Bring Me to Life

Disclaimer: No I don’t own Kingdom Hearts. Believe me if I did I wouldn’t be writing fan fiction about Riku hehe. I’m sorry it’s taking so long to update my fics. I have to write out my chapters and then type them up so it’s taking longer. Violence, language and angst warnings in this chapter. Thank you for all the reviews*hugs everyone who reviewed* Please continue to review me and tell me what you think^^. Grammar warnings too as usual. Word is really not cooperating*kicks it* Anyway here’s chapter five. Enjoy!

A full day passed after Riku had been taken to Sora’s house. Riku was asleep most of the time and Sora stayed with Riku constantly. Two women were sitting in the kitchen drinking coffee at Sora’s house. One of them was cly Sly Sora’s mother and the other appeared to be Riku’s foster mother. Sora’s mother sipped her coffee looking thoughtful as the two women had been chatting.

“Gina, are you sure you want to do this? I mean…he is your son.”Sora’s mother asked as she put her cup down. Riku’s foster mother nodded sipping her own coffee.

“I’m sure. I can’t think of another way to protect him from Daniel…how is Riku anyway Michelle? How is Sora taking everything?” Riku’s foster mother asked. Sora’s mother shrugged in reply.

“Not so well. Sora won’t leave Riku’s side for anything. I think Riku will be alright though. I mean he made it through the night safely. It’s the withdrawals you have to worry about. Its what I’m truly worried about. This drug is something that has never hit the streets before. Who knows how bad the withdrawals will be.”Sora’s mother said as she poured her and Riku’s foster mother more coffee.

Riku’s foster mother thanked her quietly before she looked at some legal papers she had brought with her. She looked over them once before handing them to the other woman. She handed the woman a pen as well.

“There’s an X where your signature is needed Michelle. I haven’t been a good enough mother I know this. Riku really is a good kid and he doesn’t deserve what he goes through.” Riku’s foster mother said. Sora’s mother looked at her friend before she nodded but clear as she looked at the other woman she wished there was another way. Sora’s mother started signing papers without another word.

~Sora’s POV~

Morning always came way too early for me. Anyone who knew me knew I was NOT a morning person. It is a crime against humanity to make a person get up out a very peaceful sleep so light can greet their groggy eyes and a ice cold floor can greet their feet when their feet was perfectically happy in the nice, warm, comfortable bed. If there was a club that would describe me? it would be definitely Sleepaholics Anonymous.

I woke up curled up in my desk chair with my head leaning in my hands. I stretched and grimaced as cracking from my bones could be heard. My body was not happy with me at all. Every muscle ached and my back must have popped in six different places. I was stiff all over but I hadn’t slept well the night before. In between checking on Riku and crying my eyes out from my own heartbreak I was lucky to get about two to three hours of sleep. I guess I must have cried myself to sleep last night. I looked over and seen Riku asleep on my bed. I smiled a bit relieved that Riku was in a blissful state of sleep.

I stood up and stretched again before I walked over to Riku. I sat down on the edge of the bed watching Riku sleep. I frowned when I seen Riku shivering visibly. I pulled my covers up around Riku’s neck thinking he was cold. My frown deepened when I felt Riku’s skin was slick with a cold sweat. Riku’s hair was plastered to his face clearly soaked with the sweat. Without realizing it I brushed some hair from Riku’s face with a gentle touch. I tucked the hair behind Riku’s ear just watching him sleep. Something about him looked almost angelic at that point. Vulnerable and just had the look of a fallen angel. As I watched him I found myself brushing more hair back from his face. Riku’s hand flew up grabbing my wrist roughly androzeroze in place not expecting that. Oh great, good going Sora you managed to wake him up. At first I thought he was pissed at me. Which I would be too if It was me woke out of a blissful sleep. Riku’s hand tightened around my wrist making me whima bia bit.

I looked down at Riku’s face and I watched his eyes fly open. Riku stared at me for a few minutes as if he was trying to recognize me. I don’t know what was wrong with Riku but he was really starting to scare me. A part of me told me it was because I woke Riku up. But the logical part of my brain thought it was something much worse.

Riku sat up and my eyes widened as he looked at me. Maybe pushing his hair from his face wasn’t such a good idea after all?

“Riku?” I asked. It took every ounce of control I had to keep my voice from cracking but even with that it cracked a little bit.

Riku looked at me and roughly threw my wrist from him. At first I thought I did something to piss Riku off. If did what did I do? I tried to reach over and put my hand on his shoulder in an effort to calm him. Riku sld myd my hand away and stood up. He started to walk around the room as if he didn’t know where he was. I got up and tried to reach for him again my mouth opening to speak before Riku turned around and looked at me almost snarling.

“Don’t fucking touch me!”riku said angrily. Ok this was really not like Riku at all. This whole situation was starting to freak me out. Riku started pacing the room still looking pissed off. So stupid me I thought I’d try again.

“Riku? It’s me, Sora.”I said as I tried to walk up to Riku. Before I could react Riku turned around and shoved me as hard as he could into my dresser. I had to really try not to break down in tears this time. What was wrong with him? Riku looked at me and blinked a few times when he heard me whimper in pain. I looked at him watching him.

“S….Sora? Oh god…..Sora I’m so sorry..”riku said clearly on the verge of tears. His voice was even cracking. I had never heaiku iku so emotional. I pushed my own pain away. To tell the truth I was more concerned about my friend than I was if my back was going to turn a nice shade of black and green. Riku was pissed one moment and the next he looked ready to cry.

Riku looked at me and started to fidget. Something in my mind told me that him fidgeting was all manners of bad. Now if only I listened to that side of my brain more. I watched Riku trying to read what he was going to do. I have to admit I’m not the greatest person when it came to reading Riku’s mind. But I was actually grateful I didn’t have to wear that sling anymore for more than one reason. I had a feeling that Riku was going to run and…I was right.

Riku darted and made a run for my bedroom door. I ran and intercepted him grabbing him by his upper arms to keep him from running out the door. Riku was always stronger than me that was no secret. But I was actually shocked to see that even though Riku was fighting back and trying to break my hold he was too weak to do so. I was actually holding him back! I’ve NEVER been able to hold Riku back ever and here I was, little old Sora holding Riku back. Riku was trying his damnest to break free though and run out the door. As much as I cared for Riku there was no way in Hell I was going to let him do such a thing. In all the times Riku needed me and I wasn’t there….this was the one time I swore I wouldn’t turn my back. Even if Satan had came to me and offered me everything I could ever dream of I wasn’t leaving Riku. Kairi may call me a fool and maybe I am. But at least I knew Riku would be in good hands.

“Where do you think you’re going Riku?! You are in no condition to go out right now!” I pleaded with him as I continued to hold him back. We struggled a bit more before we both found ourselves back at my bed. Riku, however managed to break from my arms and almost scrambled away from me going to the opposite side of the room. I wlocklocking the door so he couldn’t run out the door without me catching him. Riku was almost seething in anger now. Questions would come later right now all I had on my mind was calming down Riku.

“Damn you! Let me go! I don’t want to fucking stay here!” Riku screamed at me. I tried not to show just how much the words stung but I also knew Riku was being irrational right now. I found myself wondering just why those words stung as much as they did. I mean…he was only my friend…..right? But if that was the case….why was my heart breaking all over again? I pushed all of that aside and concentrated on just Riku.

“Where are you wanting to go? I’m just worried about you Riku! Can’t you see that? Don’t you see me?” I asked my voice pleading. Riku looked around as if he was looking for something. He seen a pair of scissors on my desk and grabbed them holding the sharp end against his chest right over his heart. My eyes widened in horror. He wouldn’t….he wasn’t really serious was he? I looked at him looking in his eyes and he looked almost crazed. Something was seriously wrong with Riku now. Riku was never this irrational. He pressed the blades harder into his chest almost cutting his skin.

“Get the fuck out of my way! I want to go to Ansem! He is the only one that can take my pain away he can help me! If you don’t let me go to Ansem I will end my miserable fucking life right now!”Riku screamed. He was completely serious! I put my hands up as I started to walk to him. I didn’t want to alarm him and have him do something stupid. Riku’s words cut deeper into me but when I looked in Riku’s eyes I could see the guilt in them. He really didn’t mean what he said and I knew it. It drove me even more to try and help him. Who the hell was Ansem anyway?

“Riku, I don’t know who Ansem is. But I do know I’m not letting you leave this house. I care about you and I’m not about to let you get yourself hurt.” I said as I stopped in front of him. I looked at Riku watching him before my eyes fell on the scissors. I held my hand out and looked back into Riku’s eyes.

“Give them to me please Riku….”I asked with a very soft voice.

“Get the fuck back!”Riku screamed as he pressed the scissors even harder. I frowned and I realized I had to do something. I quickly reached out and grabbed Riku’s hand. Normally I wouldn’t have been able to do this but in Riku’s current condition he was too weak to try and keep me from taking the scissors. ippeipped the scissors from him and threw them on the floor. Riku tried to dart past me to the door and I caught him as he was running. Both of us fell to the bed and Riku was thrashing around trying to get up. Riku was looking around frantically for something. His eyes fell on a scraping knife I kept for art projects. My eyes followed his before my eyes widened. Riku tried to reach for it but I held his wrists down to keep him from hurting himself. I straddled Riku’s waist to pin him down. Usually Riku would be able to throw me off but he was so weak that he could barely fight back now which worried me even more. I held him down with all I had as I watched him. Seeing Riku like this almost brought me to tears.

“Let me go! Please!”Riku screamed at me as he tried to get up. He looked at me as if he didn’t recognize me. I have to admit I’m not the greatest person in realizing things but as I was holding Riku down I started thinking of what could possibly be making Riku like this. It all hit me at once. Riku was using drugs chances are he was addicted. But now he was going through withdrawals from them. He had to have been.

“I’m sorry Riku but I can’t…”I said in a very soft voice. Riku looked at me with wide eyes before he suddenly and out of nowhere Riku broke down into violent tears.

“Please, let me go….please! Fuck! I need my drugs please! If you’re my friend help me please! Take the pain away!” Riku cried as he tried to sit up again.

As I was watching Riku I felt tears come to my own eyes. How could I have let this go on for so long?! My best friend needed me and I wasn’t there for him. I was off with Kairi when I should have been checking on Riku. Something inside of me started tearing at the sight of Riku.

Riku was soaked from head to toe in sweat and he was actually crying and begging for more drugs or to let him go to Ansem. I already didn’t like the sound of this Ansem guy. Riku was one of the strongest people I know yet here he was laying on the bed with me having to hold him down. He looked so….helpless. Right then I made a silent promise to Riku and to myself. I would move Heaven and Earth to hhim.him. I WOULD help him if it was the very last thing I did. No one would get me to turn my back on Riku again. It just wasn’t going to happen. I was actually calm during this entire thing. Which shocked the hell out of me. Riku was always the calm one. Now the tables were turned and it was my turn to take care of Riku.

“Riku, I am your friend. We’ve been friends since we were kids. I’m really sorry that I haven’t been here for you. I really am but I promise that will change. I will help you. I’m going to prove I’m your friend and that I care about you. I’m going to help you get past the drugs and the withdrawals. I promise you Riku. We’ll get you back on track.” I said to him in the most comforting voice I could manage. In that moment I could have sworn I sounded more mature than I was told I was. But I meant every word. I had loosened my grip on Riku’s wrists unknowy.
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Riku sat up but instead of getting up completely he sat up and he suddenly wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace. He held on to me as tight as he could without hurting me although it was damn near close. Riku buried his face in my shoulder and cried even harder than he was. I wrapped my arms around Riku and hugged him close to me. I stroked Riku’s hair in an effort to calm him. I don’t know if it worked or not but I tried. Riku just clung to me with me sitting in his lap. I had to admit it was awkward to be sitting in my best friend’s lap. But a part of me felt very relaxed in this position. I brushed it off as the need to comfort Riku. I didn’t even believe it but my mind kept telling me these emotions and thoughts were from me being distraught over Kairi breaking up with me. Maybe so but my thoughts were interrupted when Riku’s sobbing got louder and the words he said.

“Please…don’t take him from me…please I beg you!” Riku sobbed. I stroked his hair and looked at him.

“Take who away from you? Ansem?” I asked as I looked down at Riku.

“No…Sora. Don’t take Sora away from me. He’s all I have.”Riku said before he cried even harder into my shoulder.

My eyes went as wide as saucers when I heard that from Riku. I didn’t let it show in my actions though. I wrapped my arms tighter around him not saying anything. I didn’t want to make Riku more upset than he already was. That might have been very bad. I just held Riku and closed my eyes my arms not loosening around him at all. I was determined to take care of Riku even if I didn’t do anything else at this point. I owed at least that to him and I wouldn’t ignore him or pretend everything was ok anymore.

~three weeks later~

Riku had been staying with mom and I since he overdosed. For some reason mom wouldn’t let him go back home to his parents which I can’t say I blame her. I didn’t know what was going on with them but I knew it wasn’t good. It couldn’t have been if Riku was on drugs! I came home from school and walked up to my room. I tried to talk Riku into going to school but he downright refused saying he didn’t want to see anyone. He had been doing better since he had been staying with us. In the three weeks he had only tried to kill himself two more times. But now he didn’t get that bad. He wasn’t very talkative though and usually just stayed up in my room. Thankfully mom had moved a futon in my room so I wouldn’t have to sleep on the floor or sleep at my desk. I didn’t want to take any chances though and anything in my room that could be used as a weapon or something for Riku to try and harm himself was taken out. My mother took all the razors and everything else sharp in the bathroom out too although I never used a razor in my life. I didn’t have to.

I was actually worried about Riku in school though. I know he was failing but Finals were coming up within a week. I talked to Riku’s teachers and they all said that if Riku passed his finals he’d be able to pass most of his classes and would only have to take one or two classes in Summer School. It was getting him to attend long enough for classes that worried me. Riku had no desire to leave the house at all.

I walked into my room and I gasped when I seen Riku sitting at my desk crying his eyes out. I dropped my bag and walked over to him pulling him into my arms.

“Riku! Is everything ok?!” I asked as I held Riku to me. Riku looked up at me before burying his face in my chest continuing to cry.

“Everything’s fine Sora…..I’m….I’m glad you’re here….I guess…I wanted your company…”Riku said as his voice cracked. I looked down at Riku and smiled a bit.

“I’m right here. I’m sorry Riku but I to gto go to school. I talked to your teachers today….they said that if you pass your finals you’ll pass their classes and only one or two of them you’ll have to make up in Summer School Riku.” I said as I looked at him. Riku went quiet before he pulled away from me and wiped his eyes. Did I say something wrong? Riku sat back in the chair as I leaned against the desk.

“So…will you go? Will you go take the finals? Please Riku. If you don’t you’ll have to take the entire year over again….”I said as I looked in his eyes. Riku didn’t say anything and just looked at me. The look Riku gave me was impassive and almost cold. I just wanted to curl up somewhere and cry myself. In the three weeks I was barely mending my heart from Kairi breaking up with me. When I went to school I had to see her every day. She talked to me but it was really brief as if I was an alien or something. I never said anything out loud….but I had been thinking more about Riku. Of course Riku probably didn’t think of me as anything more than a friend…maybe even a nuisance.

“Please Riku? Please, for me? Will you take the finals?” I pleaded with him. Riku’s look almost softened when he looked at me. He didn’t say a word but he nodded as he stood up. Riku walked passed me and went downstairs into the kitchen.

I followed him downstairs and when I got there Riku was leaning against the counter eating a piece of left over cake. When I did see Riku eat it was nothing but sweets which worried me but he was eating SOMETHING and that was better than nothing. I smiled a bit at Riku and tilted my head. Riku looked up at me and raised an eyebrow. I had to admit I had been feeling down myself but I tried not to let that show. wou would have made Riku feel worse and I didn’t want that. Riku, however did notice it and ate a small bite of the cake in his hand.

“Something wrong Sora?” Riku asked quietly. It kind of surprised me. this was the first time Riku had actually talked to me in a few days. I smiled and shook my head quickly.

“No….just feeling much like the Ugly Duckling.” I said with a soft laugh. Riku just looked at me and raised an eyebrow clear he wanted me to continue and so I did.

“Kairi broke up with me three weeks ago…..I guess I’m feeling ugly and worthless.” I said as I shrugged a bit. For the first time since I’ve ever known Riku. He looked completely and utterly shocked. He put the plate to the side and looked at me crossing his arms.

“Ugly? Hardly. Did Kairi tell you this?” Riku asked as he looked at me. I shook my head.

“No….its just something I’ve been thinking about.” I said as I looked down. What Riku did shocked me. I mean utterly shocked the hell out of me. Riku reached over and tilted my head up making me look at him.

“You are far from ugly Sora. A far cry from ugly. You are one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever known.” Riku said. I felt a hot blush come to my cheeks at his words. Riku blinked and let me go. I looked at Riku and he looked almost as if he shouldn’t have said that but he did. Before I could react Riku leaned forward and brushed his lips against mine in a gentle kiss. My eyes almost popped out of my head in shock. He pulled back and looked at me before looking almost like a deer in the headlights of a car. Riku pulled away from me looking at me almost in horror before he ran past me. As he passed me he said something very quickly.

“I’m sorry.” Riku said before he ran up the stairs. I blinked wide-eyed and let my fingers brush over my lips where he had just kissed me. Kairi kissed me many times before. But for some reason…..her kisses never felt like that. When Riku kissed me I felt my heart actually flutter. When Kairi kissed me…it was almost like I was kissing my mom. But I’m straight….I’m not into guys…right? I found myself seriously debating that though. Then Riku running off like that….was he ashamed he did that? Or was it me? I slowly sank to my knees watching Riku go into my bedroom. What was I going to do? No matter how much I tried to deny it….I think I was falling for my best friend. But Riku didn’t feel the same way about me…did he?