Accidental Infatuation

Accidental Infatuation
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Chapter Twenty Six
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I’m not sure why I am so nervous right now. I know that Riku and I have never done anything truly physical before and I sure as heck have no experience from before arriving at the clinic, but I never would have expected to be this nervous at the thought of heading to my room with that sole intention. I know that if I had been able to feel them right now, I would be weak in the knees. Due to my nervousness, I am feeling flush, a little nauseous and my head is swimming. It’s amazing how much these feelings feel like the flu. My thoughts are not coming out straight and nothing I am thinking makes the least bit of sense. I am so glad that Riku is behind me pushing my chair or who knows where I might have ended up otherwise due to my distraction.

I don’t try to make any conversation, knowing that if Riku’s mind is racing even half as much as mine, he is going to need to count his steps even more carefully than normal. That and the fact that I don’t think that anything I say will be even the least bit coherent. I wonder if Riku is nearly as nervous as I am. As far as I know, he is just as experienced as I am which could prove to be interesting today. For only the briefest moments, I wish that this was one of the areas that Roxy and I were more alike in, but that thought leaves me just as fast as it came. After all, with our mutual lack of experience it means that Riku and I get to experience all of this for the first time together.

Without a word, I lift my hand up to reach up behind me, placing it on Riku’s, our fingers instantly entwining. For only a moment we pause in the middle of the hallway as Riku looks down at me with a small smile which I eagerly return. “You sure you really want to do this?” I whisper, wincing at the cracking of my voice. What a way to try and appear confident and attractive to your boyfriend. Have you voice crack and make it seem like you are going through puberty all over again. Maybe if I am going to go through puberty again I can hope that I will actually have a growth spurt this time.

I receive a light chuckle from my boyfriend, the sound sending strange waves up and down along my spine. Holy crap. Everything about him is just arousing and sexy. “I’m sure. What about you? Do you still want to?”

His words only make my blush intensify. Obviously he is just as concerned about my thoughts on this as his own, and that makes my heart swell even more. What did I do to deserve such an amazing and caring boyfriend? I couldn’t have gotten anyone better if I had a catalogue and hand picked him myself. “I do,” I whisper, wondering if my voice is coming across smooth enough. “Is it normal to feel this nervous?”

Riku laughs again before leaning down and placing a kiss on my forehead. “I think so. Do what do you say we get out of the middle of the hall and get to a room with a lock on it?”

This time it is my turn to laugh and laugh I do at the truth of his words. The fates or some higher power seems to have something against us because it seems that every time Riku and I get even the slightest amount of privacy or begin to do anything at all, we end up getting interrupted by someone. I think that everyone in the clinic has walked in on us at least once, including Dr. Vexen, Lexaeus and Xigbar. That had definitely been the worse. Even though that had happened a week ago, the one eyed man has been relentless in teasing us and telling us that if he has his way, we will never get to see each other’s cocks if he has a say. His words not mine. He is such a bastard and is so close to losing his other eye. Then again, it might not be as bad as the time when Dr. Vexen came to find Riku one day when we locked ourselves in his room for some privacy. When we never answered the door, he used his override key to get into the room, finding me and Riku in a position we wish he hadn’t seen. That is definitely up there on the total embarrassment scale. The worse part about of that one was when Dr. Vexen walked out, muttering something about if he was running a rehab clinic or a gay dating service. Wisely, neither Riku nor I chose to answer that.

Shaking my head to focus on the situation at hand, I smile up at my boyfriend while rubbing my thumb over the back of his hand. “Yeah, let’s go.” It makes me slightly less concerned to learn that Riku is just as nervous as I am about this. With a little more urgency in his steps, I once again find myself being pushed forward in the direction of my room. It’s easy to tell that Riku is apprehensive about today as for the first time in a long time; I have to whisper quiet directions to my room and warn my boyfriend about things like walls and corners. We let out light chuckles about all of it after what seems like an eternity, we finally come to my room, the hallways around us completely deserted. Good.

“So, you’re sure that Axel and Roxas are occupied?” Riku whispers as we enter my room and he closes the door, locking it instantly. I blush even deeper at that particular action.

Nodding, I wheel myself over to my bed before turning around to face my boyfriend, waiting for him to come and lift me out of my chair. “Yeah, and as far as I can tell, they’ll be going at it for a little while longer.” Strange, talking about my twin having sex isn’t as creepy as usual right now for some reason. “What about Dr. Vexen? Is he going to be looking for you this afternoon?”

Riku shakes his head as he reaches out and I take a hold of his hand, guiding him over to me, even though we both know he doesn’t need it. “No, he said that he’s done for me for the day. You said that Naminé is with Lex, which is still kind of weird to think about by the way, and Demyx was going to find Kairi. Xigbar has probably returned for his post break, pre-dinner nap, so I think that we might be in the clear.” I can’t help but laugh at the mental checklist, but I am as relieved as Riku is about figuring out where everyone is. If you had been interrupted as much as we have been, you’d feel the same though. Then again, it was sort of how we started our relationship, with Axel barging in and disrupting our first kiss.

“I think so too,” I smile, wrapping my arms around his waist, laying my head against his stomach, inhaling deeply to take in as much of the sharp scent as I possibly can. Every little thing is obvious to my senses as I feel my boyfriend drape his arms over my shoulders, his warm hands flat on my shoulder blades, pushing me close to him. Being this close to my boyfriend I can feel the quivers that are causing him to shake just as much as I can. In some ways I am truly glad that Riku is as nervous as I am. For some reason, I had pictured that he would have either been like a sex kitten or an over confident bedroom god, making me feel slightly inadequate.

Silence envelopes us for an eternity, both of us just remaining in our positions and holding each other. Eventually I feel the fingers again my shoulders begin to rub in small circles until they start to move upwards. As soon as Riku’s thin fingers brush along the back of my neck, I can’t help but gasp in surprise. Even after all these months together, I’m still not sure if Riku is aware of how sensitive the back of my neck is. Sure he’s touched it before and given me neck rubs, but never when I was this on edge. This afternoon could really turn out interesting. I bury my face into the loose material of my boyfriend’s white shirt, my nose brushing against his firm stomach, causing him to let out a gasp of his own.

We both let out nervous laughs at how high strung we are, and just how obvious that fact is. I don’t know why we are both feeling this way though. It’s not like the want and desire to do this wasn’t there before, we just always got interrupted before anything really happens. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that this was planned and not just a spontaneous thing. Lifting his arms up off of my shoulders, Riku places one hand alongside of my cheek, the tip of his fingers instantly going to trace along the raised scar that is still hidden beneath my hair. I don’t know what it is, but my boyfriend’s fingers are always drawn to it like a magnet. I lean into the touch as I look up at him, searching his sightless aqua eyes for any sign of hesitation or regret, thankfully finding neither.

“Why don’t we lie down? That might make things easier for us,” he whispers and I have to supress a smile at the sound of the trembling voice coming from my normally cool, calm and collected boyfriend. After all, with his hand right there, he will be able to feel any smile of mine.

Hoping that he doesn’t notice how warm my cheeks have become suddenly, I finally give him a tiny smile. “Yeah, let’s do that,” I reply, my voice no louder than his. We both go quiet again as we work together to lift me up onto the bed. Much to my surprise though, as soon as I am stretched out on the bed, Riku doesn’t join me right away. Instead, he continues standing next to the bed so I remain close to the edge of the bed so that I am still close to him. “Riku?”

“I just want to try something,” he whispers, causing me to raise an eyebrow. With just a small sound of understanding, I sit up the barest amount, using my elbows to watch Riku do whatever he is planning to do. He walks down to the foot of my bed, a light touch along the edge of the mattress guiding him. He comes to a stop next to my feet and I can’t help but raise my eyebrow in a silent question. I don’t voice my curiosity, allowing him to continue on. His pale hands reach out, grabbing a hold of one of my grey and red sneakers. I squeak in surprise as my shoe is pulled off and dropped to the floor, the other following close behind. I feel myself shiver as I see his long fingers wrap around one of my still socked foot. Although I can’t really feel the action, my memory supplies me with a reminder of how a foot rub felt before everything and I can’t help the flutter that churns through my stomach.

Unable to tear my eyes away from him, I just can continue to stare as I see Riku running his fingers along and up my inner thigh. I would give almost anything for all feeling to be returned to me at this particular moment. I let out a shaky gasp as he comes up over the cuff of my denim shorts, his fingers stopping there for a moment to trace around my knee cap. I feel my body begin to tremble once again, and judging by the light chuckle that escapes from Riku, he’s noticed it. “Just relax, Sor. Everything will be okay.” Suddenly there is a little more strength to his words and that crosses over to his actions, his questing hand becoming slightly more adventurous. Once again it is moving up along the inside of my thigh, but it’s moving up further and further, closer to…

“Riku!” I cry out as quietly as I can manage. My hands have gone to grip tightly on the quilt i am laying on. There is a strange sensation pooling in the very bottom of my stomach, and it’s something that I have never felt before. As much as I want to close them, I force my eyes to remain open and fixated on my boyfriend’s movements. Much to my surprise though, he stops before touching the single place I want to be touched.

Toeing off his own shoes, I watch intently as Riku removes his hand from my body before he crawls up the inside of my bed to lie beside me, the warmth just radiating off of him. “I love you,” he whispers, placing a hand across my body so that it lies on my opposite hip.

“I love you too,” I respond with a blush. Instantly I watch his hand slide off of my pelvis to rest on my stomach, moving lower and lower inch by inch. By the time that that the hand rests only inches from where I want it, I’m breathing so rapidly and deeply that it almost feels like I’m going to throw up. I take in the deepest breath I can manage, praying that I don’t send myself into a panic attack. I can feel his sightless eyes fixated on my face as I brace for what is about to happen.

“May I?” his husky voice asks, causing my heart to swell. I can’t believe how considerate he is being even though I know how horny he must be.

Unable to contain my trembling, I nod before realizing that he won’t be able to see it, “Yes.” I give him the quiet one word answer, the anticipation just about killing me.

Before I see his hand move down any further, Riku begins speaking and I have to force myself into paying attention to his words. Why is he teasing and torturing me like this? “Have you regained any of the sensation down here, or did you ever lose it?”

It takes me a moment for my brain to comprehend anything that isn’t Riku’s hand finally touching me, but I eventually realized what he is asking. “Um, I never lost use of my…you know,” I whisper, the embarrassment hitting me like a ton of bricks for some reason, “but I can’t really feel it, things just kind of happen when and how they are supposed to.”

A breathy chuckle escapes him as he begins to move his fingers in a small pattern on my pelvis. What is it going to take to get him to touch me where I want it?! “So, do you still get hard?”

I just about whimper in embarrassment. How can he be asking me things like this right now? Isn’t his mind as far gone as mine? Then again, in the split second I take to analyze his question, it does kind of make sense. After all, the purpose of today other than the obvious is to experiment with some things. That will probably require me to be physically aroused. “I’m…I’m not sure,” I whisper truthfully. I resist the urge to bury my face in the pillows and ignore Riku. After all, I’m 16 years old, have a really hot boyfriend and regularly have less than innocent fantasies about him. I should know this kind of stuff, but honestly, I haven’t had any desire since my accident to do much more than fantasize. I know that I do feel aroused sometimes, mostly in the bottom of my stomach but I’ve never actually noticed my physical reaction.

Much to my surprise, Riku only smiles that gentle smile of his before he leans in and places a soft and chaste kiss on my lips. “Well, this is as good a time as any to find out isn’t it?”

I blush deeply once again at the soft words before once again whispering my permission for his actions. I can still feel his fingers as they dance over my pelvis before they continued to move lower once again. This time he doesn’t stop and I hiss as his hand travels below my line of sensation as he touches my inner thighs. “Please…” I whimper, surprising even myself. My eyes go wide when I say the word, especially the wanton tone it comes out in. I hope I don’t sound nearly as desperate as I think I do.

The only response I get from my boyfriend is another of his light chuckles as I keep my eyes locked on his slender hand. It is now tracing the entire area around the base of my groin, something that I can only feel briefly each time the fingers brush along the top of the area he is touching. As if he knows exactly what I am watching, Riku gives me another seductive smile before he lifts his hand off of my body completely. An irritated moan erupts from me once more. I had no idea that Riku was such a tease! He will definitely be paying for that later on. Before I can protest any more, my eyes go wide as I watch my boyfriend gently press his palm again the obvious outline of my penis through my not so heavy shorts. I am almost disappointed when I can’t feel anything, but I had sort of expected it. Thought there is a slight sensation fluttering in the pit of my stomach that I have never felt before.

“Tell me what you’re feeling right now.” The fluttering blazes to life at Riku’s airy words, and I can feel a shiver travelling up the length of my back at the sound of his voice.

In an attempt to enhance everything even more, I finally allow my eyes to slide closed as I try to regulate the jagged breaths that I feel escaping me. All around me is a heavy scent of something that I can only identify as being Riku. All of my senses are on high alert as I try to focus on that one particular area. “It feels like my insides are all catching fire,” I say, my voice quiet yet surprisingly strong. I would have thought it would have been shakier than ever before.

“Keep going,” there is a gravelly quality to my boyfriend’s voice, something that I would have never expected. Then again, with all of the confidence he is usually encompassed in, I find myself forgetting that he is just as new to all this as I am.

I swallow hard as I try to put into words the emotions and sensations that are all washing over me. “My heart is racing. It’s warm, so warm. It’s all burning up from where your hand is and it feel s likes thousands of butterflies are dancing around in my stomach. My arms and neck are tingling.” This time there is a slightly more airy tone to my voice as I do no justice to the feelings flooding my body with my lackluster descriptions.

This time it is Riku’s turn to let out a quiet moan as I finally pry my eyes open. His alabaster cheeks are completely flushed, which is an almost strange sight to behold. I feel my eyes widen once again as I watch my boyfriend’s hand begin to move up and down along the crotch of my shorts. Oh my god. I can’t believe this is actually happening. “Riku…” I trail off as I feel an odd pulling sensation in the bottom of my stomach.

Leaning in, Riku places another chaste kiss against my dry lips before kissing my temple. “Well, even if you can’t feel it, you’re definitely getting hard.”

Those words cause me to try and sit up for closer inspection, but Riku’s free hand on my chest prevents that. “R…Really?” I whisper shakily, reaching my own hand up to wrap around the back of his neck.

“Yeah, and I have to say, you look absolutely amazing right now.” His words cause me to raise my eyebrow in confusion before I flush with even more embarrassment. Of course. Riku sees things by touching them, so in reality, he is seeing me like this. That thought makes me squeak in surprise, arousal and nervousness. Before my breathing gets out of control, I feel those butterflies come to life once more, that odd pulling sensation becoming stronger and stronger.

“Sora…” he whispers as I look up into his hypnotizing eyes, loving how the pupils dart back and forth. My breath hitches when I get another strong wave of the pulling butterflies, before i hum to let Riku know that I heard him. “Do you want to…?”

As his words trail off, Riku takes my hand with his unoccupied one, moving it down to rest on his pelvis in a ghostly echo of where his hand had been on my body such a short time ago. My hand is shaking and I know that my boyfriend can feel it. How can he not? As soon as my fingers beginning their nervous decent, I suddenly stop. “Wait,” I say, causing Riku’s hand to jump off my body as if it burned him. I see the confusion on his features as I let out a single breathless chuckle. Oddly enough though, as soon as his hand left my body, those butterflies calmed right down. Not wanting to leave Riku confused for too long, I continue, “Can you help me roll over to face you? It might make this go a little easier.”

A sigh of relief and a nervous laugh escape him as he nods. It takes only a few seconds, but soon we are lying face to face on the bed. For some reason, this position is that much more alluring to me than the others. It gives me a good opportunity to look at my boyfriend, my eyes automatically going down to look at his own shorts, sighing in relief when his own long black shorts have a good sized bulge in them as well. I am so glad to see that. I had been slightly worried because Riku had never really considered being with another guy before he met me, he wouldn’t be turned out once he started to physically touch other male body, especially an aroused one. I know that it might seem a little paranoid, but I can’t really help it. I’m a worrier. Instantly one of Riku’s hands goes to rest under my neck between it and the pillows, while the other goes back to resting on the front of my pants again, the butterflies coming back instantly. I gasp at the sensation, placing my hand on his hip for support.

“Sora…” he breathes out, his eyes sliding closed as his face contorts in what I assume is pleasure. “Can you please?”

I gulp heavily at the implication, slightly unsure that I am completely ready for this yet. Seeing the content expression on my boyfriend’s face however is enough to convince me otherwise. “Al…alright,” I whisper. My hand is shaking out of control as I slide it down along the thick denim. Moments before I come in contact with the heat that I feel radiating from the bulge, I suddenly begin to move my hand upwards. Not out of nerves, but for another reason all together. A disappointed groan sounds from Riku and it is all I can do not to grin. “Can i…r-r-reach ins-si-side?” At least I’m only stuttering now and my voice isn’t still cracking I guess.

A breathy chuckle replaces the groan as he leans forward to place his lips against my sweat slickened brow. “Only if I can return the favour, love.”

I stiffen suddenly at the request, flushing deeply when I realize what that means. Then again, there is no reason to say no. I love Riku and trust him, and if I want to feel him, I can’t really deny him that same pleasure. “Alright, I say with surprising clarity. From there things become a slight blur. I know that I can feel denim and a little bit of metal under my fingers, but I don’t recall any of the finer details or things like that. The next thing I know, I have to stifle a gasp of pleasure as I see Riku’s long erection poking out from the hole in his boxers and through the open fly of his pants. Oh god, he’s huge. Absolutely amazing. Suddenly my confidence increases as my hand reaches down and fingers wrap loosely around the stiff length. It astounds me just how hot his penis is in my hold, as well as just how hard he is.
When I feel the butterflies flare up once more, I know that he is mimicking my movements without looking down. Well, there is no sense just laying here like this. I know that this isn’t exactly rocket science, so I gently begin to rub my hand up and down along the shaft, loving how the weight feels against my closed palm. All the heat in my stomach has started to flow downwards once again; I know that Riku is inflicting the same sort of movements on my own erection. Oh god, I can’t believe that this is actually happening. Recalling the single piece of advice that I have gotten in the past about this moment, I just do things that I know that I like. I create a tight tunnel around the base of his cock, pumping upwards and making sure that I squeeze the head a little tighter. My heart is pounding relentlessly against my ribcage as I stroke Riku at a steady pace.

A loud groan is my first indication that Riku is enjoying this as his body begins to rock his entire body towards me, timing his movements to coincide with our pumping. The sensations in the pit of my stomach have turned into little explosions, bursting with heat every time my thumb runs over the swollen head of his cock. I can only assume that he is doing exactly the same things to my body. It is my turn to breathe out in pleasure as the pulling in my stomach has only gotten more intense. Feeling all of that causes me to increase the pace of my pumping, loving the way that his thick length fits so well in my hand.

“God, Sora,” he moans out, his pale cheeks so red, a stark contrast the silvery hair and white shirt he is still wearing. “Soon…”

I catch the meaning of his words easily, my breath hitching as Riku thrusts forward so hard that my hand is knocking into Riku’s, the pace of our pumping never stopping or slowing down. For some reason, feeling my boyfriend’s hand move along with mine in a fierce rhythm makes everything I am feeling increasing exponentially. Everyone of my nerve endings are on fire and on high alert, and every single thing that I touch sends another wave of pleasure coursing through my body, the waves all collecting in that pit until they are a huge mess.

“Me too…”I gasp. The feeling of the back of Riku’s hand brushing against mine is amazing and it helps me imagine exactly what it’s happening right now. I easily can imagine the callouses that I know are on Riku’s hands, and fantasizing just how they would feel as they run up and down along my length brings me tantalizingly close to my edge.

With no warning, Riku slams his lips against mine, his tongue forcing its way into my mouth, engaging me into an intensely passionate kiss. It’s sloppy and loud, neither of us caring about that at this point. All we are concerned with is the peak that is drawing ever closer. Breaking away from the kiss, a string of expletives is the only warning I get as Riku’s entire body suddenly goes rigid and with only a single twitch, his cock suddenly begins to spurt out hot white cum. He forces a few last thrusts into my hand as he rides his orgasm out, groaning each time I squeeze his over sensitive length.

And overwhelming heat suddenly envelops my entire torso, all of it radiating from that single pit which now feels as if it completely on fire. I gasp desperately for air as the sensation takes a hold of my subconscious, refusing to let go. My eyes go wide when I feel an additional heat splattering across the back of my hand, mixing with the cum that has dribbled down from Riku’s orgasm. Looking down, I am completely surprised to see my own erection pulsating and shooting out its own ribbons of semen, some landing on my bright red t-shirt.

My hand drops from my boyfriend’s softening length as I attempt to regain control of my breathing, swallowing in mouthful after mouthful of air. It seems like an eternity before either of us move, Riku being the first to do so, pulling me close and wrapping his arms around me, refusing to let go. He also doesn’t let either of us clean off our hands, obviously having no desire to move any further.

“That was amazing, thank you,” he pants with a soft smile that I can’t help return. I realize that this is as far as we are going to go today, and that is just fine with both of us. After all, it was pretty intense, we are both feeling slightly exhausted from it, and it was our first time doing anything like this together.

“Thank you too,” I answer, “You were incredible too.”

Riku smiles gently, pressing another chaste kiss on my lips that is interrupted by a yawn, causing both of us to chuckle. Before all of the laughter is out of my lungs, I yawn as well.

“Why don’t we take advantage of this tiredness and time alone to take a quick nap?” he whispered, nuzzling his face into my neck. Apparently Riku is a post sexual cuddler. I think I like that. I wrap my arms around him as well, wincing slightly at the thought of our mixed ejaculate on both our hands and dripping off our softening lengths onto the sheets below us. At some point the quilt had gotten pushed down to our knees, something I am silently thankful for. After all, it’s easier to clean the sheets then the quilt, as I know from Roxy’s experience.

“Yeah, I think I’d like that,” I smile, my words punctuated by yet another yawn.

“I love you,” whispers Riku, his eyes already closed as he presses a kiss to the tip of my nose, causing me to laugh lightly.

“Love you too.” For once, it seems that everything is going perfectly I can only hope that things stay that way. I have come to realize that I need the happiness Riku gives me, and I know he needs me to stave off depression for him. We need each other probably more than we will ever know. That is the last thought that runs through my head as I close my eyes, falling asleep almost instantly.

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Whoot, they didn’t get interrupted for once! So, that was a little more difficult than I thought it was going to be to write. I honestly wasn’t sure how it was going to turn out as it was my first time in several years writing a scene like this from the first person perspective, not to mention one with such a challenge like Sora’s disability. I hope that I was able to capture it and convey it the best I could.

I am sorry that it took me a while longer than planned to get this story out, but as people have probably noticed, I have definitely been pumping out the oneshots lately. Not sure what’s up with that, lol. Not to mention that my computer decided that it was finished with working and died on me, making me have to go buy a new one, which in the long run is definitely a good thing. I am planning on getting at least another chapter of this out before the end of the year, and depending on the craziness that can be called my work schedule and over all busy-ness of life, maybe even two! Let’s keep our fingers crossed!

As always, thank you so much to everyone for your constant support! To my Pahoyhoy, I love you so much! Before you know it, it will be spring and you know what all that will bring :D I hope everyone liked this chapter and I’m really hoping to have the next chapter out in about a month, but we can hope it is out faster. Until next time!