The Cuts That Pierce Your Skin
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Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
3
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2,769
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9
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The Cuts That Pierce Your Skin - Chapter 3
Ok last chapter! YaY! I bet you’re all happy it’s the last chapter, ne? Hee hee. Please R&R! Arigatou minna! *hugs to all* -^.^-
The Cuts That Pierce Your Skin
Moonlight shined down upon the bodies that rested on the bed. Legs and arms were entertwined together and around each other, keeping each other safe and warm in the chilly night. The brunet stirred slightly in his sleep before his beautiful crystal eyes opened to the sight of his best friend/lover's innocent face that was illuminated in the pale light of the moon. He smiled in happiness and laid his head back down on the firm chest beneath his. Sora's eyes trailed up his lover's body and he just stared at his face. Sora's eyes caught sight of something and as he turned his face towards the arm on his beloved's pillow, the azure crystals widened in horror. Cuts. Many many cuts sliced across the skin. As he sat up slowly and cautiously, his breath quickened and his heart sped up. He reached over and brushed his fingers over the arm, and he could tell, some of these were recent. Done last night. His eyes watered up and as a tear down his cheek and off his chin, it fell onto Riku's neck below, causing him to stir and turn over. Sora would have smiled but this was not a situation to smile.
Frantic, Sora shook Riku's shoulder, trying to wake him up. Wanting him to confirm that this was indeed a dream. That Riku hadn't come home last night and cut himself. No! Sora shook his head in denial and shook harder. A sea green eye opened in grogginess to give a sleep ridden glare to the one who was shaking him. Noticing how shook up his lover was, his eyes lost all sleepiness and he sat up in concern. What was the matter? He looked as if he had seen a ghost or something! I mean, seriously, what could have freaked him out so much? As he was about to question, Sora interrupted.
"Riku...why?" His voice sounded distressed. Riku wondered harder.
He raised an eyebrow in confusion, "Sora, what do you mean? What are you talking about?"
The boy in question glared and grabbed the silver haired boy's wrist and brought it infront of his face. "This is what I’m talking about! Why have you been doing this, Riku?!"
Sea green eyes widened in shock. He pulled his wrist away from the brunet's grip and hid them in the covers, staring at Sora with a sad and guilty expression mixed in his eyes.
"Sora, I...Its nothing..." He looked to the side, not able to bear the raw expression of pain and hurt in Sora's tear veiled eyes. Sora's hand grabbed his chin and he was, once again, forced to look into those eyes.
"Riku, please, tell me. I want to know why so many scars adorn your wrists. I want to know why you did it. Please, tell me."
The silver haired teen sighed a heavy sigh and pulled the covers closer to himself, as if now subconscious of how he looked. Sora took this moment of silence to roam his eyes over Riku's chest and abdomen, noticing for the first time how small he looked. He looked so pitiful just sitting there, lookingif hif he was a whipped dog that was about to get beaten again. Sora wanted to know why he looked like this. Was he not eating? Who had hurt him so much that he looked so defeated? With a sudden horrifying realization, Sora understood that, the one who had hurt him and made him look so broken, was him himself. Without knowing, he had caused so much pain and suffering to the one he loved without even being conscious to the fact of it. That made him sick. So intense was this emotional sickness that he wished to die. His head bowed in shame. He had afflicted so much agony upon his friend. How could he? Riku had been his friend and how did he repay him? A regretful whimper shoved its way past Sora's parted lips, slicing through the air like a knife.
Riku, upon hearing the distressed noise, looked up quickly, worry etched in his eyes. This only made Sora sob harder. His arms wrapped themselves around his own body, which was shaking and trembling under the emotional stress. How could Riku look at him like that when he had done so much worse over a longer period of time?! It made absolutely no God damn sense! Why? ...Why?
"Sora! What's wrong?"
Before Riku could touch him he heard a faint whisper. It was so quiet he barely heard it but he did and it made him confused.
"What are you sorry for, Sora? Your not making any sense!"
The brown headed teen looked up at him with tear streaked eyes. "I'm sorry, Riku! I didn't know! If I had've known I would have done something! I'm so dense and thick! My own best friend! And I didn't even take the time to see! GOD!!! I'M SO SORRY!!" The sobs got louder and Riku, in his own panicked state, drew the sobbing teen in his arms and held him tight, rubbing circles on his back hastily, trying desperately to get his friend to stop crying. It was so hard! Everything he did made him sardearder! Now Riku was crying out of distress.
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Neither of the teens knew when they had fallen asleep but they were equally glad that last night was over. Sora was quiet as they got dressed, but then again, so was Riku. You could slice the air with a knife, it was so tense. Riku cleared his throat and turned around to face Sora. Sora blinked his beautiful blue eyes up at Riku, nearly making the silver haired teen choke on what he was about to say. He sighed and turned his head away from the innocent azure orbs, slowly getting his resolve together.
“Sora...I’m...I’m sorry about last night. I should have at least told you or something...that way it would have been easier...easier on both of us.” Riku paused and ran a hand through his silver hair. “I didn’t know that you would react that way. I thought...well...I don’t know what I thought. Or what I was thinking. I’ve just gone crazy I suppose.” He looked back at Sora now, guilt in his eyes. Sora could see it. Sora could see other things as well, sadness being the main one. Riku continued. “I thought that you didn’t care about me anymore because every time I turned around, you were with Kairi. Even when we were together, it was never for long because you went off to go see her. That’s why I was so down the other day. Because I knew, just knew, that you only had eyes for her. And I knew you could never love me the way that I did you. Because its...I don’t know, sinful you could say, to be with another male. I never personally got it, but everyone else seems to shun it. You were so perfect, so nieve, so like an angel that you would be damned to hell with me. And I didn’t want that to happen. Because I loved you too much...it was just difficult to deal with, you know? Knowing that the one that you loved would and could find happiness in another. Knowing that they would be happy together no matter what. That’s why I cut myself. Because I felt so dirty. So dirty for loving you. Another boy.” Riku wrapped his arms around himself. “And I thought that the pain on my wrists could dull painpain in my heart. It hurt so much. But the night before last, I felt so horrible for hitting you. So bad for yelling at you. And the names that I called you. The things that I said...I cut myself out of guilt. And hatred of myself. Now I have tainted you, Sora. I had wanted it for so long and I wasn’t thinking. I should have told you to stop. Because now...” Tears fell from his eyes as he stared at the one who he loved so much. “You’re going to hell with me.” Riku fell to his knees sobbing, head bowed down, the tears glistening as they fell to the ground below.
Sora ran over to Riku and held him in his arms. “Riku...I don’t care if I’m going to heaven or hell or wherever. I don’t care. As long as I’m with you. That is all that matters.” Riku continued sobbing into his chest. “I never liked Kairi that way, it was just that, she liked me and I didn’t want her to think that I hated her because of that. I never thought about how you would feel. I never knew that you would cut yourself because of it. But Riku,” Sora pulled Riku’s tear stained face in front of his and wiped the tears away with his thumbs. “Who ever said that love was sinful? Who ever said that it was dirty? Riku, love is love, no matter who it hat hat loves. Love is heavenly. If it were sinful, everyone would be in hell. But it’s not. And we’re not going to hell either because we love each other. So feeling guilty because you love me is crazy. I don’t want to hear another word about the other night. We both screwed up so why remember it? I love you, Riku, and we’re both going to heaven because of it.” Sora then leaned down and gently placed his lips to Riku’s. Riku sniffled into the kiss and sighed a shaky sigh before he responded to the kiss.
The kiss was slow and magical, perfect in every way. And Riku knew that this kiss, this moment, and last night will be imprinted in his memory, until the day he dies and forever after that because Sora will always be beside him, reminding him of it all over again.
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Well here you go! It took me forever to finish, so please, if you have time, leave a comment. No flames on the pairing because I warned you at the beginning. I hope you liked it! Ja ne for now people!
~Quicksilver
The Cuts That Pierce Your Skin
Moonlight shined down upon the bodies that rested on the bed. Legs and arms were entertwined together and around each other, keeping each other safe and warm in the chilly night. The brunet stirred slightly in his sleep before his beautiful crystal eyes opened to the sight of his best friend/lover's innocent face that was illuminated in the pale light of the moon. He smiled in happiness and laid his head back down on the firm chest beneath his. Sora's eyes trailed up his lover's body and he just stared at his face. Sora's eyes caught sight of something and as he turned his face towards the arm on his beloved's pillow, the azure crystals widened in horror. Cuts. Many many cuts sliced across the skin. As he sat up slowly and cautiously, his breath quickened and his heart sped up. He reached over and brushed his fingers over the arm, and he could tell, some of these were recent. Done last night. His eyes watered up and as a tear down his cheek and off his chin, it fell onto Riku's neck below, causing him to stir and turn over. Sora would have smiled but this was not a situation to smile.
Frantic, Sora shook Riku's shoulder, trying to wake him up. Wanting him to confirm that this was indeed a dream. That Riku hadn't come home last night and cut himself. No! Sora shook his head in denial and shook harder. A sea green eye opened in grogginess to give a sleep ridden glare to the one who was shaking him. Noticing how shook up his lover was, his eyes lost all sleepiness and he sat up in concern. What was the matter? He looked as if he had seen a ghost or something! I mean, seriously, what could have freaked him out so much? As he was about to question, Sora interrupted.
"Riku...why?" His voice sounded distressed. Riku wondered harder.
He raised an eyebrow in confusion, "Sora, what do you mean? What are you talking about?"
The boy in question glared and grabbed the silver haired boy's wrist and brought it infront of his face. "This is what I’m talking about! Why have you been doing this, Riku?!"
Sea green eyes widened in shock. He pulled his wrist away from the brunet's grip and hid them in the covers, staring at Sora with a sad and guilty expression mixed in his eyes.
"Sora, I...Its nothing..." He looked to the side, not able to bear the raw expression of pain and hurt in Sora's tear veiled eyes. Sora's hand grabbed his chin and he was, once again, forced to look into those eyes.
"Riku, please, tell me. I want to know why so many scars adorn your wrists. I want to know why you did it. Please, tell me."
The silver haired teen sighed a heavy sigh and pulled the covers closer to himself, as if now subconscious of how he looked. Sora took this moment of silence to roam his eyes over Riku's chest and abdomen, noticing for the first time how small he looked. He looked so pitiful just sitting there, lookingif hif he was a whipped dog that was about to get beaten again. Sora wanted to know why he looked like this. Was he not eating? Who had hurt him so much that he looked so defeated? With a sudden horrifying realization, Sora understood that, the one who had hurt him and made him look so broken, was him himself. Without knowing, he had caused so much pain and suffering to the one he loved without even being conscious to the fact of it. That made him sick. So intense was this emotional sickness that he wished to die. His head bowed in shame. He had afflicted so much agony upon his friend. How could he? Riku had been his friend and how did he repay him? A regretful whimper shoved its way past Sora's parted lips, slicing through the air like a knife.
Riku, upon hearing the distressed noise, looked up quickly, worry etched in his eyes. This only made Sora sob harder. His arms wrapped themselves around his own body, which was shaking and trembling under the emotional stress. How could Riku look at him like that when he had done so much worse over a longer period of time?! It made absolutely no God damn sense! Why? ...Why?
"Sora! What's wrong?"
Before Riku could touch him he heard a faint whisper. It was so quiet he barely heard it but he did and it made him confused.
"What are you sorry for, Sora? Your not making any sense!"
The brown headed teen looked up at him with tear streaked eyes. "I'm sorry, Riku! I didn't know! If I had've known I would have done something! I'm so dense and thick! My own best friend! And I didn't even take the time to see! GOD!!! I'M SO SORRY!!" The sobs got louder and Riku, in his own panicked state, drew the sobbing teen in his arms and held him tight, rubbing circles on his back hastily, trying desperately to get his friend to stop crying. It was so hard! Everything he did made him sardearder! Now Riku was crying out of distress.
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Neither of the teens knew when they had fallen asleep but they were equally glad that last night was over. Sora was quiet as they got dressed, but then again, so was Riku. You could slice the air with a knife, it was so tense. Riku cleared his throat and turned around to face Sora. Sora blinked his beautiful blue eyes up at Riku, nearly making the silver haired teen choke on what he was about to say. He sighed and turned his head away from the innocent azure orbs, slowly getting his resolve together.
“Sora...I’m...I’m sorry about last night. I should have at least told you or something...that way it would have been easier...easier on both of us.” Riku paused and ran a hand through his silver hair. “I didn’t know that you would react that way. I thought...well...I don’t know what I thought. Or what I was thinking. I’ve just gone crazy I suppose.” He looked back at Sora now, guilt in his eyes. Sora could see it. Sora could see other things as well, sadness being the main one. Riku continued. “I thought that you didn’t care about me anymore because every time I turned around, you were with Kairi. Even when we were together, it was never for long because you went off to go see her. That’s why I was so down the other day. Because I knew, just knew, that you only had eyes for her. And I knew you could never love me the way that I did you. Because its...I don’t know, sinful you could say, to be with another male. I never personally got it, but everyone else seems to shun it. You were so perfect, so nieve, so like an angel that you would be damned to hell with me. And I didn’t want that to happen. Because I loved you too much...it was just difficult to deal with, you know? Knowing that the one that you loved would and could find happiness in another. Knowing that they would be happy together no matter what. That’s why I cut myself. Because I felt so dirty. So dirty for loving you. Another boy.” Riku wrapped his arms around himself. “And I thought that the pain on my wrists could dull painpain in my heart. It hurt so much. But the night before last, I felt so horrible for hitting you. So bad for yelling at you. And the names that I called you. The things that I said...I cut myself out of guilt. And hatred of myself. Now I have tainted you, Sora. I had wanted it for so long and I wasn’t thinking. I should have told you to stop. Because now...” Tears fell from his eyes as he stared at the one who he loved so much. “You’re going to hell with me.” Riku fell to his knees sobbing, head bowed down, the tears glistening as they fell to the ground below.
Sora ran over to Riku and held him in his arms. “Riku...I don’t care if I’m going to heaven or hell or wherever. I don’t care. As long as I’m with you. That is all that matters.” Riku continued sobbing into his chest. “I never liked Kairi that way, it was just that, she liked me and I didn’t want her to think that I hated her because of that. I never thought about how you would feel. I never knew that you would cut yourself because of it. But Riku,” Sora pulled Riku’s tear stained face in front of his and wiped the tears away with his thumbs. “Who ever said that love was sinful? Who ever said that it was dirty? Riku, love is love, no matter who it hat hat loves. Love is heavenly. If it were sinful, everyone would be in hell. But it’s not. And we’re not going to hell either because we love each other. So feeling guilty because you love me is crazy. I don’t want to hear another word about the other night. We both screwed up so why remember it? I love you, Riku, and we’re both going to heaven because of it.” Sora then leaned down and gently placed his lips to Riku’s. Riku sniffled into the kiss and sighed a shaky sigh before he responded to the kiss.
The kiss was slow and magical, perfect in every way. And Riku knew that this kiss, this moment, and last night will be imprinted in his memory, until the day he dies and forever after that because Sora will always be beside him, reminding him of it all over again.
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Well here you go! It took me forever to finish, so please, if you have time, leave a comment. No flames on the pairing because I warned you at the beginning. I hope you liked it! Ja ne for now people!
~Quicksilver