Shepard Finds Her Soul Mate

Garrus, sleeping on a cot in the battery, is dreaming. 

Garrus is back on the Normandy SR-1 with Shepard in her quarters.  She has her arms around him with her head resting on his chest, his big body enfolding hers.  Suddenly, they hear a crash and the Normandy shudders.  Something is attacking the ship!  They instantly break apart.  Shepard orders him to get to the escape pods, to get her crew out, while she gets Joker.  Garrus sees himself walking away from her and screams at himself, “Stop, don’t leave her!  Don’t let her die alone!”  But dream Garrus doesn’t listen, only obeys his commanding officer’s orders.  He can only watch helplessly as Shepard advances to the cockpit.  Knowing it is a dream does not stop his heart from breaking, knowing what is to come.  She forces Joker to leave, breaking his arm in her zeal to drag him to an escape pod.  An explosion hits and Shepard is floating.  Before she’s spaced, she launches Joker’s pod.  He can see Joker screaming at her as he’s launched.  Garrus watches as Lily struggles to stop the leak in her air hose, watches helplessly as she takes her final breath.  Her lifeless body floating away from the wreckage…

“NOOO!” Garrus wakes up screaming.  Breathing heavy, this isn’t the first time he’s relived her death but it is the first time he’s taken Kaidan’s place.  The dream is so realistic he can almost believe he had actually been there, that he had truly seen it happened, lived it.  Sitting up, the turian holds his head in his hands.  Vakarian’s whole body is trembling.  The pain in his heart overwhelms him.  Yet, the dream makes Garrus realize that he could lose her again at any moment.  He can’t let fear keep him from taking a chance to be with Shepard.  Garrus is going to have to find the courage tell Shepard how he feels, even if she rejects him.  

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Meanwhile, in her bed Lily dreams. 

Shepard is on Omega, searching for Archangel.  Jacob and Miranda follow her across the bridge.  The mysterious Archangel is sniping from the room above.  Remarkably, Shepard feels only concussive shots hit her from the vigilante.  Her teammates appear to have been spared as well.  Working her way through the endless supply of criminals, she enters Archangel’s hideout and calls his name.  The turian vigilante continues sniping, without even glancing back to see who called his name.  *How did he survive this long if he blindly trusts us?  How can he possible know we aren’t here to kill him?  How easy would be to shoot him in the back…*  Finally, the vigilante turns around, taking off his helmet.  Shepard’s heart leaps, “Garrus!”  Her dreams fast forwards to the moment the rocket hits Garrus’ face.  She runs to his side, holding his face as blue blood pours out of the turian.  Garrus opens his eyes and gazes regretfully at Lily.  He tenderly strokes her face.  Then, his bloody hand drops and his body falls limp.  His eyes are dead and empty as Shepard frantically searches them. 

Lily wakes up screaming “GARRUS!”  Tears are running down her face from watching her friend die.  She’s had nightmares similar to this one before, but it’s the first time Garrus caressed her face before dying.  And it hits harder than ever before.  That last touch, that simple caress, filled with such love.  It shatters her.  Looking down at her hands, Lily sees she is shaking.  *I almost lost him.  What if I had lost him?  What if I lose him?*  Hugging herself, Shepard realizes that she’s wasted enough time.  She can’t put it off any longer.  She has to talk to Garrus.