Bring Me to Life

Disclaimer: nope don’t own kingdom hearts unfortunately. Don’t own Riku, Don’t own Sora, don’t own Kairi. All of those Kairi fans out there please forgive me for making Kairi such a bitch. I really hate her in the game but that’s just me. I have run on a dry spell of creativity for Of darkness and Light so I will be a bit slower updating that fic. Maybe my muse will come back to me on that one but in the meantime I’ll work on this fic. Language, Angst, Violence, Drama, all that good stuff in this chapter. Grammar warnings as well. Please read and review^^. Here’s chapter four! Oh this will be in Sora’s POV from this chapter on probably.

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Sora’s POV~

I sat in a chair in the hospital room Riku was in. I don’t think I could have felt worse at that moment. My best friend was laying in a hospital bed he shouldn’t even be in in the first place. To make matters worse…Riku was laying in that bed because of me. If I would have paid more attention to where I was going Riku would have never had to come save me. This was all my fault. It was my fault Riku was in the hospital. Then I come to find out my best friend was on drugs. I started to slowly piece together everything that was going on.

Riku’s absences in school, his lack of effort but his weight loss had been flashing warning signs at me since I had been in school. Just thinking about Riku’s drug use made me feel even worse. I could have helped him a long time ago. I should have been checking on him instead of putting it off. Maybe then it might not have gotten so bad. Who am I kidding? Me. clumsy old Sora that can’t walk down the street without tripping over his own two feet trying to help his best friend who is on drugs. As absurd as it sounded….Watching Riku in that bed with the IV in his arm and the bandages on him made my mind up for me. I wanted to help Riku. Not only did I feel that I owed him that but I really did care about Riku. Maybe Kairi is right. Maybe I care a little too much. But if I didn’t care about Riku or what happens to him….who would?

To be honest…..I was actually very glad to see Riku that day in the alley. I didn’t want him to get hurt though. But…..Riku had pulled those guys off of me. How he was there so fast I’ll never know. I didn’t even know he was around in that neighborhood. I know Riku had always told me never to walk down the streets alone. Now I knew why and to be quite frank it scared the shit out of me. I have always considered myself straight when it came to my sexuality. But it didn’t mean I wasn’t open-minded because I was. However, I would have NEVER have thought in a million years that some street thugs would actually catch me in an alley not wanting money, not wanting to beat me up….much, but for sex. I had never felt so cheap and dirty as I did when those guys had their hands all over me. It actually hurt when that blonde pincushion started groping me.

I have only had one person touch me there besides myself and that was Kairi. I have to admit there was times Kairi would get a bit daring and give me a hand job. But she would never do anything beyond that. She wanted to wait till marriage to actually lose her virginity, which was cool with me. I could wait. But Kairi was bad about teasing me. She would say one thing and then the next moment she’d be completely contradicting herself with her actions. Kairi loved to get me rock hard and then give me those teasing smiles saying I should be a good boy and wait. But Kairi was never as rough as that guy was. I was almost sure I was going to bruise from his treatment. I was joltet oft of my thoughts when I heard a soft groan. I looked up and my eyes widened when I seen Riku starting to wake up. I smiled and sat up more in the chair when I seen Riku open his eyes. Riku groaned his face contorting in pain before he looked over and seen me. I could tell by the look in his eyes he was relieved to see me. I smiled at him and moved over to him. It was good to see he was awake.

“Hey Riku. How do you feel?” I asked. Riku looked at me and gave me a half smirk.

“Like shit…..you?”Riku asked me in an extremely groggy voice. I smiled and nodded.

“I’m alright…..The doctor said I just have a badly bruised arm and not to use it for a few days. Other than that its just bruises and stuff. I’m so sorry Riku….this should have never have happened. This is all because of me….”I started. I looked down looking at the tiles on the floor. Riku looked at me and frowned hearing me. I could see his frown from the corner of my eye.

“Sora, don’t you ever let me hear you say that again. None of this is your fault. If anyone should be sorry its me. If I would have gotten there just a little sooner…..”Riku said his voice soft as he looked at my arm. He looked up into my eyes and his expression was actually soft and caring. I had never seen Riku give me a look like that. I could actually feel my breath catch in my throat and a faint blush come to my face at Riku’s look. I mentally slapped myself back into reality. Damn, did Riku’s look do that much to me? Maybe it was just shock.

“if I would have gotten there sooner…you probably wouldn’t have been hurt at all.”riku said in that soft voice again. He looked at the IV in his hand and tried to sit up a bit more so he was more comfortable. I really don’t know how he could get comfortable at all with broken ribs. I had one thought on my mind. I looked at Riku’s arms seeing the faint needle marks. I frowned and Riku seen it. He was watching my facial expression carefully.

“Riku……why? Why are you taking drugs?” I asked. Riku looked at me and leaned back not saying anything. He made no move to answer either. Was he ignoring me? I closed my eyes and decided to drop the subject….for now.

~~Four days later~~

Riku was finally released from the hospital after the doctors made sure there was no internal bleeding. Riku had went through bad withdrawals the first three days at the hospital although he tried his damnest to hide them. He didn’t even really know why he just did it. Riku had been irritable as one of the side effects from his drug use. Riku hadn’t been able to sleep at all in the hospital. He hated hospitals. That wasn’t the first time Riku had been in the hospital and Riku was pretty sure that wouldn’t be the last either.

Riku was finally able to come home. He went straight to his room and tossed his bag on the bed. His room had clearly rearranged. Clothes were neatly put up and his closet had been completely torn apart. Riku frowned before Riku’s foster mother walked up to Riku a smile on her face.

“I arranged your room for you honey…..”She said before her eyes almost took a frightened edge to them.

“We need to talk Riku.”She said. Riku looked at her and nodded. He knew it was coming. His foster father was leaning against the counter in the kitchen as Riku followed his mom. Riku sat down not even looking at the older man. Riku visibly grimaced at the dull ache he constantly had in his sides. It would be weeks before his ribs healed completely. Not that Riku had anything that needed to be done.

Riku’s mother sat down across from him on the table and brought out the needles along with the black bottle Ansem had given Riku. She had found them all in Riku’s room. Riku wasn’t in the least bit surprised though. He knew she would find them if she looked hard enough.

“Riku, baby, you know your father and I love you right?” she started. Riku just looked at her before he stood up and went to his room. He dug around in his bag before he came back and sat down. He lit one of his cigarettes and took a drag. It hurt like a bitch when he inhaled the smoke but Riku didn’t care. Hell if he was going to be crucified for bad bad habits he might as well smoke while it was going on. Riku’s mother frowned even more waiting for an answer.

“You….maybe….him?”Riku said as he motioned with his hand that was holding the cigarette. He motioned to his foster father and leaned back.

“very doubtful that he loves me at all.”Riku commented coldly. The older man just raised an eyebrow at Riku not saying a word. But as far as Riku was concerned it was the truth and Riku had been irritable to the point that he didn’t give a fuck anymore. Riku’s foster mother frowned seeing her son. She was truly worried about him. But deep down she knew he was right.

“How long have you been smoking and doing drugs Riku? You know you can tell us anything right?” the woman asked with gentle eyes. Riku looked at her and gave a half nod as he took another drag of his cigarette. He grimaced at each drag he took but hell it hurt to breathe.

“Well…got broken ribs and I’m inhaling a shit load of tar and nicotine. I bet my lungs absolutely love me now.”Riku thought to himself sarcastically. Riku’s foster father scowled at him when he seen Riku wasn’t answering as fast as he wanted.

“Answer your mother boy!” The man shouted at Riku. Riku looked at his foster father and then looked at his mom.

“I don’t know….I started smoking at 15 I think and I started drugs….shit right after I turned 17 I think.”Riku said as he put out his cigarette in one of his foster father’s ashtrays. It was clear however that Riku was not his normal polite self at the moment. He was grouchy and truth be told he really didn’t feel like listening to all of this talk. Riku’s foster mother pushed some wavy blonde hair from her face. She reached over and took her son’s hand squeezing it gently. Guilt could be seen in Riku’s eyes as he looked at her.

“Riku…..why are you doing drugs?” His foster mother asked. Riku didn’t answer her. Just like he didn’t with Sora. He trusted them but…could he trust them that much?

“mom….You’re as bad as Sora….I don’t..”Riku started. Riku’s foster father almost looked enraged as he snarled.

“Sora this and Sora that! From now on I don’t want you around that little fucker! Just because you have a crush on the prick doesn’t mean you have to go get yourself jumped because of him! That was fuckin STUPID of you Riku! Stay the hell away from him!”Riku’s foster father shouted at him in anger.

Riku’s eyes narrowed clearly not happy about that at all. Riku was mentally scalding himself though. He should have expected it out of the bastard.

“He’s my best friend. He’s my only friend so go fuck yourself old man.” Riku growled at him. That pissed Riku’s foster father off. He reared his hand back as if he was going to hit Riku. Riku braced himself for the hit but wasn’t surprised when his foster mom stood up and grabbed her husband’s wrist stopping him.

“He just got out of the hospital Daniel! Hitting him won’t help!” She screamed at the larger man. But he was already well beyond pissed. The man had a very short fuse and it usually got the better of him. He shoved the smaller woman back roughly before he slapped her hard. Riku’s eyes widened and despite his injuries he was standing in between his parents protecting his mother. The woman held her swelling cheek and sobbed softly. She reached up trying to pull Riku back. She was very fearful for her son.

She never could have kids of her own. The woman and her husband had found Riku crying in the streets. His parents were nowhere to be found. The woman fought with her husband and finally got her way. Riku was only four but by the time Riku had reached six his foster father became abusive to both him and his mother.

Riku ignored his mother’s attempts to pull him back. His foster father grabbed Riku’s hair roughly and forced him to look up at the older man. Riku looked at him and much to the older man’s dismay Riku didn’t look in the least bit intimidated. Riku’s foster father twisted his hand in Riku’s hair almost pulling the boy’s hair out making Riku whimper in pain.

“Listen up and listen carefully Riku because I’m only saying this once. As long as you live in my house you WILL obey me and your mother.” He said as he twisted his hand in Riku’s hair again almost making Riku scream in pain. Riku was tender headed anyway so the hair pulling was torture on Riku’s sensitive scalp. Riku’s foster father made Riku look at him again as Riku’s hands tried to pry the larger hand out of his hair.

“you will stop the drugs and you will stop the smoking. SORA will never be mentioned in this house again and if I ever see you with him I swear to God Riku I will do the world a favor and kill you with my own hands!” He shouted. Riku’s eyes brimmed with tears that his pride wouldn’t let fall. When his foster father let him go Riku took one look at his mother kneeling on the floor. This was all happening because of him. Riku’s mother was giving him a pleading look silently begging him not to do anything stupid.

Tears fell from his eyes as he looked at the woman apologetically. Riku glanced over at his foster father who seemed to be gloating hatred and anger filling Riku’s eyes. Riku made a break for the table quickly grabbing the bag of needles and the black bottle running out of the house as fast as he could. His mother darted after him calling his name but Riku didn’t hear her.

The pain Riku felt as he ran out of the house was indescribable. Not only was it the physical pain from his ribs but the emotional pain too. The drugs and the cigarettes didn’t bother him that much. He could give those up. But a life without Sora? Not being able to hang out with him? Or see his gorgeous smile? Riku shut his eyes falling to his knees once he was well away from his house. He didn’t care where he was anymore. Riku hugged himself breaking down into full-fledged tears.

Riku’s hear was breaking from the thought of never seeing Sora again. Riku was actually happy around Sora. He loved seeing the brunette smile and laugh. But Riku always knew those smiles were never just for him. Sora was a godsend, far too good for someone like Riku.

Riku needed a hit so badly he could taste the need. He fumbled around with the syringes tears streaming down his face. He quickly filled a syringe almost stabbing it in his arm when he had it filled. Riku cried out from his own rough treatment. He sniffed before pulling the needle from his arm and filling it again filling it completely full. He looked down as he injected more of the ink like liquid into his already bleeding arm.

Riku had no idea what he was doing now. All he knew was all the pain he was feeling was melting away….he couldn’t feel his heart breaking anymore. But what Riku didn’t expect was his heart would be racing and everything around him started spinning. Riku panted heavily before he promptly collapsed completely on the ground.

Not even 20 feet away from Riku Ansem appeared with a smug look on his face.

“Poor, Poor Riku. So depressed and hurt…I guess I forgot to mention my little drug for you will become deadly.” Ansem snickered. He knew how powerful the drug was. He created it! He knew Riku hadn’t taken enough of it to kill him though. After all Ansem didn’t want Riku dead. He just wanted him all to himself. Ansem started walking towards Riku. He stopped suddenly and scowled when he seen Sora and his mother walking down the street. Ansem melded into the shadows watching Sora intently.

~Sora’s POV~

One more day and this blasted, thrice damned sling came off. My arm was reduced to a dull ache now but my mother insisted on me wearing the sling the last day. I had had Riku on my mind since he was put in the hospital. My mother thought I was making myself sick with worry so she kind of made me go to the mall with her. I’ll admit I needed the fresh air.

My mom had bought me some clothes and hell she even got me a music CD I’ve been wanting for a while. We were just getting back from dinner and we were heading home. My mom was cool. I hold a lot of respect for her. You see I’m an only child. My dad left my mom when he found out she was pregnant with me. My mom became determined from what she said to raise me to be a good kid. My mom made a lot of sacrifices for me. So I try my best to pay her back by doing well at school, helping around the house and even keeping my room clean. Which wasn’t exactly the most fun thing in the world to do.

As we were walking I looked up seeing someone collapsed on the ground. For a moment I thought my mind was playing tricks on me and I thought It was Riku. I ran over to the person and I actually dropped what I was holding. It was Riku! I gasped and immediately dropped down to his side and started to shake him with my good arm.

“Riku! Riku!”I screamed as I shook him. I had never been so scared in my life. Riku’s already pale skin had paled even more making him look sickly. Riku groaned and barely opened his eyes. His eyes looglasglassy and he kept looking at me but it was as if he didn’t see me at all. My mom ran over in an instant. My mother was a nurse so she seen this kind of thing all the time. I had to do my best not to panic like an idiot.

My mom looked at Riku’s arms and frowned seeing that there was a small pool of blood in the inside of Riku’s left elbow. There were also blood smears and a small stream of a black liquid running down Riku’s arm. I narrowed my eyes as my mom looked at me.

“Oh god Sora, I think he’s taken so many drugs he’s dangerously close to overdosing.” she said as she lightly slapped his cheeks to keep Riku awake. I decided then that I had to help Riku. I couldn’t just let him lay there. After all he’s done for me I owed it to him. My mom grabbed the syringes and the black bottle taking it away from Riku.

“We have to help him mom!” I cried out. She looked at me and nodded. She helped me support Riku and with much difficulty we got Riku back to the house. As we were leaving I looked over my shoulder to see a pair of eerie orange eyes looking at me. I visibly shuddered completely freaked out before we started heading home. Riku was barely awake the entire walk. I don’t think I could have been more worried at that point.

~several hours later~

With a bit of effort my mom managed to get Riku out of the danger zone. She really didn’t think we should take him to the hospital. For one Riku was using a drug noone had ever seen before. So she thought that if they gave him something to counteract that that it may do more harm than good. Can’t say I blame her.

We had moved Riku to my bed. My mom was checking on him every 30 minutes and making him wake up making sure his eyes looked alright and there was no signs of him going into shock or anything like that. I watched Riku lying there in my bed. I almost lost him. I almost lost my best friend. What was driving him to do this? I was always under the impression that Riku’s life wasn’t that bad. Yeah he didn’t do great in school and he was a bit of a rebel but he had a side not many people seen of him. He was caring and sweet….wait did I just say sweet?! Maybe I’m more stressed than I thought. Sweet is what you say about a girlfriend or a boyfriend. Not your BEST friend.

I was jolted from my thoughts when the phone rang. My mom came up with the phone and mouthed Kairi. I took the phone and laid back. I loved Kairi…but I had a bad feeling about this phone call.

“Sora?” Kairi asked.

“yeah I’m here.” I said trying to hide the emotions in my voice.

“hey honey! I was wondering if you were still coming over tonight.”Kairi said with a cheerful tone in her voice. I sighed. I had completely forgot about going over to Kairi’s tonight. I felt bad about having to put her off but I couldn’t leave Riku like this.

“I’m sorry Kairi…somet’s c’s come up unexpectedly with Riku…”I started. I could tell Kairi was pissed because she went quiet.

“Oh…I see…you’d rather spend time with him than me!” Kairi said angrily. I blinked completely not expecting that one. Was I really that out of it?

“Kairi, I didn’t say that. Something happened with Riku and I won’t be able to come over tonight. I’m really sorry about that but I just can’t.” I said my voice sounding sincere. Which I was sincere.

“you know what Sora? Don’t worry about it anymore.”Kairi said her voice low. I frowned hearing that. My bad feeling had gotten significantly worse.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” I asked.

“I’m sick of being pushed off for Riku! He’s your friend but there has to be a limit! hichhich one?! Me or Riku?!” Kairi screamed in the phone. I blinked completely and utterly shocked. I was slowly starting to piece things together and I could feel my eyes burning with tears the more I thought about it. She was making me choose between her and Riku. What person could make that decision? To choose between two people you care about?

“Kairi, I love you. Please don’t do this. I really do love you. I can’t leave Riku tonight though. Something very bad has happened to him and he needs me.” I pleaded with her. I felt the knot in my stomach tighten even more.


“Whatever Sora. You’ve made your choice. I can’t take being second to someone who is nothing but trouble. Bye Sora.” Kairi said before her end of the phone hung up.

I stared at the phone taking deep breaths. I shut my eyes and hung up the cordless phone I was using. I curled up pulling my knees to my chest and buried my face in my hand. Well hasn’t this been a hell of a day. I couldn’t fight my emotions anymore and I broke down crying. I almost lost Riku and now I had lost Kairi. She might as well have pulled my heart out, smashed it in front of me with a hammer, and handed it back to me to put back in my chest. I didn’t know what the hell to do. I had so many emotions pulling at me from all different directions that I just buried my face and cried as hard as I could. Real manly of me I know crying like a baby. But the pain of almost losing Riku and the pain of Kairi breaking up with me both hit me at the same time. Damn when it rains it pours……


To be continued………