Bring Me to Life

Disclaimer: Boy oh boy do I wish I owned Kingdom Hearts. I’d be having lots of fun with two very hot teenaged boys by the name of Riku and Sora. But unfortunately I don’t own Kingdom Hearts and I don’t own Toys R Us either lol and taking me to court will only get you fifty cents if that. Anyway the violence in this chapter isn’t that heavy but its in here all the same. Language and Angst warnings too. I want to thank all of you who have reviewed me ^^. Thank you so much guys and I hope this will continue to exceed your expectations. Please continue to review and tell me what you think^^. My normal grammarninrnings are present as usual. Here’s chapter six!

~Riku’s POV~

The weekend came and went not that I noticed much. There wasn’t much I did notice anymore. Or cared to notice. I w I was first here I couldn’t think straight at all. I still can’t think straight..but I’m doing better than I was. That drug Ansem gave me was some powerful shit. When I started taking it I coueel eel everything melt away quite literally. I had no feelings when I took that shit. As I look back at it I’m not really sure if I was better or worse off. But to be honest I really don’t know what I’d do without Sora constantly by my side. Sora has been far too good to me. Much more than I deserve I’m sure. I have to admit it was quite frustrating at times when Sora asked me every little thing I did. But I can’t really blame him. Every time I’ve had to look at Sora in the last three weeks I just wanted to crawl into a deep dark cave and die. I had so many conflicting emotions going through my mind. I still find myself torn a lot of the time. I wanted to end my life so badly when I first got here. I couldn’t take the pain I never could. I wanted to stop feeling so worthless. Hell I wanted to stop feeling period. I wanted to stop the pain I caused others. I nevernt tnt to hurt anyone. But no matter what I did someone always got hurt. I felt noone would miss me…well maybe my mother but that would have passed in time.

At first I thought Sora wouldn’t miss me either but he was the one stopping me from killing myself. Hell, he was the very reason for anything good I did manage to do. Which according to Daniel that wasn’t much. I never called that bastard my father anymore. I don’t remember my real parents but I know for a fact that son of a bitch isn’t my father. I knew deep down the reason he beat my mother was because of me. Knowing that only added to my miserIf IIf I would have ended my life no one would have to suffer because of me anymore. I would have saved my teachers the trouble of me. I had no friends in school except Sora and I was considered a loser anyway by most of the others. I had no girlfriend….or boyfriend for that matter but there was only one person I’d even think about taking as my boyfriend. But I know for a fact that I’d treat him a hell of a lot better than that bitch did….

I’m past all of that now. At least I don’t have suicidal thoughts. It helped to have Sora stay by me every chance he got. I had to admit it got frustrating at times. Not only did it get frustrating but every time I had to look at Sora I would feel my heart crack threatening to break into a million pieces. I usually didn’t talk much to him, which I know that hurts him. Sora has always been the talkative type. He loves to chat and it worries him when I don’t talk to him. But Sora has always worried too much. Quite frankly I didn’t want to see anyone or have a conversation with anyone. Sora always managed to get me to talk very little but I couldn’t just flat out ignore him either.

I was so confused. I wanted to run to Sora and pull him into my arms. I wanted Sora to tell me it was going to be ok. But I also wanted to hide from Sora and run away from him. I didn’t want him to see me like this. I didn’t want him to see how weak I really was. I might not have been able to talk to Sora as much as I would have liked but his presence was very comforting to me. I was torn from all different directions. In my one state of weakness…my best friend had to take care of me. I didn’t want him to take care of me…I wanted to take care of him. But it seems I can’t even do that right. Mood swings and depression was a normal for me as of late. I constantly found myself wondering why Sora’s mom didn’t send me back to my mom’s place. Hell I was actually welcomed here. Sora’s mother was always asking me how I was and stuff. Which really didn’t surprise me since she always did that with me. Sora’s mother was one of the coolest people I knew. I found myself sometimes envying Sora. I know I shouldbut but hell…at least he had a parent that cared about him. I felt really bad staying with Sora and his mom. Not that they were bad off his mom made pretty good money as a nurse and they had a nice, roomy house. But I just couldn’t help but feel like I was crowding them in.

I sat on the edge of Sora’s bed watching him sleep. It was early in the morning and Sora had to go to school in an hour although I was debating about going. I remembered what Sora asked me. Would I go back to school and pass the finals for him? I hated high school. I couldn’t think of a place I hated more than my own house. Sure it was great if you were popular and you were in the right crowd. But I didn’t fit in anywhere. I wasn’t popular. I was far from actually. I didn’t play sports. I didn’t go hang out at a mall or gossip about some girl. When I was 15 I started going to dance clubs. I would have rather have done that than waste my time going to some sport’s practice or gossiping. I had one connection when I first started going and he hooked me up with fake Ids so I could get in. I started a lot of my bad habits in those dance clubs. I spent most of my weekends there after all. The same guy that had given me fake Ids….also got me started on drugs. I started smoking there and I even lost my virginity there within a month of going. If I could go back in time I would have kicked myself as hard as I could for starting drugs. I’ve been clean for three weeks and I’ve been starting to realize how stupid I was to be taking drugs. Although it did ease my pain and made me forget. I still didn’t sleep well at night and when I was hungry at all I found myself eating sugar and nothing but.

I stretched and brushed some hair from my face before made my way downstairs. Sora’s mom had already left for work but even I knew she drank coffee in the morning. I looked over in her coffee pot and seen some coffee that she forgot to pour out. I grabbed a coffee cup and poured the semi hot liquid into the cup. Even though she didn’t know it she was a lifesaver. I don’t know what I’d do without her left over coffee and I couldn’t actually ask her to make me some coffee so I’d drink whatever was left over when she made coffee. I was only wearing a pair of boxers and a tank top when I came downstairs. I put about four tablespoons of sugar in the coffee and stirred it idly. I was soaked head to toe with sweat and I was a bit disoriented but I guess that was side effects from that shit Ansem gave me.

I took a big drink of the coffee and shook my head a bit after just that drink. Damn, Sora’s mom liked her coffee strong. Not that I was complaining. It woke my ass up that’s all I cared about. I had told Sora that I would go back to school and I wouldn’t turn my back on my word. Come to think of it I don’t think I could deny Sora anything if he really wanted it. This was for him….he said he wanted me to go back to school for him so I would. He was the one person I would do absolutely anything for. I would kill for Sora, Hell I would even go jump off a cliff if Sora really wanted it. Most people would think I’m absolutely off my rocker…but then again most people don’t know about my feelings for Sora and I intended on keeping it that way.

I started thinking about just a few nights ago when Sora was telling me he thought he was ugly. Christ, how could Sora think himself ugly? Hearing that and also hearing that Kairi had left Sora made me think that she was the one making him think this. It wouldn’t have surprised me in the least. I have never and would never think of Sora as ugly. Sora, in my honest opinion was drop dead gorgeous.

Sora had this pretty loy look to him you didn’t find anywhere. Even some of the straight guys at school had turned their heads in disbelief at Sora’s looks. Sora almost had a feminine figure. He always did. I mean Sora had absolutely breathtaking looks with one of the prettiest mouths I’ve ever seen on a woman or a man. It was very hard for me to keep myself in check when Sora would pout and he pouted a lot especially when Sora really wanted something. He had an adorable pout. He looked almost like a little boy when he pouted and when he pouted it almost always worked. But it also had another affect on me. When Sora pouted all I ever wanted to do was cup his face and attempt to give him one of the hottest kisses of his life. One that would make Sora almost melt with desire. But Sora’s mouth wasn’t the only thing that attracted me to him. Sora had the most beautiful sapphire blue eyes I had ever seen. You could literally see every emotion pass through them. I never wanted to see tears in those pretty eyes. Ever. Sora was one of the only people that I knew that had a heart of pure gold. If I hadn’t have known him for all these years I would have thought he was an angel.

Sora would do anything for anyone. Sometimes, however I thought he could be too trusting. Maybe that’s why I was so fiercely protective of Sora. He was so beautiful and yet he was vulnerable and childlike. There was times I wanted to take him in my arms and shield him from all the horrors of the world. I wanted to hide him away and protect him with all my being. But I was seriously afraid Sora would forever hate me. Especially after I pretty much told him how beautiful I thought he was. n stn stupid me I had to go kiss him. I wanted to kiss him and I wanted to continue but I also wanted to kick myself so hard for that.

I felt like I was taking advantage of Sora in that moment. I’ve always took Sora as straight as well so I could imagine how he weird it felt for him. The last thing I wanted was to drive Sora away. He was all I had. I would literally go crazy and probably succeed in killing myself if I didn’t have Sora. My angel, my everything.

I won’t deny it. I knew I’d be lying if I did try to deny it if I said Sora didn’t dominate my thoughts and my fantasies. He dominated both my sexual and romantic fantasies. But it was much more than that. I loved Sora with everything I had. I was in love with him. But I’m too much of a chicken shit to admit my feelings to Sora. I had everything to lose and nothing to gain if Sora took it badly.

I finished my coffee quickly and headed upstairs to take a quick shower before getting dressed. I was already dreading going to that hell known as High school. I didn’t take longer than about 20 minutes in the shower. Thankfully Sora’s mom had went out and bought some clothes for me. she really didn’t have to and she knows I can’t pay her back because I have no money. But she told me not to worry about it and that she wanted to. So I didn’t think much of it. I was just grateful that I had clothes to wear. I threw on a pair of jeans and a white tank top. I walked back into Sora’s room after pulling my still wet hair into a loose ponytail so it would be off my neck. I looked over to see Sora still sleeping sprawled completely out over the futon his mom had moved into his room. I felt bad about taking Sora’s bed. But Sora insisted on it and there was no arguing with Sora when he had his mindset. Besides Sora could literally fall asleep anywhere. Sora has been known to fall asleep right on the beach under the scorching sun and not be bothered in the least.

Sora had always been a bit on the lazy side. But that made him all the more lovable. Seeing Sora sprawled out over the futon actually made me laugh. It was a very soft laugh but it was a laugh, which was quite rare for me in the last three weeks. I watched Sora before I moved to him. I kept telling myself that I should kick his lazy ass out of bed and wake him up. But I found my eyes lightly roaming Sora watching him, which believe me was against my mind’s better judgment at the moment. Since I’ve known Sora one of my inner most desires was to watch Sora sleep at least once. Now my cmy chance but this wasn’t exactly what I wanted. I wanted to see Sora sleep in my arms. I wanted to hold him tightly to me as he fell asleep in my arms. But deep down…with the way things were going it wasn’t going to happen. I narrowed my eyes before I looked away from Sora. I could feel the pain of my dreams fading and my heart cracking.

I looked at Sora before I reached over and gently shook Sora.

“Sora….Sora its time to wake up.” I said softly not wanting to startle him. I could hear Sora’s sleepy groans as he slowly woke up.

“Aww…..but mom…I don’t wanna go to school today..”Sora said sleepily. I had to laugh at that. I looked at Sora and the thought of leaning over and kissing him crossed my mind. I shook my head and enforced my self-control at that moment. I leaned over and shook Sora again this time making sure he woke up fully. Sora sat up and rubbed his eyes sleepily. He looked at me and the expression on his face looked like a grizzly bear that was just woke prematurely out of hibernation.

“Riku?” Sora asked in that groggy tone. I gave a very light smile and nodded.

“Yeah….come on hurry up. We’re going to be late for school if you don’t get in gear.” I said as I stood up. Sora nodded and yawned. I guess he wasn’t fully awake to realize I was going to school with him and was probably treating this like a normal day that I spent the night. I shook my head and then walked out of the bedroom as Sora walked into the bathroom to splash water on his face.

After about almost 30 minutes Sora was finally ready. We left the house and walked to school together making idle chitchat. Truth was I did not want to look at that school building. The moment we got there Sora pulled me off to the side and made ook ook at him. I looked in Sora’s eyes and seen genuine worry and concern. I had been in a pretty good mood but now looking at Sora I started to get depressed again. I was seriously thinking about turning back but Sora grabbed my arm as if he could read my thoughts. His touch was so soft and gentle…I shivered a bit but Sora obliviously thought it was because of the withdrawals.

“Riku….promise me you won’t cut class today ok? Promise me you’ll go through the entire day.” Sora said softly. I looked at him and closed my eyes. What he was asking me to do was hard. I hated this place and I so wanted to leave already. But I nodded slowly. I opened my eyes and Sora smiled at me with his gorgeous smile. I could feel the longing and hurt in my heart that I couldn’t have Sora. But I was grateful I had him as my friend…if that’s the only way I could have him. I followed Sora into the school building and the moment I walked in it was already starting. The other students all backed against their lockers or some daring ones rudely walked past me almost shoving me as they passed. I looked over and I seen Kairi chatting with Selphie. Selphie’s eyes widened at seeing me and Kairi looked over too. She had been smiling but the moment she seen me she scowled. She didn’t even look at Sora and Sora was doing his best to not look at her. But it was clear he was trying hard not to break down in tears.

“he’s back……I never thought he’d come back….” “Are you kidding? He’s a loser he’ll probably drop out anyway” “I heard he was on drugs…..” “I wouldn’t be surprised at all he’s bad news waiting to happen” I turned my head hearing the whispers between the other students. Some I heard some I didn’t. I visibly cringed and Sora noticed it. He patted my shoulder and gave me an encouraging smile. I looked at him before I walked to my locker and got my almost forgotten history book. I grabbed the book and slammed the locker closed wal pas past Sora without a word. This was going to be Hell and I knew it.

~later that day~

Riku had went through most of his classes as promised. He was in his second to last class and he couldn’t have been more grateful that this day was almost over. During the entire day rumors had been spread about him and gossip had been whispered. He had even had a couple of jocks come up to him making fun of him because of the way he looked. Riku hadn’t talked to anyone the entire day. He didn’t even say anything to Wakka and Tidus and they were almost always at least friendly with him. The teachers didn’t really say anything either to defend Riku and Sora only had two classes with Riku but Riku always sat in the back of the classrooms.

Riku tapped his pen almost impatiently. He had been extremely jittery for the last two classes. Riku had broke out in a sweat also. Most of the physical aliments of the withdrawals were over but Riku still broke out in sweats and often felt anxiety. Riku had asked the teacher if he could go get a drink of water. The teacher agreed and Riku walked to the water fountain down the hall thinking that maybe a drink of water would help cool him down.

Kairi was outside with a few of her friends being they all had Gym this hour. Selphie and Kairi were talking to three of their other friends. Kairi spotted Riku and sneered while Selphie blinked.

“What is it Kairi?” Selphie asked.

“Oh nothing….” Kairi said before she crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow watching Riku. Riku was well aware of the girls and probably knew what they were giggling at but he tried his hardest to ignore them as he got another drink of water. Kairi smirked and raised her voice so Riku would hear. Not like she cared she infact was highly pissed off at Riku. It was all his fault that she had to break up with Sora and now she was actually starting to miss Sora but as long as Riku was around she’d never get Sora back because in her own mind It was all about him.

“Well, well if it isn’t Sora’s little pet charity case who’s finally decided to show his face and come back to school. What a loser…” Kairi said as the other girls giggled and nodded in agreement.

“He’ll never get a date to Prom. I don’t know anyone who would be willing to go with him…”one of the girls said as she giggled. Riku was already irritated in more ways than one. He was just a normal person who had problems and he was treated like an alien in his own school. But that comment from Kairi of all people was the icing on the cake. He wasn’t too happy with her for what she did to Sora anyway but her even saying that about someone she supposedly loved did it for Riku.

Riku turned around and looked at Kairi narrowing his eyes. Kairi stopped giggling and looked at him before raising an eyebrow.

“Well? Got something to say LOSER.” She said before she giggled again. Riku just looked at her and shook his head before he turned fully to her.

“Kairi, When are you going to shut the fuck up? What I do is none of your business. So don’t try to make it your business you stupid bitch. As far as that comment goes….It shows you really had no feelings for Sora what-so-fucking-ever and that he was just a toy for you. If you and your girlfriends are looking for toys they have a nice little toy store downtown just perfect for you. Its called Toys R Us….or if you can find a local Sluts R Us that would fit you too.” Riku said before he just turned on his heel and started walking back to class. Kairi stood there looking completely and utterly shocked at what he had said to her. She couldn’t even think of a good comeback. No one had ever called her a slut or a bitch. Kairi’s friends all went quiet too as Riku stopped right before he got to class.

“oh and Kairi? Stop tormenting Sora. He doesn’t deserve this kind of treatment from someone he DID love. Just because you were too blind to see how good of a person Sora really is doesn’t mean you have to act like he’s poison that’s going to kill you.” Riku said in an ice-cold tone before he walked back into class. Kairi scowled aut hut her hands on her hips completely enraged at Riku. She would find a way to get back at him. Selphie who had been quiet this entire time just looked at Kairi and whistled.

“He seemed pretty angry with you Kairi.” Selphie said. Kairi just waved her hand.

“What does that junkie know about Sora?! Not a damn thing! I know Sora still loves me! I just have to get Riku out of the way and Sora’s mine again!!” Kairi screamed looking furious. The other girls just kept quiet as Kairi visibly seethed but also clearly trying to think.

Meanwhile…..

Sora’s mom was busy working at the hospital. She had another four hours until her shift ended. She was looking at a chart her long brown hair pulled up in a bun when Riku’s foster father, Daniel came storming in and immediately sought her out. Sora’s mother just looked at him calmly.

“Can I help you Daniel?” Sora’s mother asked softly but it clearly had a cold undertone to it.

“You BITCH! Where is my son?! Gina won’t tell me anything and I think that little bastard has ran away to your house and you’re protecting him!!” the older man yelled alcohol thick on his breath. Sora’s mother just looked at the man clearly not intimidated by him.

“I’m sorry….but you are right. I am protecting him. But as his legal guardian I believe I have that right. I also have the right to put a restraining order against you and I believe I have done that. You can’t come within fifty feet of Riku without me being there.” Sora’s mother said before she calmly showed him a legal piece of paper that infuriated the older man. It was clear that she did get a restraining order against Riku’s foster father.

“You can’t do that! He’s not your responsibility! I didn’t sign him over to you you whore!” he yelled at her. Sora’s mother just looked at him.

“The paper didn’t need your signature. Only one of the parents. Gina signed full custody of Riku over to me. Being he’s seventeen he’s only got one year and I’m not his adoptive mother. I am only his legal guardian until he turns 18 and then it will be up to him if he wishes to keep the restraining order against you. Gina told me everything….”Sora’s mother said before she looked up and gave him an icy look.

“If you have a problem with this please consult my lawyer but I’m afraid I’m going to have to ask you to leave Sir before the police are called and you are taken to jail for disturbihe phe peace and being drunk in public.” She said as she lifted a piece of the chart up to look at a paper. Riku’s foster father was furious. He looked at the paper in his hand before throwing it in Sora’s mother’s face and then stormed out shoving people in his way. Sora’s mother just looked up before she reached over and called security to alert them of the angry man. Sora’s mother went back to the chart she was looking at as if nothing happened after she got off the phone and picked up the piece of paper that had fell to the floor

.~Sora’s POV~

The day went by pretty fast. Riku kept to his promise and stayed in class the entire day, which really made me happy. He was actually trying to do better in school now. Maybe he could even pass his finals. Riku and I were walking home but we both were way to silent for my liking. Riku seemed pissed off for some reason or the other….but me? Ever since Riku kissed me I couldn’t get the thought of Riku kissing me again. Would he kiss me again given the opportunity? I found myself starting to think more and more about my sexuality. Was I really straight? I had always thought I was. Up until now that is. When Riku kissed me I actually felt my heart flutter and my knees almost go weak.

The more I thought about it the more I started to think that maybe I was into guys too. I know that kind of reaction isn’t normal and…thoughts of something more between Riku and I started tumbling in my head too. I knew Riku didn’t have a girlfriend but I was actually surprised. Riku is actually very attractive. I always thought that Riku could get any girl he wanted. But I assume way too much.

I looked at Riku and started fidgeting nervously. What was happening to me? I didn’t think about Kairi near as much anymore and when I did think about Kairi it wasn’t like I used to. I licked my lips and fiddled with the straps of my backpack trying to think of something to say to break the silence.

“How was school Riku? I only got to talk to you a little bit today and I’m sorry for that.” I said. Riku looked at me and gave his classic shrug stating that it wasn’t worth talking about. I sighed and licked my lips again before stopping. Riku had noticed I had stopped walking and turned to look at me.

“Sora?” He asked. I looked up at him and gave a small, shy smile.

“Riku, can I ask you something? Its something kind of personal…”I said. Riku looked at me and nodded as we started walking again. I was actually quite grateful we were almost at the house and we were approaching the yard.

“Riku….that kiss….when you kissed me Friday night…..would….would you ever do it again? I mean I understand if it was me that drove you away that night but..”I said before I started playing even more with the straps looking at the ground. Riku looked at me and I seen the shock on his face. He blinked before he cleared his throat and looked at me. I could feel him tilt my chin up and I could feel the blush across my cheeks.

“It wasn’t you that drove me off…..I’m sorry….I should have told you Sora…..but…yes I would. I would kiss you again…why?”Riku said. He now got my curiosity up and I wanted to explore more into this. Riku made me feel things I had never felt when anyone kissed me before. Especially not Kairi.

“well…..I…I was curious and…..I think I liked it when you kissed me Riku.” I said. Riku looked at me brushing some hair out of my eyes. I looked at him looking deep in his eyes as Riku tilted my head up even more. As if answer to my question he leaned down and brushed his lips against mine in a gentle kiss.

I felt my eyes flutter closed at the contact. There it was again. That butterfly feeling in my stomach and the fluttering in my heart. The only one I had ever kissed before Riku was Kairi so I did know how to kiss….somewhat. I pressed my lips back against his slowly kissing him back. Riku seemed to be pleased as he cupped the side of my face with one hand moving closer to deepen the kiss. I opened my eyes as Riku moved closer to me slowly wrapping his arm around my waist. My eyes widened when I felt Riku’s tongue slowly trace my lips. I gasped and Riku took the next step letting his tongue slowly caress my mouth. I ran my hands up Riku’s arms not sure if I wanted him to stop or continue. My eyes closed again when I decided I wanted him to continue. I kissed him back just as slowly neither of us really rushing into it. We were both taking our time and it was almost like we were making out in front of my door. Which….in a way we were. We suddenly broke contact when we both heard the phone ring inside the house. I was shocked when I heard a small whimper escape my throat. I didn’t want the kiss to end. Riku looked at me and brushed some more hair from my eyes. He brushed his thumb slowly over my lips and just looked at me before motioning to the door.

“You should get that Sora. It might be your mom.” Riku said. I nodded and unlocked the door running to get the phone. Riku walked in and closed the door behind him as I answered the phone.

Damn my luck that my mother would call when I was slowly starting to get into kissing Riku. I lightly bit my lip as I was on the phone. Deep down I was wondering if what I asked Riku was right. I wondered if even kissing Riku was right. But I knew one thing for certain. He was an excellent kisser and I found my feelings slowly but surely growing deeper for my friend. Was I falling in love with him? Did he love me? I didn’t want to be in a one way relationship….but only time would tell if Riku did love me right? I guess I would have to wait…. which I really sucked at doing.