All that I need... is you

Disclaimer: I do not own anything except the plot of this story! I wish I owned KH and FF but I don’t!
Chapter: 23
Chapter Warnings: swearing, lime, mentions of statutory rape, making out, break-ups, new character…
Pairings: RikuxSora, LeonxCloud, YukixShuichi, WakkaxTidusxSelphie, TidusxSelphie, TohmaxSeiya, Mausx?
Chapter Pairings: RikuxSora, MausxIrvine, mentions of MausxFemales
Chapter Title: Misunderstanding

Italics = Whispered, exaggerated, telephone convos… etc (don’t show up on AFF.net)

The following conversation is based on a similar one I had with my ex on messenger, except we had been broken up for a month or so and it wasn’t about sex, something similar though.

Enjoy the chapter!

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Sitting silently under the night sky was a lone figure. He was like a mere spec compared to the vast stretch of water that lay in front of him; it seemed to engulf him in its black mass, the only colours visible were silver strips on top of ripples. The lake was surrounded by a thin expanse of trees that marked the setting of the holiday camp. It should have been a place that brought happiness through its beauty but to this visitor it only heightened his sorrow.

“Babe? Are you out here?”

Irvine sighed softly as he heard his lover searching for him; he needed more time to think dammit! His earlier fury had faded but he still wasn’t ready to face the man who was supposedly in love with him.

“Irvine? Please talk to me, I can explain.”

“Explain what, you lied to me.”

Maus looked towards the direction of the voice; it had come from the lake. His brunet lover had always found the water calming; he should have known he would be there.

Irvine heard footsteps approaching and held his breath, he had been caught. He had expected it to be sooner, Maus should have known he would be by the lake; he always sought the water when he was unsettled. It was so soothing, the stillness of reservoirs, the swaying of the ocean, the trickle of a stream, the bubbling of a spring. He often wondered if he had been a fisherman in a past life, or perhaps a mermaid. That would explain why he had webbed feet.

“You always have loved water; it’s a fascination I’ve never quite understood.”

“Stop trying to change the subject. You’re a lying bastard. I should shoot you.”

“I know, I deserve it but I’m sorry, really, really sorry.” Maus slowly walked towards the older man. He was wise beyond his years and he was still amazed that he had managed to claim him for his own.

“Why?” Irvine asked, his voice holding a sadness that pained its sole listener. The younger brunet knew that tone, it was worse than anger, anger he could deal with. But when his lover was ‘disappointed’ in him, that made the teenager feel guilty as hell.

“I didn’t want to hurt you. If you’ll just let me explain I-”

“You ‘didn’t want to hurt me’?! How do you think I feel know?!”

Even when he was angry Irvine still looked angelic in the moonlight, without his trademark hat he seemed so… vulnerable.

“I- I don’t…”

“I feel like an idiot! I gave myself to you, I asked you flat out if you were a virgin and you said ‘yes’. Now, six months later I find out that you’re a womaniser! You’re- you’re- I hate you!”

And he ran off, leaving Maus standing alone and wondering what the hell had happened to make everything go from perfection to chaos in half an hour.

‘He… hates me?’

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“Fuck!”

“I think that pretty much sums it up.” Cloud grinned at the shocked teen next to him.

Lying on the floor in front of them was a blond and a brunet, both naked, both asleep, both covered only by a thin bath robe.

“That’s my robe! The little bastard came all over ‘my’ robe!”

“It’ll wash out.”

“Yes but every time I wear it I’ll have ‘this’ stuck in my head for hours.”

“Sshhh, you’ll wake them up.”

“Too late.”

Sora blinked and groaned softly as the world around him slowly came into view. He could hear voices, they sounded familiar. He went to look up and then realised he was still inside of Riku, and he had been having a rather ‘intimate’ dream. Not good.

“Jesus, when I said I wanted you to stay where you were I didn’t mean all night, I’m not gonna be able to walk all frickin day!” The blond lying beneath him muttered, suddenly freezing when he saw who was staring down at them with smirks on there faces.

“Riku, why did you suddenly…”

“Morning.” Leon and Cloud said in unison, inwardly laughing evilly at the horrified looks on the younger boys’ faces.

‘I’m never going to live this down…’
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Irvine ran as fast as he could away from the lake, he wanted to leave it behind him, to leave all his pain behind him. As long as he kept running, he would be safe.

“Umph!” The brunet gasped in shock as he bumped into something head on.

“You might want to watch where you’re going.” The stranger said, humour obvious in his voice.

‘Well at least he’s not mad.’

“I’m sorry, I was just-”

“Running away from someone? And seeing as you’re crying I’d say you’re not playing tag.”

“We had a fight.”

“Lover?”

Irvine turned to look at the man standing beside him, he had black hair and dangerous eyes; the kind that pulled you in without warning. With slight hesitation he nodded, still unsure if this stranger was trustworthy. He seemed familiar though, he had the same face as a blond he’d seen earlier.

“Ditto.”

“Huh?” The brunet cocked his head in confusion, snapping out of his thoughts.

“Me and Ryuichi had a fight too.”

“Ryuichi? As in ‘the’ Ryuichi Sakuma? The famous singer from Nittle Grasper?”

‘This guy is dating a celebrity?’

“Yep, the very one.”

“Isn’t he like 30 or something?”

“Ah, but he has the body of a teenager. It’s so very tight and…”

Irvine coughed loudly at that statement, not wanting to hear all the details. This guy sure was something. He’s dating a guy twice his age and wasn’t ashamed to talk blatantly about their sex life in public.

“So what was your fight about?”

‘I hate to think…’

“I took Kuma’s ‘virginity’.”

“Kuma?” Wasn’t that the famous pink bunny Ryuichi was famous for taking everywhere with him?

“His stuffed rabbit. He went on tour and left it behind by mistake. He was gone for weeks and I was all alone and horny and it smelled like him and it felt so good when I rubbed it against me…” The stranger’s voice softened as he recalled the event, his eyes glazing over as he slipped into a daydream.

“Sounds fun.” Irvine couldn’t help but grin; there was something about this guy that just made you want to like him.

“It was, until Ryu found out. Now I’m banned from sex for a month and have a restraining order against Kuma, I’m not allowed to go near him if Ryu’s not there.” The black haired man seemed to find his situation both amusing and frustrating.

“A month isn’t that long.” The brunet attempted to comfort the man, still wondering why he was even talking to him in the first place.

“It is when you’re husband just got back from tour and you haven’t been able to touch him for three weeks already.”

‘Husband? I didn’t know Ryuichi was married…’

“Well if there’s anyway I can help just ask.”

Irvine gasped as he was suddenly pressed against a nearby tree, when he’d said ‘anyway’ he hadn’t meant this…

“I can think of one way to help my ‘situation’.” The stranger grinned mischievously and pressed his lips against Irvine’s, forcing his tongue into the brunet’s mouth.

The older man gasped and tried to force his way free, this was wrong…

“What do you think you’re doing!?” Irvine yelled at the cocky young man as he pushed him away with all his strength, suddenly he wasn’t so likeable anymore.

“Making your boyfriend jealous.” The man smirked and indicated to the rustling bushes behind them. Sure enough, a mop of brown hair could be just be seen disappearing out of sight.

“Oh, thanks. I think.” The brunet visibly relaxed, he had assumed this guy was simply a pervert; he did have that sort of vibe about him.

“No problem… what is your name anyway?”

“Irvine.”

“Tatsuha.” The stranger replied, holding out his hand.

“Tatsuha… Sakuma?” Irvine asked, taking the offered digits in his own.

“Yep, Ryu didn’t want to change his name.”

“I can believe that, he is a god after all.”

“And he’s all mine...” Tatsuha drifted off again, as was usual when his Ryu was involved. “Hey, it’s true!” He added when he noticed the look of disbelief on Irvine’s face.

The brunet raised an eyebrow.

“Look, I can prove it to you, if you promise not to tell anyone.”

The older man drew a little cross sign over his heart that earned a chuckle from the black-haired teen standing in front of him. Said teen leaned forwards and whispered his secret into the brunet’s ear.

“My Ryu was a virgin until I took him.”

“No shit!” Irvine’s eyes widened, ‘the’ Ryuichi, a thirty-year-old virgin?

“Shit.” Tatsuha smiled softly, a true smile that betrayed his usually cool attitude. “He’s a big romantic at heart, not wanting to get hurt and waiting for the right person meant that he never got into a relationship.”

“What was so different about you?”

“Well you might say I was slightly obsessed with him, but only a teensy wincey bit. I’m his knight in shining armour; I would do anything for him.” The young man frowned after his little speech. “God he’s turned me into a softie.”

“I wish Maus was more like you.”

“You never did tell me what happened between you two.”

“He told me he was a virgin but then later thought to add that he’d slept with women.”

“So he lied to you.” Tatsuha added, a thoughtful look adorning his face.

Irvine nodded; his anger from earlier returning to him.

“Do you want to forgive him?”

“What the hell do you mean ‘do I want to’ forgive him? He’s a lying, cheating bastard!” The brunet screamed his answer at the younger man, shaking with emotions that threatened to overwhelm him.

“Do you love him?” Tatsuha asked calmly, seemingly ignorant to the condition of the other man.

“Y-yes!” Irvine sobbed as he collapsed into the raven-haired man’s arms. “But I just wish he would treat me as a person and not an object, see me as an equal.”

“Things aren’t given fairly between you?”

“No, he fucks me, makes me suck him, makes me do whatever he feels like but I- I’ve never… experienced a-any of those things.”

Tatsuha rubbed soft circles on the trembling man’s back as he comprehended the problem, compared to this guy, he was in relationship heaven. He was a born seme but he let Ryuichi be on top if he wanted to, he would never deny the man anything.

“He’s never submitted to you, at all?”

Irvine shook his head.

“Never.”

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Meanwhile, back in their cabin Riku and Sora were discussing the possible repercussions of Leon and Cloud finding them. The brunet was sat on the blond’s lap in the middle of the floor, fiddling with the hem of his trousers.

“You don’t think they’ll tell anyone do you?” The smaller male asked his partner, craning his neck round to look into the aquamarine eyes he knew so well.

“Depends what you’re worried about. What happened or where it happened?”

“I’m not ashamed of what we were doing, just the fact that we did it right in the middle of a forest and were discovered butt naked.”

Riku chuckled and kissed his lover in the crook of his neck, earning a groan from the boy. He wasn’t about to tell anyone but the thought of being seen in such an intimate position with his lover had really turned him on; just like it had done when he’d taken Sora earlier in front of his brother. Maybe they could have a foursome sometime… but they’d have to set strict rules, like no penetrating anyone else’s partner. If someone else took his Sora… god he would pummel them to death!

“If you’re content to sit and think I’m gonna go for a walk.” Sora sighed and stood up, drawing Riku’s attention away from his possessive thoughts. “See ya later.”

The brunet waved at his confused lover and walked out of the cabin door, shutting it behind him. As soon as he stepped outside he could hear the sound of someone crying, like they were bawling their eyes out.

He looked in the direction of the sound and saw Maus sitting with his head in his hands outside his cabin.

‘He looks really upset.’

“Hey! Maus, what’s wrong?” Sora called cheerfully to his ‘friend’.

Said male winced at the overly cheerful greeting and looked up at the kid through bleary eyes. “Irvine left me.”

“Who’s Irvine?”

“My lover, well my ex-lover now.”

Sora smiled sympathetically at the older man and wrapped an arm around his waist. “I’m sure there’s still some hope left.”

Maus shook his head and hiccupped, fresh tears flowing down his cheeks.

“You should never give up on someone you love! You do… love him don’t you?”

“Yes.” There was no hesitation in the man’s reply, he did love Irvine, with all his heart, but he just didn’t know how to show it sometimes.

“I take it he’s just as upset as you, what did you do?”

“I lied to him. I told himI was a… virgin.”

Sora watched as the instructor mentally beat himself up and placed one hand on the man’s chin, turning his head to face him. “You’d had sex before? How long ago? With how many guys?”

Maus stared with bloodshot, puffy eyes at the boy beside him and gave in; if he was going to seek help he might as well tell the truth. “Seven years ago, with eight women.”

The younger brunet didn’t miss the emphasis on the word ‘women’. That implied that firstly, Irvine was the first guy he’d been with and secondly, that he had slept with older women when he was still a boy.

“How old are you now?”

“I’m twenty… one.” A strong feeling of shame seemed to manifest in Mau’s stomach, seemingly twisting it into knots. There were two reactions that he could think of to his childhood, disgust or curiosity mixed with understanding, he just prayed that the latter would be chosen.

“How… why, would you have sex so young with so many… older women?”

Maus felt the arm around his waist tighten protectively and he visibly relaxed, the boy was not disgusted with him.

“When I was thirteen I fell in with this new group of mates and was a big hit with them. They took me to all their hangouts and would share everything with me. Soon after my fourteenth birthday they took me out for what they called a proper ‘joining ceremony’ so I would officially be part of their group. I went to one of the guys’ houses and was told to go upstairs. This woman was there naked and she told me to hurry up and get on with it. I’d never slept with anyone before and I was about to run when Darren came in and ordered me to fuck her. Apparently I’d get paid for it.” The nervous man paused and wrung his hands before continuing. “That was how the group could afford their lifestyle, they were whores.”

“How long did you live like this?” Sora questioned, suddenly feeling out of his depth.

“Only a week, I was staying with Darren for the holiday. As soon as I got home and my mum started calling me her ‘little angel’ the enormity of what I’d done hit me. I stopped talking to Darren but he caught up with me eventually and heckled me in the street, I’ve never been so embarrassed in my life.” Maus leaned his head on the shoulder offered to him and inhaled the smell of the teen next to him, blushing when he realized he smelled like sex.

‘Guess his lover wasn’t lying when he said he wasn’t a virgin. Maybe he can offer me some good advice after all.’

“Did you tell Irvine all this? Was he mad about your past? Was that why you were crying?” Sora found it hard to believe that anyone could hate the man for being forced into prostitution.

“No… I tried to explain but he wouldn’t listen. He practically accused me of being a slut and then went straight into the arms of another guy for comfort.” Maus was confused at the incredulous look the teen was giving him until a squeeze to his side reminded him that he himself was in the arms of another guy right now. “Not like this, the guy was practically devouring him! He had his tongue down his throat!”

“Maybe you misunderstood the situation...” A glare was sent his way, “or maybe not.”

“I just don’t know what to do. I’ve dug a hole so deep I’ll never be able to fill it in!”

“You can start by not giving Irvine any more reasons to be mad at you; be as nice as you can. Compliment him, do what he says, but don’t try and do any lovey-dovey stuff. That’ll just drive him away. Once you’ve regained some of his trust you can explain what happened.”

“You sure that will work?” Maus looked unconvinced; Irvine could hold a grudge forever if he felt like it.

‘Still, it’s not like I anything to lose.’

“100% positive!”

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Sora is so optimistic, but then again he is young and has a perfect relationship with Riku (the lucky bastard).

I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the introduction of Tatsuha! (I love him…)

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