Accidental Infatuation

Accidental Infatuation
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Chapter Twenty Four


Authors Notes: First and foremost, I’m not going to make excuses for the insane lateness of this chapter, I really am sorry though. I do however want to give a long over due shout out to little-caitlin and the absolutely amazing fanart she made for this story. Please go over to her profile and stalk it and give it some love!

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As always, just take away the spaces. On to the fic now!

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“Aw, come on you guys!” Axel whines, flailing his arms dramatically.

“No!” Roxy and I exclaim in unison for what seems to be the millionth time this afternoon.

“But I’m telling the truth!” Unfortunately for us, my brother’s boyfriend is as stubborn as an ass and doesn’t seem to want to let it go. Kairi sitting there giggling like a fool doesn’t exactly help matters much either.

I let out a sigh as Roxy reaches up and rubs his forehead with the palm of his hand. “Not going to happen,” We tell him once again in unison with force behind the words.

“Kai, you’ll back me up, right?” Axel looks over at his fellow redhead with wide green eyes, pleading for her support.

“Sorry, Axel,” Kairi grins, “I’m a twin too, so I can’t really agree.”

“Not fair,” scowls the male redhead, “I’m serious. In some cultures, twins are married to one another because it is thought that they had sex when they were in the womb. That totally makes twincest okay and not gross.”

I laugh lightly at Axel’s determination, but still refuse to give in to him. “Give it up, Axel. Nothing you say is ever going to persuade Roxy and I to make out or have sex with each other for your viewing pleasure.”

“Not even a lifetime supply of sea salt ice cream?” Axel counters with a smirk.

“No!” I exclaim with a laugh, looking over at my twin who has an oddly pensive look on his face, and doesn’t look to be agreeing with me. “Roxy?”

“I’m just thinking, alright? What harm can one kiss be?” he says, and I am slightly worried about my twin’s train of thoughts. Damn Axel for using Roxas’ only weakness against him!

Before we can continue the argument, a loud cry of Kairi’s name causes all of us to look over at the path from our positions on the spread blanket. It was a nice crisp autumn day, so after all of our tutoring and sessions, we decided to meet out here. To my disappointment, the only one who would not be joining us would be Riku. Lately, I think that he might be slightly depressed. Nothing that anyone else has noticed, but I have. Ever since Sephiroth has been put on suspension, my boyfriend has been slightly different. Maybe it has to do with the fact that even though he has been able to enter his apartment with out fear and has been sleeping in his own bed again, he seems to be getting even less sleep than before. Unfortunately, it has also caused him to have migraines again, nothing like that day in the pool, but they still make me worry about him. I wish that there was something I could do to help, but all I can do is offer my support and my shoulder to him, along with my ear to listen.

Brought out of my thoughts by a surprising sight, I feel my eyes go wide when I do a double take to ensure that I am seeing what I think I’m seeing. “Nami?” I whisper, my voice echoed by my twin’s.

Down the path comes the grinning blonde, Sephiroth’s replacement therapist following close behind her. But it is the way that she is coming towards us that has us all astounded. Her empty wheelchair is being pushed behind her, while Naminé herself is upright, walking on her own with the help of a walker.

“Hey, Peach! Look what Fuzz felt up to today!” Xigbar calls out, the smirk that we have all grown accustom to over the last couple of weeks plastered on his face. Despite the fact that he is brash, an asshole, a slight pervert and refuses to call any of us by our real names, Xigbar is a good guy with a great knack for helping all of our recoveries along. Though the nicknames I could do without. Some of them don’t make much sense; I don’t think I even want to know how he got Peach for Kairi and Fuzz for Naminé.

“Oh my goodness! Axel! Get me into my chair!” Kairi exclaims with a light in her bright blue eyes as she reaches out to Axel from her position on the blanket.

“What am I, a slave boy?” Axel says, rolling his eyes and not moving at all.

Roxy develops a smirk on his face as he turns to look at his boyfriend, “Hey, Ax. Do it and I promise I’ll wear those lacy panties you wanted me to wear.”

Like a trained dog, Axel jumps up and gathers Kairi into his arms and deposits her into her wheelchair with no effort as the redhead girl squeals at the sudden movement. Naminé just giggles as Kairi rushes up to her and they begin in on a nice sisterly moment.

“Yo, Flamesilocks,” Xigbar begins to walk over to the three of us still on the blanket, and it is kind of funny to watch Axel roll his eyes at the man’s approach. Xigbar sees this somehow and it causes his scarred face to widen with an even larger smirk. Somehow, though none of us is quite sure exactly how, Xigbar was in an accident that left several long scars over his face as well as through his right eye. Now he wears an eye patch over that eye, but every time someone asks what happened, he tells us a different story.

“What do you want, cretin?” Axel asks in a bored tone as he goes back over to next to Roxy, one arm draping over Roxy’s shoulder.

“There is another Flamesilocks at reception looking for you. For some reason, he’s claiming that he is your brother or some other shit like that, though why he’d admit to being related to you, I have no idea.” The smirk never leaves the man’s lips as he stand right in front of the three of us.

Cocking one eyebrow, Axel looks up at Xigbar, trying to figure out if the dark haired man is lying or playing a prank on him. It wouldn’t be the first time. “What the hell is Reno doing here?” Axel mutters, standing up after pressing a soft kiss to Roxy’s temple, “I’ll be back in a bit.”

After we both say our goodbyes to the redhead, Roxy and I both realize that Xigbar is still standing right beside us. Crap. This can not be good.

“Alright, Tiger. Reach up and grab my hand,” the dark haired man says, holding one arm about a foot above my brother’s head. How he came up with Tiger for twin is as much of a mystery to me as how he got Kairi and Naminé’s names. At least all of them are better than mine…

With a small smirk, Roxas lifts his good arm up and easily is able to touch the one eyed bastard’s arm. “Like hell I am going to grab your hand. I have no idea where it might have been.”

Letting out a loud laugh, Xigbar fists his hand and bops my brother on the top of his head. “Hey, my hands are a hell of a lot cleaner than yours. After all, you’re the one always touching that pedo you call a boyfriend. Now, stop being such a smart little fucker and use the right arm this time, or Flamesilocks will be jacking off alone from now on.”

I try not to chuckle at the expression on my twin’s face as he finally decides to listen to the rehabilitation specialist and slowly lifts his still healing arm out of its sling. For some reason, I unconsciously take in and hold a breath as I watch his entire arm tremble when he begins to reach it upwards. I see a slight look of pain ghosting over his face as his hand makes it above his head, shaking uncontrollably.

“Come on, Tiger. Just a little further, you can do it,” Xigbar tells him in an encouraging voice as only a few inches remain between Roxy’s fingers and the extended forearm above him.

“You’re doing great, Roxy,” I whisper, knowing that he still hasn’t been able to actually reach that arm yet. I feel my own shoulder throb in an echo of the pain he must be feeling, but I try and dampen it with care and support, hoping that Roxy is able to feel that from me as well.

I gasp as Xigbar’s smile widens as the tips of Roxy’s fingers finally touch the arm. There is a hard determination in my twin’s eyes now as his breaths come rapidly before he gives it one final push, grabbing on to the one eyed man’s arm tightly. As soon as he realizes that he’s actually done it, Roxy lets out a shaky breath of laughter.

“Good job. Now hold it there for ten seconds,” Xigbar instructs before counting out loud. It is easy to see the strain on Roxy’s face. I’m a little worried about how long it is taking for my brother’s shoulder to heal, but according to both Xigbar and Dr. Vexen, the speed of his recovery is perfectly normal, not to mention, they don’t mind if it is taking a little longer because they want to keep him here as long as I am here. “There we are. Alright, Tiger, you can rest it now.” Xigbar helps my brother put his arm back down, and instantly Roxy’s good arm goes to rub the stretched arm.

“You’re a bastard, you know that, right?” Roxas glares up at the dark haired man.

Xigbar just laughs before kneeling down in front of my feet. “I’ve been called worse by more important people than you.” Xigbar’s single eye then turns to me, “Alright, Roxas. It’s your turn. Time to check you leg strength and resistance.”

I just sigh. For some reason, when Xigbar was coming up with nicknames for all of us, I was lucky enough, or unlucky, depending on how you look at it, for nothing to have come instantly to the one eyed man’s mind until the first time he got me and Roxas mixed up. He saw how irritated I got when I was called my brother’s name, so that’s what he decided he was going to call me. “I’m Sora,” I say reflexively.

“Like I care, kiddo,” he chuckles, and I watch as he presses his hand to the bottom of my foot, “Okay, now push as hard as you can against my hand. Right foot first.” I do as he says, and in no time flat, Xigbar is standing up and brushing the palm of his hand off. “Good job, brats. I’ll leave you two alone for the rest of the day. Just remember, you never know when I’ll show up, so be prepared,” he smirks before walking back over to where Kairi and Naminé are still chatting away. “Alright, Fuzz. Let’s get back inside and let this little Peach here get back to trying to change those two little fag boys back to liking girls again.”

Kairi just sticks her tongue out at Xigbar, and the action is followed by giggles from both girls. They lean in and give each other a hug before Kairi come back over to us, waving as Naminé and Xigbar back their way back into the clinic.

“Man, I’m still not so sure how much I like him. He’s as much of a bastard as Sephiroth was, just more of a pervert. I don’t know if it is worth the annoyance,” Roxy grumbles, reach a hand out at the same time as I do to help Kairi slide out of her wheelchair and back down onto the blanket.

“Hmm,” she hums in agreement. That’s odd. Normally Kairi never would let the chance to bitch about Xigbar behind his back get away.

“Kairi?” I whisper, my hand twitching with the desire to reach out and take her hand for comfort. Obviously something has happened to make her depressed for some reason, and I want to help, but I don’t know how I can…

“It’s alright. I should have expected this anyway. She has been working really hard lately. I think that the whole secret admirer thing has her motivated. I just wish that there was something like that to inspire me as much.” I instantly notice that though Kairi is giving us a small smile I see tears gathering in the corners of her otherwise bright blue eyes.

When I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder, I’m not really surprised to see Roxy’s hand there. Looking over at my brother’s face, I am startled by an unreadable expression there. I silently raise an eyebrow, slightly confused as to what he is thinking. “Sora, take Kairi’s hand.” He says, surprising the crap out of me.

“What?” I whisper, the back of my neck suddenly feeling extremely warm, having nothing to do with the sun that is high in the sky or the bright red hoodie I am wearing.

The corner of my twin’s lips turns upwards in a small smile before he looks over at a confused Kairi. “We’re both really sorry that you feel that way, Kai. I know that Sora wants to help you, but do you think that you can help us a little first?” I feel my heartbeat begin to speed up to a dangerously high pace and it is all I can do to keep my breathing regulated enough to ensure that oxygen is getting to my lungs. I try and say my brother’s name, but find myself barely able to produce any sound at all.

“What do you mean?” Kairi questions, cocking her head to the side. Why on earth is Roxy doing this to me?

I feel the hand on my shoulder squeeze tightly as I still try and take in deep breaths, small spots dancing in my vision. “Well, besides the fact that we’ve know forever that we’re both gay, there is another reason that Sora had to refuse your advances.” Roxas tells her and I can feel the tremors beginning at the base of my spine. What is Roxy trying to do?

“Why?” she asks. Despite the fact that I am having a mental breakdown, I am able to hear everything that is going on around me with perfect clarity, something that does nothing to calm me down. “Wait, what’s going on with Sora? Is he alright? Should I go and get Xigbar back here?”

“No,” Roxy whispers, and the comfortable weight on my shoulder is suddenly removed, and it is becoming even more difficult to stay grounded in this reality. For some reason though, I am not granted that escape. “I know that this might sound a little strange, but Sora is gynophobic. That means he has an irrational fear of all girls.” Even through the haze that has descended upon my mind, I can hear the slight sadness that is lacing my brother’s words.

I hear Kairi gasp loudly at the information, and the blurry movement I can see in her direction can only be her lifting her hands to her mouth. “Oh my goodness! I never would have guessed! Is there anything I can do to help?”

Reaching a shaking hand out, I try and grab a hold of Roxy in any way possible, but he keeps avoiding my touch before he grabs a hold of my wrist, but not allowing any further contact than that. “Yeah, you can. That’s kind of what I was hoping actually. I know that he will never be completely rid of this, but I want to help make his symptoms a little less severe. This is what happened when I told him to just take your hand. As you can tell, it is pretty bad. I am sort of hoping that you and Naminé would be both willing to help.”

“Roxy…” I try to whisper, the shaking finally making its way to my arms and hands, all quaking uncontrollably.

“Of course we will help. What can I do?” Kairi’s voice is becoming more muffled by the second and her presences is finally overwhelming my senses as a cold sweat trickles down my back and I instinctively try and move closer to my twin, but for some reason he is still avoiding my contact.

“I need you take his hand.” Where Kairi is fading in my mind as the panic attack threatens to completely take over my body, my twin’s presence is firmly there as ever, his light never dimming in the back of my mind. The warmth that is wrapped tightly around my wrist is suddenly joined by a cooler touch that is pressed against my damp palm and around my fingers. The tremors in my body abruptly cease as I feel everything seize up completely, everything going black as I continue to gasp deeply for breath. “Sora! Sora! No, Kairi, don’t let go! Trust me, Sora. It’s only Kairi. She won’t hurt you. I promise. It’s just Kairi. You know her. It’s only Kairi. No one is going to hurt you.”

I hear my brother talking, every word breaking through that darkness that has descended upon me, but I can’t find any meaning in the jumbled sounds, nothing making any sense. “Roxy…” I trail off against, my body not reacting when I try and force it away from that coolness originating from my palm, the sensation almost burning me.

“Fuck, maybe I was wrong. Maybe he wasn’t ready for this,” I hear Roxy whisper; though in my head it sounds a lot louder. However, no matter the volume, I can clearly hear the panic that is creeping into my twin’s voice.

“No.” The word is said with such determination that I feel that black haze move just a little. “We will get him out of this. Sora, listen to my voice. It’s me, Kairi. I’m your friend. I will never hurt you. It’s just me. You know me. We are friends. We like to eat sea salt ice cream together. Just listen to my voice. Sora, it’s just me.”

I want to follow the sound of that voice, I know it will lead me closer to the reality that I had just left behind, I really do, but there is some form of wall stopping me. I squeeze my eyes shut as tightly as I can, hoping that it will stop the swirling blackness. “Kairi…” I surprise even myself when I say the name. I had intended to call out to my brother once more, but though I can still feel his presence inside me and at the back of my mind, something is preventing me from reaching him once again to pull me out of this and return me to the true reality. Another presence is there however and suddenly I am snapped back into complete awareness, all of my body functions returning to normal as if they had never stopped reacting.

I hear a slightly airy and surprised chuckle coming from beside me, and I can’t believe that I am hearing it. Obviously my brother is as astounded as I am at the outcome of his little experiment. “Holy fuck, Sor,” he whispers, wrapping his good arm around me and pulled me close to him. My eyes go wide however when I feel a slight pull on my arm, and I take in a sharp breath when I look up at a smiling Kairi. I whisper her name softly and am rewarded with a small giggle and a nod.

“You alright, Sora?” she questions quietly, squeezing my hand tightly.

“Yeah,” I reply, my voice still shaking slightly. Breaking our gaze, look at my brother with the silent question of ‘what the fuck were you thinking?!’

“I’ve been talking this over with Riku for a while now. He and I both think that Kai and Nami can help you with this,” he whispers, pulling me even closer, but allowing Kairi and I to keep our hands intertwined.

Swallowing hard, I take in an uninhibited deep breath. I still feel somewhat weakened, but the sensation is passing quickly. I find it hard to believe that my twin and my boyfriend would plot like that behind my back, though in a way I can see exactly why they did. “Thanks,” I answer, unsure of whom I am directing the thanks to.

It takes a little while for the entire episode to pass and finally Roxas lets go of my shoulders, allowing me to sit up straight once more. Kairi also releases my hand from hers, but randomly continues to reach over and touch my arm, shoulder or poking me in the side. Each time she does, I gasp and close my eyes, but my body never reacts beyond that. Not that that is a bad thing.

“Why isn’t there an orgy going on here? I would have swore that you would start up in one the moment that I left,” Axel’s voice comes from behind us, and I just roll my eyes with a small laugh as he flops down so that he is laying across both mind and Roxy’s laps without warning. For some odd reason, his head is in my lap and he rests his torso over my brother. Kairi just giggles at Axel’s entrance. Man, I never realized just how giggly girls are…

“But Axel, an orgy just isn’t an orgy without you there too,” Roxy smirks, running one hand down along his boyfriend’s sweater covered arm sensually. The action sends a visible shiver through Axel’s body as he moans loudly in a very sexual manner, looking up at my brother.

“Wanna go have a quickie?” he whispers in a no so quiet voice.

That renews Kairi’s giggling even more and I just let out a loud groan. I do NOT need to hear this again. After all, it was a conversation just like this one that had started Axel in on the whole ‘twincest is legal and acceptable’ rant earlier.

“Nah, I’m not in the mood right now. Now move. You’re heavy and your head is far to close to my twin brother’s crotch for me to like it.” With his good arm, and a little help from a laughing Axel, Roxy rolls his boyfriend off of our laps and he lands on the blanket between us and Kairi with a thump, the female redhead barely in control of herself anymore.

“Neglect! Neglect, I tell you!” Axel cries overdramatically before Roxy kicks him in the side to shut him up. By now we are all laughing heartily and it feels so good to do so. Even Kairi’s random touching is no longer pulling any reaction from my body. Thank heavens.

“So, what did your brother want?” Kairi questions after we all calm down, reaching over and poking my forearm. Ouch, she has pointy nails.

“He was up this way for work and decided that if he was up here and getting paid for it, he might as well stop in to say hi. Stupid bastard. As if I actually want to see him out of the blue like this,” Axel says, shrugging as well as someone laying flat on their back can, “Frankly, it’s annoying enough that he comes up and visits me every fucking week. I can go longer than that before I start to miss his ugly mug.”

“You know, maybe Reno is concerned because you don’t have any blood relatives here at the clinic when all the rest of us do,” Roxy says as he runs his hand through Axel’s messy red spikes.

“Oh my goodness, I never really thought about that before but Roxas is right! I mean, I have Nam, Roxas and Sora have each other, Demyx has his dad, and even if he isn’t here right now, Riku has his brother. Not to mention that Demyx was telling me one day that Zexion is Riku’s cousin or something like that. Reno might be thinking that you feel left out,” Kairi says, kind of looking out into space as she speaks.

Axel just scoffs, “Like I would really want that bastard around here at all times. With him around all the time, I would never get to have sex with my Roxy.”

My twin just rolls his eyes, “Keep acting like that and you won’t be having sex with your Roxy anyway.”

We all laugh at the completely pathetic and crestfallen look that appears on Axel’s face at the comment, to which he tells all do go do a physically impossible act with the stone bench at the entrance to the grassy knoll we’re all sitting in. Something about this all causes me to remember something that I meant to talk to everyone about long before this, especially because Roxy thinks that they might be able to help…

“Hey, Kai, Ax. You guys have been here longer than me and Roxy. Has Riku ever said anything, or have you ever gotten the impression that Sephiroth might be gay or bi or anything like that?” I ask cautiously, causing both redheads to look over at me with raised eyebrows, but Axel is the first to speak.

“Are you kidding me? If I hadn’t accidentally walked into the bathroom one day when he was taking a leak, I’d swear that the bastard didn’t even have a dick,” Axel laughs, “Besides, I can’t see him being anything other than completely asexual.”

“Why are you asking us, Sora? If you were that curious about it, why didn’t you just ask Riku? Obviously he would be able to give you the best answers,” Kairi adds, wrapping some of her long auburn hair around her finger.

I take in a deep breath, wondering if this is the right thing to do. With a warm sensation that is coming from my brother, I know that it needs to be done. “Well, I don’t really want to put any more stress on Riku right now, he’s kind of depressed about Sephiroth being sent off in the first place. Anyway, the reason I am asking is because remember that day that Riku got that headache in the pool? Well, when I followed him back to my room, I passed Sephiroth’s office and the door was open. I over heard a conversation that he was having on speaker phone and it was with another guy. Then the other guy called him ‘lover’. And it was said with actual affection, it didn’t sound like just a casual nickname.” As the words left my lips, both Kairi and Axel’s jaws drop as their eyes go wide.

I guess I really am not overreacting.

“Holy ass fucking gods of shit raping,” Axel curses under his breath, not quite believing what I’m saying. After all, even Roxy didn’t believe me when I first told him.

“Wow,” Kairi luckily doesn’t add her own colourful expletives because we all know that she can probably out curse even Axel.

“Yeah, and until I know anything for certain, I’d really rather not let Riku know any of this,” I add, Roxy nodding in agreement.

“Well, I think we need to get another person in on this. Someone who can sleep his way into getting some information,” Axel smirks, looking over at my brother with a strange gleam in his eyes.

“Oh, fuck no. I’m not sleeping my way into any information, no way. No how,” Roxy growls.

Axel rolls his eyes as he sits up and flicks my glaring brother between his eyes. “Like I’d ever let anyone else get their greasy mitts on you. I’m talking about Demyx.”

“Oh. Thank heavens.” Roxy says with a sigh of relief, causing us all to burst into more laughter. I don’t know why I never thought of asking Demyx. After all, he knows Riku better than anyone else here. Now if only we can get Demyx to keep his big mouth shut when we finally tell him about all of this.

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With such an insanely busy life, its amazing that I ever find time to do any writing anymore. But don’t worry, I will not give up or abandon my stories! The place I work at is short staffed at the moment and I am working insane hours, not to mention family commitments and other retardedness like that. I am using any free moment I can come across to get a little bit of writing done here and there. Here’s hoping that I’ll get some more time in the future to sit down and do some serious writing.

A huge thanks to my tremendously terrific twin for betaing this for me, as my beloved Pahoyhoy has been just as busy as me lately, and we have had a serious lack of us time. I miss you my love, I hope we get some time together soon!

As for what’s going on with this story, I feel so bad that I have been somewhat neglecting it lately. It is moving forward though, a lot is going to happen in the next chapter, so keep looking for it. I am not going to promise when I will get it out though. I have an AkuRoku oneshot that I was suppose to have done for AkuRoku day (which I missed again this year) and a Dexion that I am going to try and have for Dexion day, once again which I’m not optimistic about, and the final chapter of Never Piss Off A Magical Duck. I am going to try my darndest to have another chapter of this out for the end of September. Lets all hope for it. Thanks again so much to everyone who has been continuing to read this story and who takes the time to review this story! I appreciate every single one of them, and they are the reason I continue this story! Thank you so much! Until next time!