve when we went out and it was only for three months, it’s nothing compared to my time with Cloud.-

“Yeah, more experience.” Cloud mumbled so quietly Leon almost missed it.

“Cloud LOOK at me.” Leon said sternly, physically lifting the blond’s head so he could stare straight into his eyes, only to find those cyan orbs glistening with unshed tears. “Why do you freeze up every time I mention anything to do with past relationships?”

“I-I don’t want to say.” Cloud croaked, trying to turn away from Leon’s gaze but failing, his head held firmly in place.

“Tell me. Tell me everything. We’ve been together for nearly four years now, don’t I at least deserve the truth.”

“Fine, you want to know why I can’t stand you talking about exes. It’s because I don’t have any, none, I’ve never been with anyone but you. I’ve never kissed anyone but you, slept with anyone but you…” A crystal tear slid slowly down the blond’s cheek at that point.

“You think I have?” Leon asked in disbelief.

“You remember our first time right? I told you I was a virgin. You said you’d never been with a ‘guy’ before…” Another tear joined the first.

“You thought…? Oh Cloud.” Leon pulled the blond tightly against his chest, stroking his hair and whispering sweet nothings in his ear.

-Cloud thought I slept with Yuffie. No wonder he couldn’t stand me mentioning her... god I’m an idiot.-

“So you w-were a v-virgin too?” Cloud choked between sobs.

“I was twelve when I went out with Yuffie.”

“Yeah but she was fifteen and I thought she had… I mean… that she’d asked… umm… you too… well…” Leon cut off Cloud’s awkward mumbling by kissing him softly, their lips barely touching.

“She did ask me to have sex with her but I said no. I wanted to save my virginity for someone I loved, someone who I could have a future with.”

Cloud smiled widely at Leon’s words, it was like a weight holding him down all these years had been lifted. He tugged and the brunet’s hand and motioned for him to follow.

“Where are we going?” Leon voice went back to a whisper.

“Our room.” Cloud wiggled his hips suggestively.

“Can we check on Riku and Sora first? I wanna make sure they’re ok.”

The blond nodded and walked a bit further before stopping outside an open door. A smiled graced his features as he looked at the scene before him, his expression softening. Leon stepped up behind him and wrapped an arm around his waist, amazed at what Riku had done to make the scene so perfect and romantic…

“Wow. Riku really went through a lot of trouble to make their first time special. Sora looks so… oh poor thing.” Leon felt compassion for the smaller boy.

“What? What’s wrong with him?” Cloud asked worriedly.

“Look between his legs, I think Riku was too big for him.”

Cloud lowered his gaze to the sleeping brunet, wincing when his eyes fixed onto the tiny dried stream of blood down the boy’s pale leg. The same thing had happened to him when Leon had first taken him, it hurt like hell the next day but it didn’t cause any serious damage.

“If Riku takes after you then no wonder Sora was too tight. He’ll be alright though; I survived when that happened to me. He has a huge grin on his face so he obviously enjoyed it; we should get to bed.”

“Horny are we?” Leon smirked and dragged Cloud down the hallway.

“I’m always horny when you’re around.”

Cloud pushed open their bedroom door and threw Leon down on the bed.

“Cloud, how come you never asked me if I was a virgin? I mean every time I brought Yuffie up, you never said anything. We’ve been together for four years and you never mentioned it.” Leon pulled the blond down next to him and ran a skilled hand through his lover’s golden locks.

“I guess I was afraid of the answer. How would you feel if you thought that your lover didn’t have the special connection with you, that he’d given his virginity to someone else?”

Leon couldn’t answer in words, he could only pull Cloud into his arms and kiss him with all his might.

-I think I’d die.-

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New plan!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As I have a lot of main characters now I’m gonna have one chapter for each story arch!

Next one, Riku and Sora!

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please... otherwise I'll just go ahead and kill myself... well ok so i wont but i'll be depressed... *pouts*