Accidental Infatuation

Accidental Infatuation
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Chapter Sixteen

Authors Excuses, I mean, Notes: See Below

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My mind is suddenly ripped from blackness as something flies down and smacks me hard on the cheek. With a slight yelp, I jerk my head upwards, causing a hand to slide off of my face. That must have been what hit me. And conveniently, it happens to be attached to one sound asleep twin brother of mine. Now the question is whether I am going to use this opportunity to be evil now, or save it for the future…hell, how could I pass up such an easy chance? Roxas can’t always be the evil twin.

I use the bar that the staff installed on the wall next to my bed to help pull myself up into a sitting position easily, propping myself up on my pillows. I notice that the sun is bright coming through the window, and I wonder exactly what time it is. But that thought leaves my head as soon as I look down to see Roxy still fast asleep. Perfect. He’ll never expect what is coming his way. There is a rumbling in my tummy and I know exactly what I am going to do to him.

Taking another slight look at my twin, I notice that just like every other night, he has the covers pulled tightly up around his neck. Man, he is making this way too easy for me, and it isn’t making my conscious be any quieter.

Carefully, I reach over and pull the cover out of his tight grip, not wanting to disturb him into waking. He is going to kill me for this, I know, but it is going to be sooo worth it. I know that I don’t have much time which to do this; I can already feel Roxas beginning to shift in search of his blanket. I pause for just a second to make sure that rumbling was what I think it is before I go ahead. When everything checks out to be alright, I shift a little so that I am sitting up quite far on my pillows, using my bar and its support to help rotate the lower half of my body so that is facing the wall, yet my face is still facing the ceiling.

Counting to five, I just hope that Roxas will be kind enough to let me live after this. In a swift motion that almost anyone, full mobility or not, would be jealous of, I pull the blanket over my brother’s head, holding it there tightly, as I let the gas that had been pent up inside my body out in a loud ripper that Axel would be proud of. It takes less than three seconds to feel Roxas moving, whether from the awful smell that is still trapped under the covers, or the fact that the blanket that is over his face, something that I know that he hates. And just for added effect, I let another one go, and I feel my brother struggling under the covers.

“Shit! Sora! That’s disgusting! Let me out!” I hear him gag and cough as he struggles, and I quickly take pity on him, hoping that I didn’t go far and send him into an asthma attack. I let go of the blanket and it is instantly thrown off our bodies as Roxy sits up, glaring daggers at me.


“Morning, Roxy.” I grin in the most cheerful voice that I can pull off without having my laughter be too apparent.

“The hell was that for?” the glare is barely subsiding as he blinks to get rid of the sleep in his eyes and adjusts the bandages that are there keeping his arm stationary.

I use my bar to get my back up into a full sitting position, my face beginning to hurt a little from the grin that is still there. “Oh, let me see. Maybe it was because I was having a really, really, really good dream and was oh so rudely ripped from when your hand decided that it wanted to get to know my face just a little better. And it really hurt too. Or it could have been that you and your boyfriend so annoyingly outted me and my boyfriend to everyone last night.”

Roxy just scoffs. “Axel is not my boyfriend. You know that.”

“But you wish he was.”

And with a blush and a grumble that I can’t quite make out, Roxy swings his legs off of the side of the bed, wincing as his feet hit what I can assume is a cold floor. Walking over to my chair, Roxy grabs the sling off of the seat and comes back over to the bed. “Come on. You know that I need help with getting this on.” With a light chuckle, I move myself sideways and let Roxy sit in front of me. In a comfortable silence, I begin to unwrap the bandage before helping Roxas slip into the sling without jarring his shoulder too much.

“Is it feeling any better?” I whisper, placing my hand on his good shoulder and giving it a light squeeze. He is silent for a moment before a chilled hand is placed atop my own. “What exactly did Dr. Vexen say?” I’m still surprised that he hasn’t told me about his visit with Demyx’s dad the other day. Which can really only mean one thing…

“I’m going to need another surgery on it, or else I may never regain full use of my arm again. They are just waiting until we are both stable enough to make it through the surgery without being too hard on us.” His voice is whispered as he looks downwards towards his feet.

“We’ll be okay.” I reply, wrapping both my arms around him in a tight hug. This is almost our daily routine. Just after we wake up is the only time during the day that we allow ourselves to be slightly depressed. It is a deal that we made together just after Roxas came out of his coma. Everything has happened for some reason or another, and even though it may seem like we have been dealt the shit end of the stick right now, some time in the future we are bound to have something that will happen to us that will be worth going through all this.

“Sor, what the hell were you dreaming about last night anyway? You were restless for a bit there and I couldn’t understand a thing about them.” Roxas asks, breaking the silence with a slight laughter.

I just laugh in return. Of course he was going to ask me that. “Something about a baby, the beach, a tidal wave and Riku wearing a Tigger suit. I don’t really remember anything else about that.”

I can almost hear my brother rolling his eyes. “I tell you, Sor. For strange dreams, you definitely take the cake.” Our morning routine then commences in silence as Roxy first gets him dressed, and then helps me.

“I wonder when Axel will be here?” I look over at my twin as he presses a button next to the bed, causing the newly installed sling lift to lower next to me. A blush instantly rises upon Roxas’ face again. Man, I have ever seen him like this before. I didn’t event think that he even knew how to blush any more. I hope that they get together soon. They compliment each other so well. Usually, Riku and Axel both come and pick us up in the mornings, though today Axel will be coming alone because Riku is, in his own words ‘Getting his has handed to him in 39.2 pieces by Sephiroth in fencing’ this morning.

“He said 9:30. I guess that Marluxia is going to be planting some new flowers this morning and Axel thought that we might like to help or watch or something.” And just like that, Roxas and I get the lift under me and with the press of the button; I am being raised into the air. The lift was only installed three days ago and already, it is making things a lot easier around here for Roxy and me. This means that we can get me in and out of the bed without having to call on Lexaeus every time, and I even got to cuddle with Riku on the bed for a little while on Friday night. I just can’t use it by myself.

As soon as I am plunked down and all strapped into my chair, I take a brief glance over to my alarm clock to judge just how long we have before Axel gets here. Wait a sec… “Ugh, Roxy, it’s already twenty after ten.” I state, a little confused.

“What?” my brother questions in disbelief as he looks over at the clock himself before grabbing his cell phone off the nightstand to verify that the time on our alarm clock is correct. “Where the hell is he then?” I must admit that my own thoughts are mirroring my twin’s, as I know that if it involves Roxas, Axel is usually there 10 minutes early with bells on. For him to be almost an hour late is just a little strange.

“I’m sure that he has just slept in Roxy. That just will mean that we will have the chance to go wake him up and maybe see inside his room.” I grin. For some reason, Axel doesn’t let anyone see the inside of his room, well, except Riku, but he doesn’t really count. Whenever we ask him about it, he just grins that perverted smirk of his and tells us that our bums will no longer be safe if we were to enter.

Roxy just chuckles at the notion of seeing inside the redhead’s room as we move ourselves into the bathroom. “Maybe. What do you think that he is hiding?”

I pause as I pick up my toothbrush. “Hmmm…maybe it has something to with why he is here at the clinic.” I suggest. “That’s it! Roxy, you are just going t have to seduce him and take him into his room to do the nasty and tell me what it’s like.” I proclaim.

I watch a smirk worthy of Axel himself grows on my twin’s lips. “Tell you what the sex is like or tell you what his room is like? Because really, I don’t want to know why you want to know about me having sex. That’s kind of gross.”

I stop dead in my tracks to look over at my twin with a glare. Which I am sure is oh so effective with my mouth clenched around my lime green toothbrush. So I do the next best thing to get my point across. I flip my brother off. We spend the next few minutes bickering like that and making fun of one another, everything reminding me all too much like how things were back home before everything. I’m so glad that he is here with me. I don’t think that I could have handled it if he wasn’t.

“Roxy, are you ready to go?” I question as I finish the last few touches on my spiky hair. Poor Roxy had to go change his shirt after I accidently flung toothpaste at him. Yes, that’s it…Accidently… I would never do something like that to my dear twin on purpose. Tilting my head to make sure that he hasn’t hurt himself while in the process of changing, I don’t even grumble at the fact that he is now wearing my shirt. After all, it is partially my fault that he had to change.

I receive a small grunt as he adjusts his sling over top of the button up shirt that once more and stands off of the bed. “Yeah. Let’s go and see what has kept Axel.”

I smirk as I roll out of the bathroom. “Maybe we find out what it is, we can use it in the future to keep him away even more.”

The look on Roxy’s face is completely priceless. Bright blue eyes are open as far as they can go, and his jaw is just hanging open in shock. “How dare you say something like that about him!” the shock in Roxy’s voice is completely feigned and I know it, but I still can’t help but laugh at Roxas.

Even as we make our way out the door, we are still carrying on like that, both of us needing this semblance of our past to make it through all of this shit. For a Sunday morning, everything seems so quiet, and I wonder just where everyone is. I know that Kairi is probably still in bed, because according to Naminé, that girl could sleep her life away and be quite content in doing so. And as for Naminé, I’m sure that she is around here somewhere doing something that is artsy in someway or another. Demyx is doing something for his dad, and Riku had his fencing practice. But the rest of the people here are no where to be found either, and that seems sort of strange to me as we make our way down the hallway. Maybe everyone decided to sleep in.

“Sor. I have a really weird feeling.” Roxas says suddenly, and all of a sudden, I get the same feeling. I wonder what it is. I nod to my brother for some reason not wanting to break the silence that has suddenly encompassed us. I feel a slight jerk as my twin steps behind my chair and start to push me, I don’t argue as we begin to move slightly faster down the hall. This feeling has just made its home in the pit of my stomach and I have no idea why. Usually this feeling is only something I get when there is something wrong with Roxas. But obviously that is not the case, because he is right there with me. For some reason, the sensation is pulling in a specific direction, and as soon as I understand in exactly which direction we are going in, I feel Roxy speeding up.

As soon as we round the corner to what seems to be the source if that nagging feeling, we are both stopped dead in our tracks, seeing Riku leaning up against the door frame that normally held the charred door of Axel.

“Riku?” I question, causing my boyfriend to turn his head over towards us, I notice for the first for the first time that he is in the tradition white fencing gear, his sword and mask sitting next to him on the floor, and despite the hard knot still deep in the pit of my stomach, I think that he looks really hot in that garb.

“Sora? What are you two doing here?” he must have heard Roxy’s footsteps beside me to know my twin is there. We hear a strange voice calling something inside the open door and I quickly reach over and take a hold of my twin’s hand.

“Axel was suppose to take us to help Marluxia in the garden today so when he didn’t show, we came looking for him.” I answer, watching Riku’s every graceful move as he walks towards us.

“What’s going on in there?” My twin’s voice is quiet and has a slight waver, and I instantly can feel the concern Roxas holds for Axel. I get the feeling that after today, Riku and I might not be the only new couple around.

Riku sighs and I get the feeling that he didn’t want to have to be the one who told us about this. “Let’s go to the common room down the hall and I will explain things.” Without waiting for a response and with only a light guiding hand from me, Riku now was the one pushing my chair, and Roxas is walking beside me, out hands still clenched tightly together. The short distance to the common room goes by quickly and silently, and it just makes me wonder how serious this is. Is Axel going to die? Beside me, I can feel Roxas shaking and the thoughts running through his head are absolutely chaotic. I really wish that there was something more that I could do for him.

We get the common room which is thankfully empty, and Riku leaves me next to a chair, hinting that Roxas is to sit down there, while with just a few words of guidance, Riku goes over and sits at the window seat.

“Riku, what’s going on? Please? I need to know.” Roxas’ voice is slightly whiny, but I know it is just out of concern. I give Roxas’ hand another squeeze as I look over at my boyfriend, hoping for an answer that will quell the nauseous feeling that is still rising inside of me.

Another sigh escapes Riku’s thin lips as he faces the two of us. “Do you two have any idea why Axel is here at the clinic?”

“All I know is that Reno was involved somehow.” My twin answers. For some reason, I think that it might be best to stay silent right now as I let Riku and Roxy talk about this.

My boyfriend just lets out a single light chuckle. “Axel was riding behind Reno on his motorcycle and when they got in a minor accident. Axel was thrown over his brother and the handle bars. He broke both legs, and had a minor head injury. But something else happened. That trauma triggered some dormant things in his body. While in the hospital, Axel had three seizures. And not minor ones. Two of them were really severe.” Riku pauses, and I am torn for a split second. Riku looks as if he needs comforting just as much as Roxas does. But I have a feeling that this is the reason why Riku sat over away from us. He knew that Roxy would need what only I can give him.

“So he’s epileptic? Is that enough to be in a rehab clinic?” Roxy looks over at me, worry plastered all over his face.

“He is. But that’s not all. For some reason, Axel is a genealogical anomaly. He won the worse lottery in the world. Besides that, he has a complex sleep apnea. But the reason why Axel is here at the clinic with us is because he has a progressive form of multiple sclerosis. When he has an attack, it usually triggers a seizure, and most of the time he ends up paralyzed for a couple of days after an attack. Until they figure out a way to stop the seizures, or at least lessen the pain and paralysis a little, Axel is going to stay here. Then at least, when the attacks do happen, there is a knowledgeable staff on hand.”

The entire room is silent as Roxas and I try and take in this new information. How on earth does Axel do it? I swear, I am never going to feel sorry for myself again. I never knew. Venturing a slight glance over at my twin, I am not really that surprised at his expression. His face is downcast, blue eyes shining with wetness as tears fall down along his flushed cheeks. And in that moment, I realize something important. Roxy has fallen for Axel even faster and harder than I have for Riku. I feel for him. I love my brother. All I can hope for is that Axel returns his feelings, or at least won’t leave my twin broken hearted.

“Roxy?” I whisper, moving my free hand and arm to move over and wrap around his shoulders. I know that he needs this comfort ad support right now.

“Did he have an attack last night?” my brother whispers. And I know that the question is directed at my boyfriend.

“Yeah. The seizure wasn’t as bad as some of the others that he has had, but it was still an attack none the less. They are just doing some tests to see the extent of the paralysis, or if there even is any. There are so many different effects that his MS can have.” Riku answers, and his voice is so soothing to listen to after being dealt such a shocking blow.

We are silent for a long time, no one knowing exactly what to say. But the way that Riku has been handling this makes me realize just how good he would be as a peer counsellor. Frankly, I don’t know how I would have been able to handle being the one to break this news to others.

“When can we go see him?” Roxy’s voice is so low, even though I am sitting right next to him, I can barely hear him. Hopefully, Riku’s sensitive ears are strong enough to pick up o my twin’s question.

“Seph is in there right now, and will normally try and find me afterwards. Axel’s attacks tend to leave him a little disoriented afterwards and it is always nice to have a friendly face around when he wakes up. But I think that Axel would rather have you in there instead, Roxas.” At my boyfriend’s words, Roxas’ head snaps up, eyes wide in shock.

“What do you mean?” he asks, his voice stuttering slightly on the words.

“Come on, Roxy.” I laugh. “Axel likes you just as much as you like him. There is no denying that.” My statement earns a fierce blush from my twin, who is obviously trying to hide it. Maybe it is just because it isn’t only me and him talking about it.

“Sora’s right, Roxas. And I can even confirm it. I have it straight from the not so straight horse’s mouth that he really likes you too and is looking forward to, and I quote ‘banging you in at least fourteen different positions.’” Riku laughs and I silently send thoughts of thanks to Riku, knowing that Roxy could have taken this so much harder than he is, and that wouldn’t have been good for either of us.

“Thanks, Riku. That is totally not a thought that I needed in my head. It’s bad enough that I was in the same room as he was when he was having sex once, I don’t need to be reminded of that.” I groan, glad that we are able to distract Roxy, even if it is only for a few minutes.

“Hey, at least you weren’t conscious at the time. Because I think that if you were, Kain would have totally asked you to join in.” Roxy scoffs, laughter erupting from across the room where my boyfriend is still sitting there.

“What is the big deal about this whole twincest thing? I don’t get why people would want to watch twins having sex. I mean, it is incest! Shouldn’t that absolutely disgust people?” I question, still not understanding some people and their fetishes.

“I think that it is mostly because, as you well know, twins have that strange mental bond thing. To be able to work in tandem and act together to bring pleasure would be so freaking hot.” Riku has a smirk on his face, and I can’t help but wonder how much is teasing, and how much of it he really means.

Roxy is laughing as well, and it brings a smile to my own face. But it can’t last forever, and it doesn’t last nearly long enough. Through our laughter, we can all hear someone clearing their throats, coming from somewhere behind us. My head whips around in complete unison with my brothers, and we turn around only to see Sephiroth standing quite close to us. I wonder how long he has been standing there. Hopefully he didn’t hear the whole twincest talk…

“How is he doing, Seph?” Riku asks, and I can’t help but wonder how Riku can tell it is just by something as simple as the sound of someone clearing their throats.

Even standing there in the black padded fencing uniform and with his long platinum hair tied in a tight braid down his back, Sephiroth looks very menacing. Riku didn’t lie when he told me that his brother is basically fear personified. “Not as bad as some of the others that he has taken over the past couple of months, but it was still an attack. He will be on bed rest and under observation for the next couple of days. We had to give him a small dose of morphine to deal with the pain, so he is pretty sedate right now.”

“So, does this mean that we can go see him?” Roxy asks, only a slight waver of fear in his voice as he looks over at the intimidating man.

Sephiroth just gives my brother a slight nod before turning to his own brother. “Riku, where are your mask and foil? Our practice is not over.”

With a quick look over at my silver haired boyfriend, I see his aquamarine eyes roll before he pushes up off his window perch. I can’t take my eyes off of his lean form as he walks over towards us. My breath hitches as he comes very close to me. As if he doesn’t care that Sephiroth, the one person he is intent of still concealing our relationship from, isn’t standing right there, Riku leans down, his face stopping right next to mine. I can already feel the blush that is creeping up on my cheeks as his lips brush close to my ear.

“I am looking forward to spending the afternoon with you, Sora.” The whispered words send chills down my spine, and I can hear Roxy chuckle at the actions before Riku stands up and walks over to where his brother is. With a growl, I watch as Sephiroth grabs a hold of Riku’s arms and drags him back down the hall, all the while lecturing him. As soon as Riku is out of sight, Roxas starts laughing.

“Shut up, Roxy.” I mumble. “So, are you ready to go confess, I mean, see Axel?” Ahh, revenge is sweet as I see a blush rise on his face.

“Yeah. Let’s go.” And just like that, his voice is back to being subdued as he stands up and walks behind me, pushing my chair back down the hall, neither of us breaking the tentative silence that has fallen upon us. It is times like this that makes me glad that we are so closely bonded. Even if we don’t say anything, there is ever a full silence between us, as I can hear the echoes of my twin’s thoughts I my own mind. We continue down the hall, coming to stop just outside of the charred door of our redheaded friend. Is it bad that I am excited to see the inside of Axel’s room, even if it is because he is in pain? Call it a morbid curiosity.

“You want me to come in?” I gently ask, taking a hold of Roxas’ hand. I receive a small nod, but before we can open the door ourselves, it is pulled open to reveal Lexaeus, all dressed in light green scrubs. Man, he still creeps me out. With a small nod, the hulking brute that refuses to smile holds the door open and lets us into the room without a word. Taking a quick glance around, I’m actually sort of shocked at just how…normal the room is compared to what I thought it was going to be. It’s just a normal room, with the exception of a large machine next to the bed with a tube attached to it and the vast amount of clothes that are covering every single surface of the room. I wonder what it was that he wanted to hide.

“Axel?” my twin’s voice is loud in the quite room, and my gaze is suddenly drawn to the bed. I can’t believe that is the same guy that we’ve gotten to know over the last little while. He looks so pale against the sheets, even his normally brilliant ruby hair seeming to be dulled down to a ruddy colour.

At the sound of my brother’s voice, his head rolls towards us, hazy green eyes staring blankly at us. It almost seems as if he doesn’t recognize us. I know that Riku said that Axel would be disoriented, but I didn’t expect this. And from the slight pain that I feel in my chest, neither did Roxas. “Who…?” Even his voice doesn’t sound like him at all.

“Its Sora and Roxas.” I answer, letting go of my twin’s hand as he walks up to the side of the bed where Axel lays. I choose to stay where I am; knowing that this is something that Roxy needs to do on his own. Taking the older man’s hand into his own, the gesture causes Axel to try and focus just on Roxy.

“Roxas?” a slight tone of recognition can be heard in Axel’s voice, and it brings a smile to my brother’s face. As soon as his name falls from Axel’s pale lips, Roxas leans down, and before I can believe what is happening, I am watching Roxy kiss Axel. Hard. And from the moan that escapes Axel, or who I assume is Axel, it seems that they are both enjoying this. Choosing that moment to excuse myself before I see more things than I want or need to, I roll my chair out of the room, the whole time thinking that it is about damn time.

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There is no excuse to be made for either the lateness of this chapter. In all honesty, the reason for it, as far as I could tell, was that I had lost sight of where I was going with this story. I know how exactly I wanted it to end, but I had no idea how I was going to get to that spot without skipping over the entirety of Sora’s recovery. I say that I HAD lost sight because thanks to one of my best friends in the entire world, Simone, I was able to sit down (for an entire day, seriously) and work out a plan for this story. I thank you from the bottom of my heart Simone! I now know where I am going and how I am going to be getting there. And with that, I can easily say that we are looking at another 10 chapters AT LEAST for this baby. So, it will be somewhere between 25 and 30 chapters at the end, which I am sure will be far into the future! Happy dance time! I am working on finishing up a very special one shot, then a chapter of Passionate Beat, then the next chapter of this, but most of that is already done, so it shouldn’t be that long of a wait til the next chapter comes out.

I want to thank everyone so very much for all the lovely comments and reviews and everything you all made on the last chapter, it really blew me away! To know that even after 15 chapters people are still reading this and enjoying it is amazing! And I always love hearing about it, and replying to everyone.

And last but not least, Pahoyhoy. I love you so much, and it’s because of you that I continue to write this story, the story that first brought us together (heart). And thanks so much for betaing this as usual. I always appreciate it.

Thanks again to everyone and until next time!