A Lot to Take In

He fought against the invisible bonds despite knowing there was nothing he could do. Not even phasing his body would work on magic. If it wasn’t bad enough that he was tied to the bed, the position his bonds put him in was immensely embarrassing. He was on his back with his legs bent at the knees and spread apart while his arms were forced above his head and to top it off there wasn’t a scrap of clothing on him.

“Struggle all you want my Fenris. It only makes the game more delightful to play.” At the sound of his master, Denarius, Fenris quit moving and dropped his head in submission, “now isn’t that better? I can’t promise it will all be good for you but you will be begging me for more by the end.”

Denarius untied his robe and let it slither to the ground. Fenris looked from between the strands of his snow white hair and inwardly cringed at the sight of his master’s cock hardened in the middle of a nest of hair. He was relieved to note it wasn’t very large, but that didn’t change what Fenris knew was about to happen. Denarius swaggered over to the edge of the bed and touched his little wolf’s limp-self causing Fenris to recoil in disgust.

“Now now Fenris, I won’t have you pretending you dislike this…how about I speed up the process?”

A hand closed around Fenris’s shaft and started to glow. Sheer pleasure bordering pain surged into Fenris, arching his back as he opened his mouth but no sound came out. It lasted only a few seconds, then Denarius lifted his hand from Fenris’s now solid, pulsing cock. Fenris sagged against his restraints, panting.

“Mmm, lovely,” chuckled Denarius, “so big. I will definitely have to sample that later but for now I want to hear you scream ‘master’”

He spread Fenris’s ass wide and thrust himself in balls deep. Fenris squeezed his eyes shut and bit his cheek, drawing blood, to keep from crying out. Denarius only smiled before starting to fuck his slave, using Fenris’s legs for leverage. Not getting the response he was looking for, Denarius again brought his hand to Fenris’s cock, this time using only half of the power from the last time but it had the desired effect. Fenris started moaning, his breathing increased; Denarius sensed that Fenris was about to cum and streamed a little more magic causing Fenris’s eyes to bulge when he realized what his master was doing.
“I can’t have you coming just yet my pet. The first lesson you will learn is that your master always comes first.”

Fenris woke with a jerk causing Hawke to stir in his sleep. He looked down at his lover, a man fearless and powerful enough to survive the Deep Roads. It crossed his mind that Hawke might be able to defeat Denarius but even think his name caused Fenris to shiver. He gently brushed back Hawke’s hair and laid a soft kiss upon his sleeping lips. Fenris knew he could never ask such a risk from Hawke for he was too dear to him. It was time to wake up and be prepared to run should Denarius ever find him. He could not afford to place those closest to him in Denarius’s path. Only he should have to live in fear.

Decided, Fenris slipped out of the comforts of Hawke’s bed and scrambled to find his clothes in the dark. There was a chill in the room as Bodahn had probably wanted to refrain from disturbing them to tend the fire. Fenris started adding logs to the fireplace and coaxed a flame. He lost himself staring at the flickering light.

“Was it that bad?” a voice sounded from the bed.

Fenris turned towards the bed to see a naked Hawke already making him regret his decision. “I’m sorry…it’s not…it was fine.” He saw Hawke look away and wanted to kick himself for stuttering so much, “No that is insufficient. It was better than anything I could have dreamed.”

“Was it too strange to be with another man?”

“It’s not that,” that thought had not even crossed his mind but for reasons Hawke couldn’t possible know, and Fenris didn’t want him to, “I began to remember. My life before. Just flashes…” He left out that the vivid memory he wanted gone had chased them away. “It’s too much, this is too fast. I cannot…do this.”

“If it brings your memory back, maybe we need to do it more often.” Hawke felt bad making a joke of this, he could tell that Fenris was upset, but panic was setting in.

“Perhaps you don’t realize how upsetting this is.” How to make Hawke understand without telling too much? “I’ve never remembered anything and to have it all come back in a rush only to lose it…I can’t…I can’t.”
Hawke didn’t like where this was going, “We can work through this.” He placed his heart in Fenris’s hands.

“I’m sorry. I feel like such a fool.” Fool was too weak of a word for what Fenris was feeling after hearing Hawke say that but he couldn’t stay. It was better to leave now and suffer the hate then to ever allow Hawke to find out his secrets. “All I wanted was to be happy…just for a little while. Forgive me”

Every step sent daggers through Fenris’s heart and he could hear the solid door sliding shut on Hawke’s heart. A single tear slid down his cheek.