Nagori no Omoi
Wings of Pain
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Disclaimer:
I don’t own Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy or any of its characters. Welcome to
the wonderful world of Fanfiction!
Warning:
This fic contains at least SHOUNEN-AI (guys
possibly YAOI (explicit sex scenes between guys). And implied
kissin’ and cuddlin’)
Pairings (in
alphabetically order): Axel X Roxas, Leon X Cloud,
X Zell (implied), Tidus X Wakka
X Tidus, Zexion X
Author’s Note:
Sephiroth. I have counted, Sephiroth
has “died and returned” 8 times throughout FFVII and KH. In Crisis Core/Last
Order (2): Cloud impaled Sephiroth and left him for dead, Cloud threw Sephiroth
into a pool of Mako below the reactor. FFVII (2): Cloud kills Jenova in
Sephiroth's form, Sephiroth is killed by Cloud and dissolves
into the lifestream. Advent Children (1): Kadaj transforms into a one winged
Sephiroth and is killed by Cloud. KH(2): In KH1 the
end of the Cloud/Sephiroth battle is unknown, in KH2 the same, Cloud and
Sephiroth fight again and the outcome is unknown. Dissidia FF (1): Sephiroth
appears with connections to Cloud in Destiny Odyssey I, V, VII, and Shade Impulse.
He continues to taunt Cloud about being manipulated by himself (Sephiroth) and
there is a final battle between the two in Destiny Odyssey VII. So basically
based on this and in Tactics Cloud seems to hear Sephiroth in his head and in
KH Sephiroth is the darkness inside Cloud that causes the wing phenomenon; and
whether or not you are of the belief that some of this angst is due to
Sephiroth raping Cloud—I believe that Sephiroth is a direct link to Clouds
mental state.
Happy
Reading!
-Na
Nagori no
Omoi
Memory 10:
Wings of Pain
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Cloud was near tears, he hadn’t slept the
previous night at all and the sun was currently high in the sky. The blond was pretty
sure that weapons club had already started but he couldn’t go there now, not
with the Masamune in the weapons room. If the
would not be far behind and Cloud could not do that again. He had seen that man
die so many times, felt his presence in his very core, "I will...never be
a memory."
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>The blond didn’t want to hear it, shaking his
head he buried his face in his lap and thought of anything else. Blue eyes saw
mind told him, but his eyes and ears told him they were worried for him.
Shaking his head Cloud saw his blank wall.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>He had not seen them like that since the
hallucinations caused by the Geostigma. Clouds heart
thudded loudly against his chest and in the pain Cloud gripped his chest with
an indignant cry. "I will...never be a
memory."
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>“Iie,” mumbled the
ex-SOLIDER, “Iie, you are, the lifestream is safe
from you and Jenova.” The words fell on empty ears.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Trying once more to distract himself the pained
blond thought of Tifa, shaking his head once more as
the guilt welled into his being. Tifa had never
understood him, or his pain. He had packed up and left on Fenrir,
heard about the college and after getting on a ferry and coming to this island
he had been accepted at the college, getting a spot in the second year.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Part of Cloud wanted to call
she would approve. That the blond wanting to further his education and forget
what he had been made into would make her proud. But it was a lie, it was all a
lie. Cloud left for one reason: to protect them. He would always come for Cloud; He
would never leave him alone. He was
in Cloud’s head, in his heart, in his soul, the lifestream wasn’t even a
comfort anymore. A different pain and guilt, didn’t even block out the chanting
the taunting from Him.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Blue eyes scanned the room in a frantic half
panic; he spotted a red cloak through the open closet door. Vincent.
sins had consumed him. Cloud chuckled, he probably should call Vincent tell him
that sins would never be forgiven, not until the lifestream, at least, Cloud
hoped. It was funny not too long ago Cloud had though sins were forgiven as the
Geostigma was erased from the people and the
lifestream was safe. But
be a memory."
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Cloud shook his head and went through all his
old friends. Barret and his AVALANCHE, Denzel and
Marlene, Cid, Elena, Rude and Reno, Tseng,
none of them helped in the end they were all Him, as he was Him. Like
Kadaj, Loz and Yazoo said; brothers, they were all
brothers—all Him.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB;mso-bidi-font-weight:bold'>The pain surged
through his heart and down his spine once more and Cloud gritted his teeth
looking briefly at the clock he realised that it was already night again. He
vaguely wished that he had been given some material from Yuffie yesterday
perhaps his pain could be cured—“Yuffie.”
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB;mso-bidi-font-weight:bold'>How had he forgotten
her? And she was here, she had been babbling about the college to Cloud and
well here he was. She had changed, he had no doubt that she was still dangerous
and cocky you would probably be hard set to get her to be anything like the
princess that she was, but in all of that this hyper-Yuffie wasn’t too bad.
Cloud was happy; Selphie was good for Yuffie and was
happy that the kunoichi
seemed to be healing from her own past. It seemed to be the true nature of the
college. Soon though Cloud’s mind drifted to the past, and of
Yuffie stealing from them in the woods. And as his mind wandered it
headed to more dangerous thoughts. Shaking his head, the blond desperately
searched his mind for someone else to occupy his time with.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Who was going to distract him now? That kid,
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>The silver-haired youth could have been a
relative of His, before Cloud could
turn his thoughts away He whispered,
“Riku fell into the darkness out of fear from his
love, and then fell for his love. You should fall too.”
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>“Iie,
his head as another ripple of pain ripped through his torso. Taking a few deep
shuttering breaths the only comfort Cloud took was that the whisper sounded
word-wise nothing like Him.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>Leon, Leon was next. Leon had no connection to
anything. Flashes from his dream made Cloud inhale sharply. It couldn’t be the
blond head shook, but there in his mind before his eyes were his dreams—no not
dreams, reality. The reality where Aerith
had been ripped from the lifestream. A tear rolled down Cloud’s cheek,
the pain in his heart and back increased.
style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>The reality of Leon, Sora, Riku, Axel, Roxas,
Demyx, all of them, even—“Sephiroth.” The pain pulsated out of Cloud’s heart
and directly to his spine and shoulder blade. It was what Cloud had been
unconsciously trying to prevent, this dissent. His skin burned on his left
shoulder blade, through his screams and the blood Cloud distantly heard his own
shirt rip, a leathery beat in the air, and blood hit the walls as his head hit
the floor in sweet unconsciousness.
Author’s
Note: I know
Cloud is a bit OOC, but I am going on the fact that Cloud just remembered Leon
and his mental state is very fragile. Not to mention that he is in lots of pain
from the wing ripping from his back. "I will...never
Children. I apologise ahead of time the next chapter
will also involve über-emo Cloud.
enjoyed it. Please review no matter what.
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style='mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>-Na
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