My Sun, My Moon, My Soul

`~`~`Cloud's POV`~`~`

He woke up, feeling happy. Something he hadn't completely felt in a long time. Sure, he was happy with Sora and Roxas, but having someone to wake up with was something different. He looked over at Leon, who looking at him.

"Good morning, sunshine," Leon greeted, kissing him on the lips.

Cloud smiled. "Have you been awake for long?"

Leon shook his head. "No, only for about an hour. I just wanted to watch you sleep. You look so peaceful."

Cloud yawned. "What time is it?"

Leon looked at his clock. "It's almost noon."

He sat up quickly; shocked that he'd slept so late. "Oh no! I gotta get home to make sure Sora is okay!"

"It's okay Cloud. I just called Riku; he slept over last night with Sora. They're fine," Leon assured him. "Axel and Roxas are up already, they're making brunch."

He relaxed a little bit. Leon leaned toward him and gave him a kiss. "I like it when you do that…"

Leon smiled. "Then you're gonna love this…" He pushed him back against the bed, sliding his body into him.

He gasped at the feeling of having Leon inside him. "You're right, I love this." Leon set a rhythm, thrusting into him. Cloud couldn't help but laugh. He moved his hips in time with Leon's, feeling him pound into him hard, fast, and rough.

He felt Leon's hand close around his straining erection. "Leon, I'm…" He felt Leon's move faster on him, thrusting harder into him.

Leon bit at his lower lip. "Go ahead Cloud…"

Cloud exploded on both of them, he felt Leon thrust harder then came not long after. He felt his seed inside him. Leon laid on top of him, trying to catch their breath. He felt Leon pull out of him, but his body tried to keep him inside.

Leon laughed. "You don't want me to pull out?"

"I guess my body has other thoughts," he replied, feeling Leon pull out. They both got up, Leon walked to the bathroom. Cloud looked out the window.

Something didn't feel right. It wasn't Leon, but he felt something just wasn't right. He wondered if Sora and Roxas felt the same thing. Maybe he was just paranoid.

"Cloud?" Leon called out to him.

He looked at him. "Yes?"

"Are you coming in?" he asked.

Cloud smiled, walking in the bathroom with him. He felt something was wrong.

`~`~`Roxas' POV`~`~`

He sat on the counter, watching Axel make scrambled eggs and bacon. Seeing Axel like this made him want to giggle. "Wow! Axel being all domestic!"

Axel grinned. "Yeah, go ahead and laugh away. I'll have your cute ass alone soon enough."

He laughed, even though when he woke up this morning, something didn't feel right. Axel kept staring at him as he cooked, like he was about to eat him up. Roxas noticed what he was wearing. Axel's red t-shirt. He wore nothing else, but it was big enough that it reached his knees. "Why do you keep looking at me like that?" He could feel his face burning.

"You look yummy in that shirt Roxy," Axel said seductively.

Roxas felt his cheeks burn. "Quit it!" Axel walked over to him, standing in between his legs.

"Why not? I think I can look at my boyfriend all I want. Don't you think?" he asked, gently skimming his lips over Roxas'.

He giggled. "Am I your boyfriend Axel?" He felt Axel's hands turn warm against his back, relaxing his muscles.

Axel looked at him, his eyes blazing with love. "You're more than that to me Roxas…" He nipped at his neck going to up to his lips.

They heard someone clear their throat. Axel pulled away, growling. Leon and Cloud stood there, smirking at them. "Good afternoon you two," Leon told them.

Roxas could feel himself turning even more red. Cloud laughed at him. "Roxas, are you okay? Depressed that me and Leon walked in on your moment with Axel?"

Axel snorted. "Very depressed. Mostly angry though."

Cloud held his hand out to Axel. "I'm Cloud Strife, Roxas' father or brother, whichever you wanna consider me."

Axel shook his hand. "Name's Axel. Got it memorized?"

Cloud laugh. "Don't worry I think I won't be forgetting your name anytime soon."

Roxas watched them walk to the living room. Axel went back to finishing breakfast. He sat there and watched him.

Roxas, I need to talk to you and Sora in private. Cloud told him.

Why? What's wrong? Roxas asked him.

Did anything happen? Sora joined in.

Did…Did you two feel anything weird this morning? Cloud asked them.

Roxas went still. He did have a funny feeling when he woke up. Yeah, but then again I actually slept!

Really? That's great Roxas! Sora said.

But don't you two feel like we're being watched? Cloud asked, feeling weird.

He felt Sora go silent. Yeah, I did…Roxas told them.

Me too…Sora revealed.

"I'm done!" Axel yelled. Leon and Cloud walked in the kitchen sitting down on the chairs. Axel brought plates over and put them in front of them on the dining table.

After Axel served them, they ate. Roxas felt uneasy, feeling like someone was watching them.

`~`~`Riku's POV`~`~`

He knew something wasn't right with Sora. Sora had been a little uneasy all morning. "Sora, is something going on?"

Sora shook his head. "No, why?" Riku knew he was lying.

"Sora you can tell me anything you know that right?" he asked.

Sora just gave him a serene smile. "I know that Riku," he replied.

He wrapped his arms around him from behind. "Sora, I know something isn't right. Why don't you tell me?"

"I…I just got a weird feeling that's all," he told him.

He tightened his arms. "What do you mean?"

Sora looked up at him upside down. "I don't know, me, Roxas, and Cloud just woke up with a weird feeling, that's all. Maybe we're just paranoid."

"Why do you feel weird?" he asked.

Sora shrugged. "I don't know, I just have a feeling something is watching us…"

He kissed him on the forehead. "Don't worry Sora, no one is gonna take you from me. I promise to take care of you." He heard Sora giggle.

"I know you won't, but I think we're just a little paranoid." He turned in his arms, facing him. "Roxas and Cloud are on their way here." Sora nibbled his lower lip.

"I guess I'll have to leave…" He felt Sora's cell phone vibrate in his pocket. "Who's that?"

Sora laughed, looking a little nervous and hurt. "I forgot we skipped two days of school. Tidus texted me asking if me and Roxas are okay. I just said yeah," he told him.

He smiled at the thought of Sora's friends caring about him. "It's good that have them as friends."

"Yeah, but I'm glad you're here!" Sora told him, kissing him on the cheek.

Riku let him go. "I better go get my stuff. See you later?"

Sora nodded. "Yeah, text or call me!"

He got his stuff, walking to the door. Sora walked him out. "I'll see you later." He kissed Sora passionately, and Sora didn't hold back. Spreading his wings, he flew away.

`~`~`Sora's POV`~`~`

Sora watched Riku fly away from his house, waving to him. When Riku was finally away far enough, Sora ran to his room and began packing his stuff. He felt bad lying to Riku, Roxas had sent him the message, telling him to pack his stuff. Tears fell from his face, he had to leave Riku…

His heart stopped at the thought of leaving him. After all this time, why did he have meet him now? Why now? He heard Roxas and Cloud come in the house, he walked downstairs to see them.

Roxas looked upset, Cloud looked grim. Both of them looked at him.

"Are you sure we have to?" he asked Cloud.

Cloud nodded. "Yes, we have to…can't you feel them here?"

He felt the scars on his back burn. Sephiroth and Ansem were here, no doubt about it. He tried not to cry, but a few tears came out. Roxas hugged him, crying also.

Cloud held them both, a few tears leaking from his eyes. "We leave at midnight. That's as late as I can give you," he told them.

The three of them walked to their rooms, packing up anything they needed. Sora looked at the stuffed angel Riku had given him last night. His heart felt heavy at the thought of leaving this new life behind. He had made new friends, found himself someone who loved despite all his flaws…and he had to leave it all behind. Hayner and Olette, Tidus and Selphie, Pence and KuKu, and Riku. He could feel Roxas' anguish over this as well. His brother's emotions were coming off in waves. Sadness, anger, fear…

Today was their last day of living the semi-normal life they sought for four years. He wouldn't let Sephiroth and Ansem get their filthy hands on Riku.

He felt his phone vibrate. A text message from Riku.

Hav I told u dat I luv u?:)

Maybe once;) He sent the message to him.

He received another one. Well I luv u!

He began crying again. Knowing after tonight, he would never see Riku again.

`~`~`Roxas' POV`~`~`

He sat down on his bed, trying his best not to cry over the situation. All three of them knew Ansem and Sephiroth were here, watching them. He couldn't let them get their hands on Axel. Watching Sora get beat already killed him, but seeing Axel beaten would just send him over the edge.

Both of them hadn't even said they loved each other yet. He loved Axel, but he just couldn't the words out. Axel had been the best thing that happened to him after getting out. Ever since he saw Axel, he'd grown to deal with him and his annoyance, he loved him. He had to tell him.

He looked out his window. Living here taught him and his brother a lot, they had made new friends and they had someone who could love them as damaged as they were. Axel made him feel alive and gave him hope that he could be somewhat normal. Sora was torn up about leaving, he knew Sora had fallen deeply in love with Riku and had actually seemed more open. His brother was no longer the shy boy everyone had first met. And he knew that meeting and being with Axel had changed him as well. He learned to trust someone for once besides Cloud and Sora. Shared every bit and piece of himself, expecting to be crushed, but Axel had somehow managed to put him back together.

Now, he was gonna be crushed again. Only this time, only dust would remain.

`~`~`Axel's POV`~`~`

He knew something wasn't right. He felt it in his bones. Roxas had been acting strange this morning, looking out the windows as if he was expecting something to be there. Riku was sitting on the couch, texting Sora. He texted Roxas. Wutchu doin Roxy?:)

Roxas texted him back. Cleanin my rm. How bout u?^-^

Missin u!:( I wish I could see u! He replied.

I miss u 2:( but we'll see each otha 2night!:)

He smiled at that, he couldn't wait to see him tonight. Leon was sitting on the other couch, watching TV, he knew Zexion was still at Demyx's house. He went up to his room, laying down on his bed. Roxas' scent was still in his room and on his covers and pillows. He inhaled his scent from the pillow he'd been lying on last night.

Something just wasn't right, he knew it. He knew Riku and Leon knew it, but what? What was going on? He hoped Roxas wasn't thinking about leaving him, his heart just couldn't take that. Roxas met a lot to him, even though they've only known each other for about a week. He'd seen what Roxas was, and vice versa. Both of them had accepted each other as they were. He hoped it was nothing serious, he wanted Roxas to be happy. Trusting anyone, including him, had been a big step for Roxas. Axel knew he had trust issues, but he finally learned to open up. When Axel had first met him, he'd been a boy with secrets he couldn't tell anyone, someone who'd seen too much in his short life. Now, Axel had seen him actually laugh, smile, and teased the hell out of him!

He fell asleep, still tired after a fun night with Roxas. His little masochistic, loving spitfire.

`~`~`Zexion's POV`~`~`

He'd been awake for almost two hours, watching Demyx sleep peacefully. Demyx was singing Lips of an Angel by Hinder in his sleep. He laughed, he'd never met anyone else who would sing in their sleep. After finishing the song, Demyx mumbled a few things about food, whining about Larxene and her habit of throwing knives, calling Marluxia gay, which made him laugh. Then he heard Demyx say something about him.

"I love you Zexion…"

His heart stopped. Every time he heard him say that, his heart would always stop.

Demyx shifted a little, waking up. He looked up at him and smiled. "Listening to me sing and talk again?"

He placed a small kiss on his nose. "Yes, I did. You were singing Hinder this time."

Demyx laughed. "Oh wow! Larxene and Marluxia make fun of me whenever I sing."

He laughed at that. "You called Marluxia gay."

Demyx laughed even harder. "I remember Larxene telling me that, Marluxia didn't like that. But that didn't stop us from laughing."

Zexion leaned to him and kissed his lips. Demyx moaned, letting him take control. He wanted him so bad, but he wasn't gonna push him into doing something that made him uncomfortable.

He pulled away, but Demyx forced him to continue. "Demyx?"

Demyx looked at him. "Please Zexion?" He nipped at his bottom lip. "I want to be with you."

Zexion shook his head, pulling back. "No Demyx," he said softly, brushing his hair back. "When I take you, it'll be because I think you're ready. You only think you're ready, but I know you're not."

"But how will I know when I'm ready?" Demyx asked.

"When you don't stiffen when I get close to you. When I can kiss your forehead without you shivering in fear," he told him. "You don't realize you do that, but I know you're scared and afraid after what happened. And don't worry, I've waited this long to have you. I can wait for as long as you need to recover."

Demyx's lower lip trembled. "But what if I never recover? What if I'm always afraid? You can only wait for so long…"

Zexion forced him to look at him, kissing him gently. "Demyx, I've wanted you since I first saw you when I moved here. I've waited since then to just to be able to talk you. I know I can longer before I fully claim you as mine. I'll be here for you no matter what."

He saw Demyx smile at him, hugging him tightly. "Even though I stiffen or shiver, I still feel safe being next to you," he told him. "You make me feel safe Zexy."

He arched his eyebrow, smirking. "Zexy huh? Is that your new nickname for me?"

Demyx nodded, laughing. "Yes, you're…Sexy Zexy!" he said, looking proud of himself for thinking of the nickname.

He only chuckled, kissing his cheek and hugging him tighter. "Then I'll call you Bubbles since I know you love bubbles."

"I love it!" Demyx said.

`~`~`Demyx's POV`~`~`

They laid there, not saying a word. He was glad that Zexion had stayed with him for the night. He still had a nightmare about what happened, but Zexion had helped him feel a little better and comforted him when he needed. He'd never feel the same ever again, but Zexion gave him hope that maybe he could feel better and recover.

He looked up at Zexion. "Zexy?"

"Yes Bubbles?" Zexion asked.

He smiled at the nickname Zexion had given him. "I…I really love you…" He felt his face flush.

Zexion looked at him, smiling. "I love you too, Bubbles." He felt Zexion's lips press against his.

`~`~`Sora's POV`~`~`

It had been a few hours since he'd last seen Riku. He laid in bed all day, not wanting to think about what he had to do. Him, Roxas, and Cloud decided on what they had to do. Leaving Riku would be the hardest thing he'd ever have to do. All the scars he received wouldn't compare even close to this. He held onto the angel Riku gave him last night. Why? Why did I have to meet him? Why is my life turning out like this? I don't wanna do this…

He had been crying since Riku left. Riku had been the best thing to ever happen to him. "I don't wanna leave him…"

He got a text message from Riku. Wut time can I come ova?

His heart almost broke. At 6

Ok! I'll b der!:)

He put his phone down next to him. Riku was about to see him for the last time. He didn't want to leave. He'd met Riku, loved him, and now he had to leave.

He just barely noticed it was five-fifty. Riku would be here soon. He heard Roxas and Cloud leave the house, going with Axel and Leon.

Riku came to house after they left. "Sora?" He heard Riku come into the house.

He walked downstairs, feeling his heart swell with love. "Hey…"

Riku lifted him, kissing his lips. "I missed you." He carried Sora to the couch, sitting down with him on his lap.

"I missed you too," he told him. He hoped Roxas and Cloud were having a great time; he felt like his heart was about to pound its way out of his chest.

He felt Riku's lips on the back of his neck. "Is everything okay? You're eyes look a little puffy and red." Riku looked concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine," he lied. Riku made him straddle him on the couch.

"I know you're lying Sora. You can't hide that from me. Tell me what's wrong," Riku told him.

He couldn't tell him. Telling Riku what he'd have to do would tear him up. "Everything is okay, Riku."

Riku kissed his nose. "I'll let it go for now, but I wanna know."

"So what are we gonna do?" he asked.

"How bout we go out to the beach?" Riku suggested.

"Sure, let's go," Sora said.

Riku held his hand as they walked over to the beach. He felt Riku's thumb rubbing over the pulse on his wrist.

"Riku, what would you do if I left?" he asked.

Riku leaned his head down to nip at his favorite spot on his neck. "I'd look for you and bring you back," he replied.

Sora felt himself turn red. He knew Riku would look for him. They walked along the beach when they got there. Riku suddenly flopped down on the sand, taking Sora down with him. He laid on top of him, resting his head on his chest.

Riku's fingers brushed through his hair. He wondered what Riku would do after he left. Would he hate him? Would he find someone else? Would he forget about him? He hoped Riku would be happy though, he just didn't want to be forgotten. But if being forgotten meant Riku's happiness, he wouldn't mind; he had his memories to remember Riku. "Would you ever forget me if I left?"

Riku's hand stopped. "I wouldn't ever forget you Sora. And you're not leaving. Why do you keep bringing this up?"

He didn't bother looking up at him. "I'm just wondering, that's all…"

He was on the sand, looking up at Riku, who was preventing him from moving. "What's going on Sora? You've been acting strange since this morning. Did Roxas or Cloud tell you something about us?"

Sora shook his head, trying to look innocent. "No, I'm just wondering that's all."

Riku sighed. "Sora, what's wrong? Are you regretting being with me?"

"NO!" he yelled. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell. But no, life isn't easy for me, you know that. I just have bad feelings, I don't and won't ever regret being with you."

Riku kissed his forehead. "Good, cause I know I don't regret being with you. I'm so happy I found you."

He felt his heart getting heavier. "What time is it? I'm starving."

Riku took out his cell phone and looked at the time. "It's seven. Wow time sure does move by fast."

It was seven already? By midnight, they had leave. He wished he could've stayed longer, but he had to protect Riku. Sephiroth and Ansem wouldn't hesitate to capture Riku and his family or kill them. He couldn't let that happen. "Let's go eat; I haven't eaten much all day."

Riku helped him up, cleaning the sand off his back, his hands particularly paid attention to his bottom. He cleaned the sand off Riku, who was staring at him intensely.

"What?" he asked.

Riku grinned. "Nothing, just admiring the most wonderful thing in my life."

He felt his heart skip a few beats. He hoped he was still the most wonderful thing after he left.

`~`~`Riku's POV`~`~`

He knew something was up, but Sora wouldn't tell him. Axel had said that Roxas was acting weird as well, and so did Leon. All three of the Strife brothers were acting strange, he hoped Sora wasn't gonna leave him. His heart tore at the thought of him leaving, he'd be missing a piece of his soul if he left.

They walked to Sora's house, he ordered pizza. Sora sat on the couch, turning on the TV. He sat down next to him, resting his arm around his shoulders.

Sora looked at him and smiled. "Am I really the most wonderful thing in your life Riku?"

He wanted to laugh at Sora's doubt, he couldn't believe Sora would think less of himself. "Yes, you are."

Sora giggled and kissed him on the cheek. They sat there until their pizza arrived.

`~`~`Axel's POV`~`~`

Riku had told him that Sora was acting weird just like Roxas. He looked at him, wondering what was going on. They had eaten already, now they were lying on his bed watching TV. Roxas would every once in a while look at him and smile.

"You okay Roxy?" he asked.

Roxas just smiled. "Yeah, why?"

"Nothing, just wondering, that's all," he replied. Roxas snuggled more against him. He bit at his shoulder. The first thing he'd done when Roxas showed up, was make out with him. He had managed to get his shirt off but he didn't want to strip him naked just yet. Roxas had managed to get off all his clothes, except his boxers. Ever since he learned that Roxas didn't wear underwear of any kind, he always fantasized about it.

"Keep your thoughts to yourself Axel!" Roxas complained.

He forgot he had to keep his thoughts hidden, especially with physical contact with Roxas. "I can't help it Roxy," he whined.

Roxas turned a bright red. "Quit thinking about my underwear."

"I'm thinking of your lack of underwear," he corrected. He moved his hand over the front of Roxas' pants.

"Axel, behave," Roxas ordered.

He bit at his shoulder again. "I'm not doing anything Roxy." He looked at him innocently, moving his hand inside.

Roxas shivered. "Axel…" He couldn't get another word out when Axel stroked him.

"Shh, just relax Roxas," he whispered. He felt Roxas thrusting into his hand. "You're enjoying this."

Roxas moaned. "Stop…"

Axel smiled, removing his hand. "Okay, I'll stop Roxy." He heard growling noises from Roxas.

Roxas glared at him. "What the hell! Finish me Axel!" He tried to grab his hand, but he kept it away.

He grinned evilly at him, pinning his wrists together. "Now now Roxy. You told me to stop, so I stopped." He laughed when Roxas groaned, trying to get loose.

"Please Axel?" he asked, making himself look innocent with sad, wide, puppy dog eyes.

He couldn't help but give into him, spooning against Roxas. His hand went back to where he had it. Roxas gasped, thrusting into his hand.

"Faster Axel," Roxas moaned.

He moved his hand faster, making it hotter than normal human temperature. Roxas made little noises, thrusting harder into his hand. Axel took off his pants before he ruined them. His hand squeezed his shaft harder, stroking him faster. He felt Roxas grow even harder and longer.

Roxas yelled out loud. "Axel!"

He felt him release in his hand. Roxas shivered, releasing his fluids. Axel nipped at his shoulder. "Feel better Roxy?"

Roxas laughed. "Much." He looked at Axel, frowning. "Why am I the one always naked? When are you gonna strip for once?"

He bit hard at his shoulder, watching Roxas yelp. "I love you naked. You're really cute Roxy."

Roxas just laid there, snuggling more against him. Axel wrapped the blanket around him. "I love you…" He felt him stiffen; he knew Roxas would freak out a little from him saying. His little spitfire probably didn't believe him. "I really do love you Roxas."

Roxas still didn't say anything. "I know you do…"

He knew his Roxy wouldn't ever admit it also; he looked at the time on the clock. Eight forty-five.

`~`~`Roxas' POV`~`~`

It's not enough time. I want more time. He curled up more against the one person he could ever love. Please just stop time, so I can be with him.

He wondered what Axel would do after he left. I really love you Axel…

How he wished he could say those four little words out loud.

Roxas? Are you okay? Cloud asked.

Yeah, I'm fine. He lied.

We have to leave sooner Roxas and Sora. I'm sorry, but I can't bear to be near Leon any longer knowing what we have to do…He could the sob in Cloud's voice.

His heart stopped. He had to leave now? His brother was crying, he could hear it inside his mind. He looked up at Axel, who kissed his cheek. "Axel?"

"Yeah?" he replied.

Roxas took the blanket off and straddled him. "I…" He couldn't get the words out his throat.

"Don't say anything you don't wanna say," Axel told him.

He laid back down, watching TV with him until he felt Axel's hand become hot. Really hot. "Axel?"

"What's wrong Roxy?" Axel asked him. His finger was making a pattern on his hip.

"You're burning me!" he shouted at him.

Axel immediately took his hand, looking down at the burnt mark he made. He saw him become a little pale. "I'm so sorry Roxas!"

He looked at the mark on his hip. It looked like Axel's chakrams. "You branded me?"

Axel looked at him a little sheepishly. "Yeah, I didn't know what I was doing."

Weird thing was, he wasn't angry at him. "I'm not mad at you Axel…I think I like it."

Axel smiled at him. "Really? I'm glad you do!"

Roxas kissed him, for the last time, watching Axel. Axel's eyes began to close, he pulled away, looking at him.

"Roxy…? I'm so sleepy all of sudden are you?" he asked.

Good, it was working. He snuggled against him, letting him have this one last moment. "I'm so sorry Axel…"

Axel fell asleep with his arms around him. He stayed there for a few minutes, savoring the feel of his inferno. He'd never see Axel again.

Getting up, he changed into his clothes. He ran up to Axel's room writing a note to him, then left it under his pillow. Axel was still sleeping on the couch when he went downstairs. Roxas felt his heart breaking, he kissed Axel's lips. "I love you Axel, I always will…" With that said, he left.

`~`~`Sora's POV`~`~`

Roxas had left already.

Sora looked at Riku, they had gone through the window of his house, wanting to avoid the noise Roxas was making downstairs with Axel. He looked at Riku, who was watching TV. His heart broke at the thought of doing this.

"I really love you Riku," he told him.

Riku smiled at him. "I love you too Sora." He bent down, kissing him on the lips.

Sora knew this was it, he slowly hypnotized him. He saw Riku's eyes closing. "I'll love you Riku, no matter what…" Riku slumped down next to him.

It's done, I'm leaving…Sora left, not looking back to see the only person he loved. He saw Cloud and Roxas already waiting at the house. "I'm ready…"

Cloud nodded, he could see the redness in Cloud's eyes. I'm so sorry…

"Let's go," Cloud said.